Missy-Kim

omg!

2010-06-29T16:38:00.001+08:00

okies, there really is people that reads this crap.. let me know if u're reading ok!

i realise after almost 6 years of blogging, i've only clock like 300+ post..

i think im super duper lousy at this..

KNOCK KNOCK

2010-06-29T15:06:00.002+08:00

this space is practically a dead town now...

its been eons since last the last post, n i can practically see cobwebs building up..

i was looking through nuffnang, n i happen to wonder if there are anyone that bothers to even visit this rusty site..

apparently not. i can smell mould.

i shall try, n revive this dead piece of crap..

effing pissed

2009-11-02T16:29:00.002+08:00

FUCKING PETER!!!!!!!!!!!

fuck urself!!! hateful asshole... u have absolutely no asshole, that ur shit is flowing backwards, right into ur brains. SHITBRAIN!

i hate peter, i hate SHELL!!!

2009-09-08T15:49:00.000+08:00

i'm really busy...

and i need to breath!!!! over whelming work with shrewd contacts. i need to impove my skills.

2009-08-24T16:25:00.001+08:00

a past that i wish to delete. learn to embrace? close to impossible...

2009-08-23T13:42:00.000+08:00

was what i saw the truth? or that im just being sensitive?

im really not too sure of my feelings now.. should i trust as much as i wish i could, or should i just believe my own eyes?

sometimes, intuitions really might just be feelings that aid u in seeing the facts.

i hope this time, im really wrong.

S Diary. and my thoughts

2009-08-21T11:17:00.001+08:00

I'm Starting to seriously hate Blogger.. its bloody pissing me off... i cant upload pics!!!!

anyway, started my day super early today, met baby on the way to work to pick up the racket and met ms boey to get SOUP FROM HER!!!

yes, that sweet slut made soup and gave me a share of it... its not lunch time yet, but i hope its good!!!

anyway, since i came in early and my bosses were not ard, wanted to watch Orphan online, but i lack the GUTS... so there i go decided to watch smth that i've seen years ago, called S Diary..

shortly, the story tells about this young women, ditched and finds herself thinking about her past relationships and wonders wad made them all go wrong. Having done that, and seeking the answers to her questions she finds revenge on them, making them pay for wad they owned her.. kisses, hugs, sex, mis-shots, motel stays... blah blah blah..

in the mist of seeking revenge, she finds her true self and at the end of the story, she may have made her point wht these men, but still she wasnt happy... short flashbacks shown on how these men, thou have treated her badly, seem to at 1 point of time or another loved her for who she was.

the main point of the story was not to say how revenge can be made, but more of in every relationship that each of us have been through, we think of the times when WE put in the effort for the other party.. yet very much weighing in the fact that u THINK that he is not loving u or treating you as much or as well as u have hoped for.. thats where the other sotry comes about. As we move along the line in our life, we learn to be greedy. Expectations of each other increases along the way of being together, and when in the past, a simple smile would mean a great damn deal, now that smile has to be taken over by a long string of hugs n kisses before the "i Love u" comes along..

I admit to being vengeful, admit to being evil of seeking for revenge for stuff that i believe would have belonged to me, or to call it simplier to make things that were suppose to be mine, mine. and to make YOUR life as miserable as can be, cos im much more worthy then u think i am.

yet when everything settles down and we grow up and start another chapter of our life, we find that revenge is not really needed, cos who actually cares about it? and so wad? after 10 ro 20 years, u're not that sweet lil loving thing that people loved u for who u are, yet u r that evil being that seeked revenge, cos u THOUGHT that u deserve more.. YUP. thats wad u will be remembered for... thou im pretty sure im that sweet lil thing that everyone LOVES!!! :D

back to the point, we should all be gratful for wad people around u are giving u, and gratful for the love that u share. dont take it for granted that people SHOULD love u, people SHOULD do the thigns they have been doing, cos they dont really HAVE to do it.

point spoken, and im stilll waiting for blogger to be up again, so that i can upload pics!

Black and White

2009-07-31T14:47:00.002+08:00

totally LOVE this song...

k box session with the people!!!

2009-07-30T10:12:00.004+08:00

went k box on mon with yao n jying.. the dinner package, with buffet and its at a pretty good rate.. 23++ dinner n 4 hrs of singing..

the fun was there, and we took many pics so much that we look like poly kids playing with a new camera...

yao is hooked to this crap, and calling us for another session soon...

he wants to be a singing sensation................... small brain, big dreams.

Short Hair

2009-07-30T09:37:00.002+08:00

i cut my hair again... im not too sure if its visible, but anyway, its SHORT now!!! n i kinda like it... ignoring the fact that my sisters r saying it looks bad..

spasming from laughter.

2009-07-23T14:33:00.003+08:00

My conversation with baby:

him: baby... u going off work le.. i sweeping floor now..

me: i sad... u 4got me already..

him: i never forget you!!! you my baby, how to forget.... connect?

me: u rmb ur weights, u 4got bout ur baby.. unless as u do u think of me?

him: of course!! must make muscle big big for you to squeeze!! hahaha..

my baby is close to killing me by making me control my laughter in office..

btw, blogger sucks!!!! y cant i upload pics???

aftermath of Paintball

2009-07-16T13:31:00.003+08:00

this is just 1 of the many bruises that i have... imagine the very next day of paintball, i woke up late, cos i couldnt get out of bed due to the pain..

my leg's bruise is so bad that its practically black.. but cos im wearing pants, abit hard for me to take a pic of it...

i went shopping on mon, while waiting for ben.. n decided to try on a dress... short halter dress..

when i walked out of the fitting room, n look into the mirror, i scared the hell outta myself.. i look like a tortured kid.. literally..

Paint Ball = PAIN BALL = bruised

2009-07-13T14:06:00.012+08:00

i wont say much about how FUN or how PAINFUL it is, but basically the bruise is big n bumpy, with a marble size hole, n mega blood shot ard it...

but generally its mega fun... n it was a great chance to meet up with peeps that i haven see for the longest time lo... YUAN HAO BECOME FIT!!!!

My Shoes.

2009-07-10T13:43:00.002+08:00

recently took my shoes out to clean them up... and since there hasnt been enough space for more, i decided to throw some away.... dumped about 5 i think?

i never thought i had alot of shoes... i always felt i dont have enough... but when i saw this, i'm pretty convince i have quite abit of shoes...

thou i noe i have alot, recently included 2 new family members to my shoe collection!!!

terrible... i noe..but every shoe has its different purposes... so every occasion calls for a different kinda shoes... n there is no multi purpose shoe in this world.. so every top has to match with different shoes... Thats y girls need so many shoes!!!

2009-07-09T12:23:00.002+08:00

I was asked to update... but i have NOTHING TO BLOG ABOUT!!!!

blog about my day?

i woke up at 7.20, and pressed the snooze button, cos im WAY too tired, and i need to catch another few winks... alarm goes off again at 7.30 and i fall right back to sleep.... jolt awake for no reason at 7.40.. I AM OFFICAILLY LATE AGAIN.. not that it really matters, but still... anyway, i rushed and took left home in record time, 20 mins... took the bus, and changed train.. manage to be in office by 9.05am... as usual no one is ard... so i took my own sweet time, eat my bread, drink my soy milk, and start my day by sufring net...

its 5.45 and i've done 1 whole day of surfing net... nothing else.. pack up my stuff, go n take a pee, drink some water again... n off at i go at 6pm SHARP... i head off home, slump myself on the sofa, and start watching tv all the way until 11pm.. den i go to bed, n talk to baby...

this is officially the most boring post i've done in ages... thou i cant say that im interesting to begin with, but my boring day, is so insignificant, that maybe telling the cockroach that i flush down the toilet bowl would already be a suffering to it...

anyway, im taking part in the OSIM mini traithlon... and 2 weeks before that, im gonna take part in the Shape ran, which i doubt i can do better den wad i did for passion run... this time round, i think i might only be able to complete 5km without stopping only... im so lousy... which thereafter OSIM thingy, im going Phuket and once im back, another 10km.. i totally believe when people tell me im crazy..

BUT I CANT REGRET NOW!!!! its freaking MONEY we r talking about here... i just hope i dun die right there..

recently i have been playing facebook games so much that i dun see anythign else on my wall anymore... its all stuff like "Kimberly is playing Bejeweled", "Kimberly request help in Mafia Wars".. i need a life, and i need it SOONN!!!!

and after alot alot alot of procrastinating, i've finally made my move and started my driving lessons... and to save myself the hassle and the nonsense, i've enrolled for AUTO!!! yes.... auto FYI... i dont want to strain myself n try to get a manual license when eventually im 100% sure im gonna get an Auto car...

oh btw, i'm officially employed and working full time now... pay wise, getting the same as wad im getting at the previous company, except hat previously was a total including allowance, but here, no allowance.. so technically speaking im getting more here..

wad else do i need to update??? cant really recall......

oh! i just cut my hair... n its hideous... but there is nth i can do bout it...

is that considered an update?

Tioman Trip, 16th May 2009 to 18th May 2009

2009-06-23T10:51:00.034+08:00

My very overdue Tioman Trip..

yes, after so long i'm finally done with uploading the pics here... our 1st trip to Tioman!!!

departure was at 6.30a.m. so i woke up at 5.a.m and took a cab to pick the other 3 of them... and the journey all the way to the tioman took us so damn long that by the time we reach, it was 3.30pm and its raining.... how LUCKY..

the journey there, was bumpy, and the ferry ride was so choppy and stuff that baby and min min were at the verge of puking already...

i'm trained.. so it was alright for me...

anyway, there is so many pics and im just lazy to go word for word... so pic speaks for me!

at the jetty of mersing..

i still look fresh after the bumpy bus ride, which i was sleep for 3/4 of the ride..

the simple and cosy room...

users of the room!

The Resort..

its very beautiful there, where just outside the room is a walkway, which is surrounded by a pond, where u can feed fishes...

its not JUST fishes thou... its surrounded by MONKEYS!!!

on the 2nd mrn that we were there, 7am in the mrn, we heard screeches, and alot of noise... and when i open the curtain, a whole pack of monkey, bout 5 or 6 of them invading our trash!!!!! and not just juat... there were POOING ALL OVER OUR FRONT DOOR!!!!!

i was too tired so didnt climb out of bed to get the camera...

The Khakis... (1) Lim Xue Min..
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(2) Patrick

aftr dinner the 1st night, decided to spend some time at the beach, so once we started, our artist cells couldn't stop!

of all drawn mostly done by alvin... some patrick, some xuemin... 100% none by me! hahaha... im lousy

the bird in the shadow

after 101 attempts to do this properly, we finally did 1 that looks the best of all

and all before i made alvin piggy back me....which he almost dropped me..

Sunny Island Coconut tree

me n baby!!!

min min n patrick

baby trying to eat me up...

beware of coconut!!!!

Day 2.. Snorkelling Trip

look at the clouds!!

sleepy head...

day 3... nothing better to do den play dai dee

n finally, in the bus at the custom!!!

we have the same mole in the same hand, at the same spot....

througout the whole trip, out free time was spend playing dai dee, n im suppose to be pretty good at it!! but i lost so much, that i only won 2 times... my green coloured nemesis...

My Birthday Treat!

2009-06-23T10:24:00.005+08:00

Long Over due post for my Birthday.... ITS BEEN ONE MONTH ALREADY!!!!!!

anyway, cos we away on my b'dae itself, so the following day we went out for Max Berner!!!

my red like lobster baby...

this thing is called SUCKAO! n super yummy... melted chocolate with milk... gives me tummy ache, but still worth it..

some chocolate cake which i cant rmb the name to it, cos its too yummy n i 4got the snap a shot of eat bafore taking a bite!

Love

2009-06-19T17:22:00.001+08:00

i read this email from my friend today...

One day, a son asks his dad "Daddy, would you like to run a marathon with me?". The father says "yes".And they run their first marathon together.

Another time, the son asks his dad again "Daddy, would you like to run a marathon with me?". The father says "yes son".

One day, the son asks his father " Daddy, would you run the Ironman with me?"The Ironman is the most difficult triathlon ever (4 kms swimming, 180 kms bikin, 42 km running?)

And the dad says "yes".

The story looks simple until you watch the following clip. Just amazing, how much can love be....?

so damn touching...

Mid Night Summer Breeze

2009-06-12T10:11:00.002+08:00

Decided to meet up with the poly mates again... this time at Pasir Ris Park, new place called Mid Night Summer Breeze...

as usual, we talked alot about stuff.. stuff like how who use to dislike who, and wad our opinions were, and how change is being the only constant thing...

got news too... that Zester will be leaving for Scotland.. thats for the next 4 Years... of cos he will be back sometime 1 year or so later... but subsequently he will definately be missed. thou the time that we meet is little, but Yao will definately miss him to the max..

This place that we went, great ambience, but the food is not really too good... due to the heatwave, it was pretty hot initially.. but after awhile, plus the strong (i think its KDK) fan. more or less everything settled down, we talked and drank a little....

everytime we have such meet ups, we always feel a sense of confort, like we all know it... yet deep down, no one expected that poly friends are just the 4 of us.. being close.

anyway, keeping that aside.. the next meet up i suppose lets find somewhere in the west, or somewhere central...

I left my last job with a heavy heart on the 29th of May... yup.. i wish i didnt have to leave... yet at the same time, i got another job... which is at the new company 1 of my director started...

new jobscope would be to settle some accounting stuff, settle some admin stuff, n being the only staff in the company, im suppose to do all the other things that my bosses are not doing...

i notice that i enjoy working alone... in the event where im confined, i cannot excel...yet when im put alone, and thigns to be done at my own pace i tend to work better, faster and more outstanding... im enjoying my work now... at least for this 1 week.... working from 1 - 6 everyday gives me alot more free time to do what i want to do... which is pretty fun still...

12 May 2008

2009-05-20T10:17:00.005+08:00

Joe being nice, decided to treat me n min min for our b'dae!!! so off we went to KHA at Hortpark...

im lazy to go into details of each dish, n also that its been so long, n i've already 4gotten bout it...

so just the pictures that will tell a million words..

Reflections of a Skyline

2009-05-08T17:51:00.001+08:00

"And I want to play hide and seek, give you my clothes, tell you I love your shoes, sit on the steps when you take a bath, and massage your neck. And kiss your face, hold your hand, and go for a walk. Not mind when you eat my food, and meet you at Rudy's and talk about the day. Talk about your day and laugh at your, your paranoia. I give you tapes you don't even listen to, watch great films, watch terrible films. And tell you about the TV-program I saw the night before, and not laugh at your jokes. I want you in the morning, but let you sleep in for a while. Tell you how much I love your eyes, your lips, your neck, your tits, your arse. Sit on the steps, thinking, 'till your neighbours come home. Sit on the steps thinking 'till you come home. And worry when you're late, and be amazed when you're early. I'd give you sunflowers and go to your party and dance. Be sorry when I'm wrong and happy when you forgive me. Look at your photos and wish I'd known you forever. Hearing your voice in my ear, feel your skin on my skin, and get scared when you're angry. I tell you you're gorgeous, and hug you when you're anxious, and hold you when you're hurt, want you when I smell you, offend you when I touch you and whimper when I'm next to you. Whimper when I'm not. Dribble on your breast. Smother you in the night and get cold when you take the blanket and hot when you don't. Melt when you smile, dissolve when you laugh. But not understand how you think I'm rejecting you when I'm not rejecting you, and wonder how you could ever think I'm rejecting you. And wonder who you are, but I accept you anyway. And tell you about the tree angel, the enchanted forest boy who flew across the whole ocean because he loved you. I'd buy you presents you don't want and take them away again. And ask you to marry me, and you say no again but I keep on asking because though you think I don't mean it but I always have from the first time I asked you. I wander the city thinking. It's empty without you but I want what you want and think. I'm losing myself. But... But. But. I'll tell you the worst of me and try to give you the best of me because you don't deserve any less. Answer your questions when I'd rather not, and tell you the truth when I really don't want to, and try to be honest because I know you prefer it. And think it's all over, but hang on for just ten more minutes before you throw me out of your life. Forget who I am and let me try and get closer to you. And somehow, somehow, somehow communicate some of the overwhelming, undying, overpowering, unconditional, all-encompassing, heart-enriching, mind-expanding, ongoing, never-ending love... I have for you."

IMPERRECTIONS

2009-05-05T11:33:00.003+08:00

life as such is made up of many many small and random stuff that builts the floor, the wall n the ceiling of a long time, a long time we call life...

in each n everyone's house of life, the floorings are different, the walls are different, the ceilings are different. the type of flooring used, the colours on the ways, the height of ceiling, the sofa in the house, the lightings hanging from the ceiling, the little little items that builts this house of each n everyone's life...

in my life, things happen not within my control, and such things brings themself to appear as important things, and appears to show me how much i bother, how much i care....

like baby always tell me, Things happen for a reason.. so regardless if its a good reason or a bad one, its things that make us grow, make us notice our importance in life, and notice how beautifully our house of life have been decorated with insignificant yet important items..

CRAZY ASSHOLE NO 2, MR BAM BAM BASTARD

2009-04-30T09:59:00.003+08:00

i have about 200+ contacts in my MSN... bout 70% of them are offline most of the time, and the remaining 30% some of which i dont even know who they are...

just like this bam bam bastard...

just to make things clear, i DID NOT use his wadever service.... i dont need it..

anyway, just about 5 or 10 mins ago MR big ass cock bambam bastard msged me on MSN....
i seriously have no idea who he is... but anyway, conversation as follows:

I shall be independent. now!! says:
eah?

u forgotten me??
ur cam slave lae!
u used me on cam before de..
remember?

kimberly says:
eh...... ?

I shall be independent. now!! says:
arrr

kimberly says:
remind me please..

I shall be independent. now!! says:
I have a pretty indecent but fun proposal for you.. do you wanan use a 24m tall and slim chinese/indian mix slave on cam ?
i'll obey all ur orders and perform everything you order me to do LIVE on cam for you, i've got frozen sausages, whipped cream. butter and other stuff you can use on me.. wanna try me? gurentee to make u wet like never before..
you can make me oil myself well and shaft the frozen sausages deep all the way into my ass and force me to mast till i cum all over my body in less than 3 mins for u.. If i cant meet ur standard u can always punish me by making me do squats.. pushups and stuff.. humiliate me anyway u want.
remember??
yah yah??

kimberly says:
fuck u la...

so dear friends.... those who have NEEDs to be SATISFIED, those who require LIVE on CAM SQUATS, please do contact MR BAM BAM BASTARD at bam_bam8x@hotmail.com.. im sure he would love some publications for his OH SO BIG COCK...

91871540

2009-04-27T15:12:00.002+08:00

this asshole that has been msging me for the longest time.... is really to the limit of my tolerance...

i have no idea wad his name is, except that 1st its zen, den its ryan, now its mark....

but this fella has very lil brains.... he 4got that he is messing ard with the wrong person.... my name is kim, not some sandra, or sally... im not to be messed ard with...

lets see how long he can play this sick joke with me...

so friends out there, when u have the chance, please call this fella n play with him, or send him some irritating msg... for the sake of me ok? love u all... muacks muacks muacks!!!

anyway, i've got afew job offers already... i should say, im pretty lucky in this aspect... i dun really have to LOOK... cos life is as such... u create good relationships with people that u meet, u somehow get good connection where u dun have to look, other's will seek them for u....

im pretty lucky...

anyway, was telling baby ytd bout this:

一个人的霸道, 是身边的人所造成的.

a person's unreasonablility is caused by the people ard...

so if the person ard u is unreasonable, then its ur causing for it....

COMPLICATIONS OF LIFE

2009-04-21T09:31:00.002+08:00

7 Months back, i started this job, excited about the trills and rewards that i can get out of working with a small yet powerful and experienced group of people..

yet this day, 7 months later... my heart weighs heavily down with the notice of retrenchment...

of cos this notice did not arrive today, but last week, but writing it today makes me feel the impact greater...

thou not so much of worried that i cant get a job, but the sense of lost and the lost of family makes my heart sour and cringly..

i'm not worried i cant get a job, cos like wad Kelvin told me ytd, i'm not that hardup for money.. another point is that i dont want to jump into another random job, and after several months, im up n running again, finding smth else that suits me... reflects badly in my resume...

working here taught me alot of things that pretty much allows me to see where i stand, boost my confidence more, and allow me to know what i am talking about, and know what i am doing... this is the 1st job that i have 0 complains about... the pay is good, the work load is good, the bosses are good, the environment is good... and best of all, the colleagues here are damn good...

if without their constant encouragement, and their pushing to find myself... i guess i would still be hanging somewhere not knowing wad to do at this situation of crisis....

Life seriously is such a bitch..... i hated the previous 2 job, yet i was the one that choose to leave.... now i love this job, n i never want to leave anytime soon... yet i was let off and say bye bye SR...

im feeling pretty lost at this moment, lost that im saying good bye to a group of people that i grew to love, and appreciate, lost that im soon saying good by to my comfy table, chair and office...lost that im saying good bye to my 2 brothers, benny and alvin... who taught me so much...... lost that i dunno wad my next direction should be....

i guess this is when i have to make my own decision and plan my next step...

anyway, baby is having his exams this sat till next sat...n i'll prob only get to meet him this sat after his paper.... its gonna be pretty boring... but i guess i'll survive... :)

till my next job, i'll strive....

Love is not about Shouting, its about listening.

2009-04-13T12:28:00.003+08:00

mum, dad n mei mei went korea thursday night... will only be back coming thurs... i guess they r more or less enjoying themselves..

anyway, when i met up with the poly mates last week, my friend, we call her ms W called me halfway... i knew smth was wrong, but could put a finger to wad the actual problem was... but i knew it has got smth to do with her bf.... finally got the whole story on wed night...

thou im not too sure if its the whole story but at least its her version of the story...

apparently, ms W already had some issues with her bf we call Mr J.. Mr J is pretty MCP. he kinda demands her to do certain things, n somehow, in the moment of fun n under Ms W's misery, he twisted her ears in full view of all his friends... he says he was just fooling ard with her... but thats not fooling ard when there is pain, n when there s a person's dignity and pride in it.... Man have their pride, their ego, n their dignity so to speak... but hey fella.... ladies have that too...

love in this world does not matter who is older, or who is the MAN of the relationship. love is about accomodating with each other, understanding each other and just getting along... its not about i DEMAND U do this for me.... i WANT u to do this for me, or I DONT CARE WAD U FEEL... thats not love... thats ultimate possesion..

love does not allow u to shout at ur partner and threatening him/her... love does not make u have the right to HATE him/her... that is a very strong word, and im sure i wont be able to handle this situation if baby told me he hates me...

maybe its my personality that works this way, but i never allow another person regardless of who he/she is... (other den my parents) to shout at me.. fact is... even my sisters cant shout at me... cos i will definately shout back at them... so no one gets their chance of shouting at me...

life should go without people shouting at each other... Ms W is not a slave of ur life... she is ur gf, not ur SLAVE! respect her the amount that u yearn for her to respect u with.... love her the same way she loves u, n at the same time, AGE DOES NOT MATTER!!! dont use words like im older then u to try n "SCARE" people... thats so not respecting.. thats just plain OVER-RULE.. n that in a relationship would never work out properly...

anyway, i have been mean... i told Ms W to leave Mr J. n last i heard, they r back together, life is back as per normal, n Ms W will leave him if he does that to her again... not too sure wad happens after that, but im sure they will go a long way, n Mr J will still be mean to Ms W, n Ms W will still complain, n wadever the case, they still stick ard with each other... cos i learn.... they r willing parties...

which thereafter, makes me feel stupid for trying to persuade her to give him up... we noe she wont... n wads the point?! thats where i felt stupid for trying to convince her to do smth that i noe she wont do....

anyway...... story is over, n we should not talk about it again....

Wild Rockets

2009-04-06T10:37:00.002+08:00

friday night was the best night in a long time...

as we grow older, the idea of getting a present for each other kinda stops, and the whole point gets down to the company of each other.

Ms boey's b'dae was on wed... so we arranged to ahve dinner on friday, not fully for the birthday, but like i said, company of each other...

dinner was at Wild Rocket, hangout hotel... up at Mt Emily.. the place is so good... the layout of the restaurant is made as such that we wouldnt be affected by what the other guests were saying, or doing... (thou as usual the guys had to spot some hot girls.. n stare!) the ambience of the restaurant is really really good... smth that i have not enjoyed for a long time..

dinner was rib eye for the 3 of us, n crabmeat linguine for yao... the portion i would say is rather small, but its REALLY so DAMN fucking GOODD!!!!!! im salivating at this very moment thinking of the dinner... we ordered a bottle of moscato..... shared among the 4 of us... yao as usual cant drink much, his face turned red..

crazy chats over dinner n drinks was very good... im pretty sure even if we were not dining at such a yummy place, newton probably will be good enough... thou we haven not met up for the longest time... but conversation still flowed, it felt so refreshing that we still had stuff to talk about, and the things we talked about just refuse to stop... left for the day, in time to catch a cab without having to pay midnight charges..

on the way back, ms boey msged me... she said she enjoyed the night, n have not felt so at ease for a long time... i told yao bout it, n he shared the same sentiment.. thats y we are friends... we dun meet very often, but after a long while, we meet up again, and we still can talk like there wasnt any gap between.... i told ms boey that we should do this again, and i enjoyed myself just as much.... she said "stanley" said that too.... we are so gonna do that again...

most regretful part of the night? we didnt take ANY pictures at all.... jying didnt bring cam, i didnt bring too... damn waste... but we can go again....

love u guys the most.. i know i can count on u for all the nonsense that i have.. :)

my friend

2009-04-03T10:36:00.002+08:00

was online last night, at 8.30p.m. afew people came to talk, n was surprised that i was online.... its really not that rare right??

anyway, Mr Au spoke to me for awhile, n at bout 11, he told me... " go n sleep early la! " n im like... y??? he said :u always complain tired wad... so sleep early lo..."

slight feeling of comfort that my friend whom is so prone to being irritating, n bugging me since i knew him bout 8 years back, started showing me concern as a friend.....

the world is looking brighter now, when my friend starts to be nice to me.....

Emo Day

2009-04-01T09:27:00.002+08:00

i know..... how often does my emo day last right?? generally wouldnt be too long, but today... im feeling pretty emo n unhappy.... reason being? im not too sure myself too...

slept pretty late last night... i have been thinking... wad kinda relationship do i look at? am i happy with my current one? yes... i'll say im very happy in it... he makes me smile, he makes me happy most of the time...

of cos being the ever selfish me, i would wish for the happiness to last instead of most to all the time..... n i know its not possible....

i know wad kinda person i am...... i admit to being independent, cos my dad taught me to grow up n behave that way.... i can take care of myself, and u dont really have ppl worrying for me.... but is that the way a relationship work? B worries for G, and in any situation wants to know the most current information and update.. cos im pretty sure its working this way for me...

but all my life, i never share my problems with friends... cos i noe very well everyone has their own share of problems, and i should not burden anyone with my own stuff.... same goes to my behaviour with him... wad kinda problems do i have? im someone that contradicts herself 80% of the time.... so now im in the contradicting mode of my life... contradiction should not be shared cos its just retarded, n the other party would get irritated after awhile.... i try to control my contradiction... yet its pretty hard...

anyway, back to the point of independence, i yearn for people to take care of me, thou i noe i will definately say "no need la.... i can take care of myself..." however, humans r such perculiar being that after time, the habit of getting used to her taking care of herself sinks in, n the expectation of her being capable just remains....

he says im pushing him away from taking care of me.... yet i say he has gotten use to me taking care of myself to the extend that he has expectations of me being alright myself...

assumptions causes this whole situation...

fact is that im still upset... n i have no idea y the fuck im still upset about....

he says that at times he doesnt feel like telling me anything, cos he noes my ans, he its the ans that he doesnt want to hear......

kinda breaks me cos i dont wan to be like that.. its not suppose to work this way...

Sleepy

2009-03-25T09:09:00.003+08:00

at times when im sleepy, or more likely at the verge of KO, i do say funny and unrelated stuff...

of cos to wad extend.... its hard to explain, when only baby noes....

wad sleepy last night, n i knew baby was gonna do his assignment... so i called him, the whole point was to just chat for a while..... but the whole conversation lasted bout 20 mins i think? the 1st 10 mins i suppose was normal, cos i cant really rmb wad happened along the way... i just rmbed him asking me to sleep, n i decide that im really drowsy.... there, i knocked off....

in his understanding, which i suppose is pretty accurate i was talking crap stuff....

he was online, so instead of msging me in the middle of the night, he left me many many msges on msn.. which he noes i would read them when i get to office...

Jun Hao; Alvin; CJ said (12:29 AM):
Hey baby! last night was the first time you said so much weird stuff...

Jun Hao; Alvin; CJ said (12:30 AM):
langkawi cable very high can take to macau
dont tell people my chinese very lousy

Jun Hao; Alvin; CJ said (12:31 AM):
and alot of @#$%^&*( that makes no head or tail
than finaly u go to sleep...
haha
so cute lo you
MUACKZ!!!!
oh Btw good morning!
that was a small e.g. of wad i said.... which i think there is more... not too sure...

thats not all that he wrote... the last msg i got from him was at 4.42am.... 3 hrs before im suppose to wake up... n there he is, still working on his assignment... which in my case should already be done...

BUT!!!! as usual... group work can never be a shared and well organised activity... someone from the group.. be it 1 or 2 person will end up piggyback-ing the group.... n of cos there are 1 or 2 people that will end up being the one carrying the responsibility of the group....

baby left me afew msges after telling me all the nonsense that i said before i slept...

of cos this does not bother me cos its not my group... but it bothers me that baby ends up not being able to sleep all the way till 4.40am and reason being? his groupmate missed SO MANY meetings and were not able to keep up with the pace of the group, and the written assignment ends up not in line with the flow of wad the group wants...

throughout the 3 months that baby has been in sch... i know he takes his work seriously... so much to the extends he works ahead of time.... this group work that he has been doing for the past month has showed me how much he can do for his group...

his time per week spent on his assignment is so much that 5 weekdays, other den going for class... the other time has been doing assignment n doing n doing n doing...

we do know that nth is fair... but this extend... i dun like.... its like dead down bullying...

Jun Hao; Alvin; CJ said (3:19 AM):
baby its me again...yup its 3:19 and iam still doing...
feels shitty

Jun Hao; Alvin; CJ said (3:20 AM):
have to clear up the mess which ******* did...reedit and reformat 60 over pages...

Jun Hao; Alvin; CJ said (3:21 AM):
my eyes are damn burning now....
sucks man!

Jun Hao; Alvin; CJ said (3:22 AM):
and i dont know how long i still have to stay up to clear this mess

Jun Hao; Alvin; CJ said (3:23 AM):
if they come for the meeting and follow up wat we've done...i woudn't be doing this now....
why do i have to deal with this shit everytime when there's project....

Jun Hao; Alvin; CJ said (4:04 AM):
baby yes its me again...its 4;03 already...dont know when than can sleep...I MISS YOU! lots!
muackz!

Jun Hao; Alvin; CJ said (4:06 AM):
iam tired

Jun Hao; Alvin; CJ said (4:42 AM):
its 4:40 and just got scolded by my mother....its so unfair...here i am trying to save the project and got wat in return?/

yes, he is complaining... but wad can be done? its for his grades as well..... it sucks when u have fucked up groupmates....

I need a camera... SERIOUSLY

2009-03-23T14:40:00.002+08:00

i feel that my life has been at a stand still... reason? cos i dun have a camera...

seriously.... with the lack of photographed memories, i seem to be forgotten, or worst abandoned by my own life and with the lack of updates on my collection, i seem to have lost bout 2 months of life through the lack of PHOTOS!!!

this is the 3209874q039y5394205891 times im complaining bout not having a camera... yet im not willing to part with my money to get myself a new camera... so DEAR FRIENDS.... please get me 1 ok? or at least sponsor me... so that i can get that for my b'dae which is in MAY in any case anyone 4gets....

anyway, mum n dad n mei mei went HK on wed... which doesnt seem like they bought alot of things... im not too sure, but they are coming back tonight... so till den will i noe wad i have from HK!

the weekend has been good to me... watch ChunLi on friday.... quite a nice show.... Edmund Chen has quite afew scenes in the show.... n ChunLi seriously has problem speaking English...

went Expo on sat for the Adidas Fair.... hmmm.... alot of ppl went in, alot of ppl came out... but there is almost no one at the Queue... material not too good... design not too good.... also the fact that i have no money... so no buying!!!

went geylang at night too!!!

saw all type of chicken along the streets... black ones, white ones shiny ones, gross ones... they r ALL OVER THE PLACE!!!

they make me excited!!! hahaha...

den we had supper at a nice dim sum place that selling SUPER GOOD carrot cake... n when i mean good, its so good that baby n me had problem locating the food that went into our stomach... that we ordered another plate of the carrot cake.... so damn yummy!!!n its not expensive at all!

i noe its very bo liao to be typing this kinda nonsense entry when i obviously could have explained it better with pictures...oh wells.... im not in a good moood to write more already... no camera makes my entries boring lifeless n angry!!!

Watches of mine.

2009-03-18T14:59:00.003+08:00

yes, i am this bo liao... bo liao to this kinda extend that i gather my watches n take a photo of them... of cos im not proud of them yet... still a long way to go b4 i will be satisfied.

den again, i need to record them down.. in order of the estimated price..

Baume & Mercier dad bought this for me for my 21st b'dae. 4 figure watch... love it to bits... yet i cant bear to wear it too often..

Tissot watch... mum bought this for me bout 3 years back? i was out of watches at that time, n my dad believe that 1 should wear a proper watch, cos the value of it will never fall

Adiddas watch.... Ex-bf bought this for me.... the battery died... waiting for a time to get it fixed... i still like it, just not wear it much anymore...

Swatch watch... Jason, Calvin, Loycus n Benson got this for my 21st b'dae.. i wear it to work pretty often...

baby got this for me for christmas.... im wearing it so often that the strap is turning blue, cos i wear it with m levis, n the colour dyed onto the watch... changing the strap soon...

baby's swatch watch... he wont wear it anymore, cos its too small for his hands... so im wearing it! its damn old school, n the strap is rubberised. n glows in the dark! yes... i still wear it pretty often..

i cant rmb who or where i got this watch from.... its gold, n i dun wear it very often... should not waste it... i should try to wear it more often..

my newest collection!

its a cheap watch, 19.90 and i like it! cos its big, its black, n its easy to match with ANYTHING!

im looking to get more watches, cos it makes me happy!

bo liao things done, n the pics r lousy... i need a new n better camera! my hp camera sucks! my hp sucks! i dun mind a hp for my b'dae too!

Korean Food - 2D1N Soju Bang

2009-03-18T14:41:00.003+08:00

sometime back bosses brought us all out for korean food... somewhere near tanjong pagar... the memories of the food was good, so this time round when sis decides that she has a craving for korean food, n she is paying, i brought them all to this place at 30 Maxwell Road called 2D1N Soju Bang

b4 we look at food, we look at me n my sister's series of pics taken!

ok! of cos once food came, we were too hungry to stop n take some pics until i was 1/4 full n decide to take some pics of the left overs...

Kimchi Pancake... its a rather traditional dish among koreans, its abit sour with kimchi, but very yummy...

this is the spicy tofu soup, which taste like tom yam soup, n none of us like it except jason..... wrong-est choice of all

this dish here, spicy fried pork is damn good!

so good that we can just have this dish n rice, n its satisfying enough!

we always hear people having spicy rice cake in korea... so we had to order this n taste the authenticity of this dish... its very good, except that we ordered too much n this became abit overwhelming for us.. still, i coundn't resist, n finished it.

the hot plate in the center is bbq pork, which is almost gone, where u have to wrap it in a piece of lettuce n some sauce n stuff into ur mouth.... YUMMY!10 thumbs up!

i missed out a pic of the gamjatang... its potato n pork ribs soup... smth that is pretty common in korea, n its the highlight of the meal!

overall is very very satisfying... we cleared everything except the disappointing spicy tofu soup...

of cos we wished that we ordered less, cos its damn filling, n we walked out with our tummy damn big

total bill for 7 of us 174 bucks... definately worthwhile, n im definately going back again... but b4 that, im going to another place that alvin intro me to... have not been that yet, but its another korean restaurant in Chinatown, called Togi Korean Restaurant!!!

im going there, but this time with a better camera..

IRRESPONSIBILITY

2009-03-17T11:22:00.003+08:00

had quite a bad sleep last night...

before going into details of what happened.

We went Science Center on sun... the trip was a total waste of money.. anyway, main point of this event being taken note of was the lil boy..

Boy A and Boy B were having fun, playing n messing ard with the stuff at the magic exhibition... n we were trying to have fun as well...

min min n pat were trying this think that requires the ur calculation, so bf n me walked over... i was standing at the corner, nearest to the stand of this station. its pretty obvious that there is not much space to sqeeze a 3rd party in.. yet Boy A squeezed his way through, n tried to mess ard at the station where the 4 of us were standing.... n he was knocking n squeezing n knocking n squeezing on me...

my tolerance for that rudeness was up to my max, so i stared at him n said :" can't u say excuse me?!?!"

i knew i was fierce.. cos i noe im able to make baby cry, cos my cousin use to cry cos he snatch my specs, n i hit him on his hands...

Boy A ran away... bet he went to complain to his mum... cos i stop seeing him after that....

after making that statement, there was instant silence amongst us....

i wasnt sure for the reason, but it made me wonder y did i have to say it in such a crude n unfeeling manner...

last night i was talking to bf...

somehow i just got cranky after i found that i will have nothing to do this week, since he will be busy with sch stuff, n i seriously have no idea wad i can do after he said dun go KTV, waste money...

there, i said a series of unkind n unfeelings stuff obviously trying to pick a fight, since i noe it would lead to him feeling hurt for the things i said... knowing, yet doing it.

true enough, he felt it.... he said of cos in a nice way... much nicer den the way i speak... " baby... can u dun talk so direct anot? like i have a shield, yet u took that shield away, n pierce 4 knives into my heart.... very pain u noe?"

my tears rolled, and i felt like a fool... i did things that i knew would happen yet i made it happen...

cranky me made myself feel unhappy....

my night felt so long... he was sleepy,so he went off to bed 1st... i rolled ard in bed for much longer den i tot... last i knew, it was 3...

im such a brad... irresponsible with my words...

Bad Dream

2009-03-16T15:12:00.002+08:00

I had a bad dream last night...

its been a long time since i had such vivid dream.... but i dun really rmb wad happens in the dream except that i got my phone bill...

in 2 different means...

1) by mail,
2) by email.. or is it online?

anyway, wad i rmbed most vividly was the number of smses i sent...

thou its not true, but it still scares me...

scares me so damn freakin much that im still feeling the impact...

total SMS: 5888.

wtf! 1st time the one online... i tot it was a joke... i tried to brush it off....

den it came in mail...... argh!!!! 5888 smses!!!

maybe its a sign for me.... im gonna buy 4D tonight for this week...

wtf. im crazy.

My sister...

2009-03-04T10:56:00.002+08:00

i have a younger sister, very much bigger n u noe.... bigger den me....

thou her given size, she is still the youngest n very much the pampered one... the freedom of moulding up at home n chasing all kinda korean drama is her forte...

n because of that, she knows alot about bathing house in korea.... including the way they tie the head knot...

when in the event she is not tying head knot after her bathe, n when she is in her non-PMS mood, she does cute stuff like as follows...

yes.... she does that.... stare right into the camera n do all kinda cute face that i cannot understand how she manage to make each of them look different...

but thats when she is in the"i wanna act cute" mood.....

acting cute is not about doing kawaii faces in my sister's sense.... acting cute includes doing Ridiculous stuff, like as follows...

for ur imformation, that is an example of a gentle giant hiding at the corner, crying cos her sister refuse to sponsor her Korea trip....

n all her cute stuff is not fully captured! a video clip was recorded, but she noes that it will appear in youttube, so she force me to delete it off.... still, she can go all the way to recording a voice clip for my sister's b'dae which is now the in-famous alarm clock ring at 6.50am every mrn...

i've got a crazy sister..... n btw, her name is Jasmine.

Jason Pang - My friend (Baptism)

2009-03-02T17:30:00.004+08:00

i know this is very random, n this has nth to do with me... but my friend Jason did wad he noe was right, n did wad he wanted n has to do.... i dunno if im sounding correct, but still... this is for him....

When a GIRL

2009-03-02T14:54:00.000+08:00

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ...

Find a guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

who calls you back when you hang up on him.

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

Punked!! - this is wad happens when ur friend is not too smart.

2009-02-27T12:58:00.003+08:00

msn pm: u r so gonna hate me for that.

msn dp: baby Xander

MFK says:
boo!
kimberly says:
hello!
MFK says:
hehe!
MFK says:
ehhh whose tt kid?
kimberly says:
mine.
MFK says:
WAH
MFK says: eh can i be the dad? i can make a dam gd father
kimberly says:
my kid has a dad already lo.
MFK says:
gah
MFK says:
sian
kimberly says:
but not my present bf.
MFK says:
gah
MFK says:
as in.. seriously?
kimberly says:
seriously la.
kimberly says:
how long have u not seen me...
MFK says:
quite long
MFK says:
realli ur kid meh?!
kimberly says:
ya....
MFK says:
sia lar
MFK says:
wad name?
kimberly says:
xander
MFK says:
how old?
MFK says:
cute seh
kimberly says:
10 months
MFK says:
sia la.. who u 'enjoy' wif sia?
kimberly says:
enjoy?
MFK says:
poke poke la
kimberly says:
ass lo.
MFK says:
zzzzzzzzzz
kimberly says:
it was an accident
MFK says:
sia lar..
MFK says:
den ur parents nv makan u?
kimberly says:
thats y my ex bf broke up with me..
MFK says:
wah lau! realli ?
MFK says:
wild sia u
kimberly says:
since when wild is a term to describe me...
MFK says:
hmm
MFK says:
duno leh
MFK says:
eh seriously lar.. ur kid ar/
kimberly says:
yes yes yes....how many times must i repeat?
MFK says:
wah
MFK says:
okok
MFK says:
hmmm
kimberly says:
wanna hear the story?
MFK says:
yes yes!
MFK says:
unbelievable sia
kimberly says:
huh...
kimberly says:
u still dun believe?
MFK says:
ya
MFK says:
hard to la
kimberly says:
okies...
kimberly says:
den wait until i believe den u tell u lo..
kimberly says:
*u
kimberly says:
wait until u believe den i tell u
kimberly says:
imagine how long u haven been in contact with me
MFK says:
v long
MFK says:
tot wad happen to u
kimberly says:
u disappeared wad...
MFK says:
soweee lor
kimberly says:
i invite u to my b'dae u also dun wan to come.
MFK says:
sowee ar
kimberly says:
if not u would have known le...
MFK says:

hmm
MFK says:
okok believe u alr
MFK says:
ur parents nv say anytin abt it meh? tot dey dam fierce 1?
kimberly says:
have la...
kimberly says:
of cos have la.
MFK says:
aiyo
kimberly says:
but im 21 already... nth they can do also wad..
MFK says:
ic
kimberly says:
actually wanted to abort.
MFK says:
=/
MFK says:
but dam poor ting la..
kimberly says:
den got nightmare lo.
MFK says:
hmmm
kimberly says:
den abit against my concious, so decided to give birth to baby lo.
MFK says:
icic
kimberly says:
she follows my surname
MFK says:
gotta be hard on u..
MFK says:
its a she?
kimberly says:
yeah.
MFK says:
tot xander is a guys name
MFK says:
nice
kimberly says:
no r...
MFK says:
say hi to ur kid for me
kimberly says:
hahaha
kimberly says:
when i get home lo.
MFK says:
ok..!
MFK says:
den how u manage to take care of ur baby?
kimberly says:
my mum lo.
MFK says:
icic
kimberly says:
n the dad..... is someone that i know at a club when my bf was in camp.
MFK says:
WAH LAU
MFK says:
u bad girl la
kimberly says:
told u was an accident
MFK says:
din noe u so nottie
MFK says:
aiyah. nvm la
MFK says:
over alr
kimberly says:
but i was pretty sure its not my ex bf's kid, cos at that period of time, my bf din come
out at all... n we were safe.
kimberly says:
but to save myself, i told him it was his kid...
MFK says:
ic.. sigh
kimberly says:
but marriage was out of the question
kimberly says:
so we decided not keep the baby, n get married when he ORd
kimberly says:
but along the way got alot of problems...
MFK says:
ic
kimberly says:
so i cannot stand him, n i told him the baby is not his...
kimberly says:
so the story goes, he broke up with me.
MFK says:
ic
MFK says:
sayang k mei
MFK says:
guess it was kinda hard on u
MFK says:
sory for not being ard =(
kimberly says:
nvm la.... its ok...
MFK says:
but currently u can manage financially n time wise?
kimberly says:
financially super tight lo... but ok la..
MFK says:
hmm..
kimberly says:
time also ok la...
MFK says:
ookie
MFK says:
tt's gd
kimberly says:
my bf understands...
MFK says:
baby nds lots of time
MFK says:
hope ur new bf would haf the patience to raise the kid
MFK says:
not easy
kimberly says:
yeah....
MFK says:
cuz alot of bfs ar. wen dey raise their kid which dun belong to them.. tend to get violent..
MFK says:
juz keep an eye out for that k mei?
MFK says:
if ayt u can always gimme a call
kimberly says:
he is ok la.... confirm... he love her more den me....
MFK says:
haahha
MFK says:
den i can love u more den ur baby?
MFK says:
HAHAHAH
kimberly says:
-.-
kimberly says:
no
MFK says:
sob sob
kimberly says:
hahahaha
MFK says:
ahah
MFK says:
cheer up k
MFK says:
wah u been thru so much
MFK says:
exciting sia ur life
kimberly says:
exciting?!?!?!1
MFK says:
ya la
kimberly says:
i wish it was less...
MFK says:
so how was it like being pregnant n den giving birth?
kimberly says:
hurts like hell la...
MFK says:
caesarian or natural?
kimberly says:
natural..........
kimberly says:
din have time for C-sec
MFK says:
hmm icic
kimberly says:
so u believe me now?
MFK says:
ya
MFK says:
i tink so
kimberly says:
u think so?!?!?!?!
kimberly says:
wth.
MFK says:
as in
kimberly says:
?
MFK says:
ya la
kimberly says:
as in ya la waD?
MFK says:
ya i believe u
MFK says:
Grrrr
kimberly says:
so wad u doing now?
MFK says:
digesting ur turn of events
kimberly says:
how is digestion coming along?
kimberly says:
after u digested, i have smth even more that u might be unable to take it
kimberly says:
im gonna tell u who the dad is...
MFK says:
haha
MFK says:
who?
kimberly says:
u sure u can swallow r...
MFK says:
ya
MFK says:
juz tell mi if he's aware anot
kimberly says:
okies... he is not aware
MFK says:
...
MFK says:
ok
MFK says:
so who?
kimberly says:
im not suppose to say u noe...
MFK says:
hahahaha
MFK says:
ok ar. ur choice =x
kimberly says:
hahahhahahaa
kimberly says:
okies
MFK says:
but u noe u can trust me
MFK says:
hehe!
kimberly says:
eh....
kimberly says:
u see my pm?
MFK says:
ya
kimberly says:
wad does it say?
MFK says:
u're so gonna hate me for tt
MFK says:
im beginning to feel cheated
MFK says:
hmmm
kimberly says:
hahahhaa
kimberly says:
dun angry la...
MFK says:
wad
MFK says:
so who e dad?
kimberly says:
y do u feel cheated?
MFK says:
gah
MFK says:
juz tel me who e dad den i tell u
MFK says:
ahha
kimberly says:
hahahaha
kimberly says:
there is no dad.
MFK says:
n dere is no baby...
MFK says:
?
kimberly says:
HAHHAHAA
kimberly says:
of cos there is no baby!!!!
MFK says:
i knew it..
MFK says:
grrrrr
MFK says:
roar
MFK says:
u ar
MFK says:
say till so real
im convincing or wad? im such a natural at faking it...

him.

2009-02-26T23:08:00.002+08:00

i wanst really planning to do this.... but i was telling the bf ytd that im doing some blogging.... n he said... "do u want my ghostly pics? hahaha...." of cos evil me said.." hahahha!! dun wan la.... later scare those reading my blog..." i bet 3 droplets appears on his forehead... so being kind me n ever so "understanding" i requested for his "ghostly" picture, n uploaded it here!

no... he does not have long hair, or round face anymore....

he terrorises himself by keeping his old clothes n reminding himself of how much he CANNOT go back to before...

yes..... i have a very cute bf who tells me that backpacking is a good idea especially if its to Jurong West St 65...

he thinks its a good idea to smile to the phone in public, cos the bf can make the gf happy all the time....

this is my cute bf...

but still..... never cuter den me!

My Possessions

2009-02-26T23:00:00.001+08:00

i noe its very ya ya papaya to do this, n its not really stuff that r big deal now... but i just like to remind myself of my past, when my mum insist on me throwing them away...

cutting the long story as short as possible, my total possessions from my sec sch times....

stuff i collected when i was in Sec 4...

stuff that i collected in Sec 3...

collection in Sec 2...

i think i took back the most for the in the 3 years...

sec 1!!!

n the other small little nitty gritty stuff i got when i was in pri sch....

i like looking at them, cos it reminds me of what i am capable of, when my sisters r better in sch work..... im just better in the rest...

CNY - long overdue....

2009-02-26T22:40:00.004+08:00

i noe its overly overdue... but due to the fact that without a CAMERA, i wont be able to take any recent pics, so i need to put in the rest of the old pics that hasnt been up yet!!!

anyway, this year's CNY has been great... after many years, n everyone growing up, we took the usual cousins's pics along the wall of the 3room flat... use to be at whampoa, my grandma's place, but after she moved, this time round, its taken at my Dua Gu's place in Clementi....

of cos its not taken very nicely... but we try hard u noe... but with kids running ard, n un-coorporative cousins, there is really nth much u can do about it...

Anyway, here is a very very cute kid im carrying! her name is Xander, n she is i think less den a year old? she is SO cute... she doenst cry if strangers carries her, n she happily lets u carry her out of the house n anywhere else!!!

pardon the lack of attention in the picture, but me n my sister were trying very hard to get the 3 kids to take a nice picture together.... Xerxis(i think??) the boy refuse to let my sister carry... not too sure y also.... but pretty girl xavia stands quietly at my side, waiting for her siblings to get ready...

super cute xXx kids...

of cos as usual we get unlimited cam-whoring pics... with my mummy, n sisters...

its pretty hard to get a great shot during CNY, but day 2 pics were much much better....

see... its nicer.... but den again.. how bad can it go?

Its Been Long

2009-02-24T12:37:00.002+08:00

so long since i last posted... reason? during my last entry, the moment i completed, my boss walked over..

n requested for a discussion.. he asked y im always busy keying away on the keyboard... is msn impt? i said yes... discussion end... but he wasnt too happy with the constant keying... im too loud..

i haven been having the right mood to blog about anything.. thou i have some pics taken over CNY.... but its been too long.... that can wait..

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Valentines day this year is special...

for the 1st time ard, i actually kinda made an effort to get a gift, n go through the process of going for a date...

original intention was to go to KHA at Hortpark.. the black n pink sofa restaurant... but the Vday specials is way TOO expensive... so we decided to give that up... moreover most of them are seafood.... baby cant eat them...

since original plan is gone.. we decided to go n cut hair 1st! baby needed a haircut... cos he suppose to go reservist... butt long story short... he manage to defer after 1.5 days... anyway, we went to have an early dinner at Changing Appetite... i wont say its FANTASTIC... but its GOOOOOOD..... to save ourself from overeating, we ordered 1 portion of fries n the meal.... just nice for both of us... not too hungry, not too full.......

we went to maxx berner too...... the chocolate cake is SO good So good SO SO SO SO goood that im still thinking bout it... there is a drink, where u add in milk n choco chips, n melt it n drink it.... so appealing that im definately going back there again... n we saw the matilda from Singapore Idol singing there... n she is really pretty good... very nice to listen to...

from there, we went over the Marina Barrage, n as usual for the whole night... we manage to be early n on time..... no jams except when getting out of that area... 1 way road, with 2 way traffic....

its a very good view there.... n imagine that is a home... with that kinda view, i wont mind sleeping under the stars everynight...

i think my blog is getting abit boring without pics.... its without pics cos i dun have a camera!!!

so kind friends... whoever that is reading..... my b'dae is 18th May if u need a reason to get smth for me.... :) i will be very appreciative n thank u with all my thanks... ;p

I think im CRAZY.

2009-02-04T09:51:00.002+08:00

i'm the most heartless fella ard...

usually after a breakup, im still friends with the other party... n most of the time, it works!! it works cos i always make it work...

in current times, i wont wanna make it work, n it wouldnt work... so there it goes...

1 of them, i tried to make it work... but im not too sure wad happened along the way, but i think the gf doesnt like the fact that he still mix ard with his ex... so after awhile we stop contact... we dun even see each other anymore!!

but the reason of the break up was that i got ditched.... YES! ugly duckling me was ditched!

n cos of that i think part of the anger wouldn't subside at all.... when i so happen to note that they r not having a good time now, instead of caring like a normal friend would... caring like a friend of many years would, im silently wishing them bad, n laughing.. "orbi! orbi!"

evil being me....

i'm definately someone that wouldn't wanna wish any ex good... unless im the one at fault of the break up la... but generally... i wish that they live their life sad n miserable, n they will rmb that without me... they cant live a happy life...

of cos in the past i dun have to capability to do that, cos i look terrible... but now... im sure i do...

i manage to make people look at me, at the same time make ppl hate me, n simultaneously make another party like me cos of the same situation.. im not saying that im scheming to hurt people.. but im scheming to make ppl notice me... im a bloody sore loser... n i hate to admit defeat...

let me admit.. im someone when i wanna do things, i make sure i must get it... n if i dun get it, i wan people ard to noe tat without me things r very different... MDES 2nd batch committee members...if we all can remember... when we were voting for the postings, i refuse to participate cos i noe that im not someone that will listen, n its not smth that they r looking at... so to mess them up even more... i refuse to move... refuse to listen n refuse to follow.... n as usual, i always seem to be able to piss seetoh off as much as i like to....

seetoh said if dun wan to join in... den u can leave the room... daring me he would.... i walked out of the room.... he tot i was angry.... i wasnt at all... i was relief.. i was glad i made him pissed... i was glad i made my stand noticed...

will i have bad karma if i wish for ppl to be bad? may i curse u(PJS) bad luck always.... =)

Four person u meet in ur life

2009-02-03T13:36:00.002+08:00

got this paragraph from my sister's friend's blog.... read the meaning..

Life is the process of finding love; every person will need to find four people in their life.

First person is you, Second person is the one you love most, Third person is the one who love you most, And the fourth is the one you spend the rest of your life with.

In life, firstly you will meet with the one you love most, and learn how love feels. Because you know how love feels, so you can find the person who loves you most. When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved, you will then know what it is you need most.

Then you will find the person who is most suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with.

Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person.

The one you love most doesn't love you. The one, who love you most, is never the one you l ove most.And the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love most or the one who love you most.He is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time.

Which person are you in other people's life?

No person will purposely have a change of heart. At the point in time when he loves you, he really loves you.But when he doesn't love you anymore, he really doesn't love you anymore. When he loves you, he can't pretend that he doesn't. Same goes, when he loves you no more, there's no way he can pretend he loves you.

When a person doesn't love you and wants to leave you. You must ask yourself if you still love him, If you also don't love him anymore, do not keep him just to save your pride. If you still love him, you should wish him happiness, and hope that he will be with the one he loves most, not stop him from it. If you stop him from finding true happiness with the one he loves, it shows you already don't love him, And if you don't love him, what rights do you have to blame him for a change of heart?

Love is not possessive, If you like the moon, you can't just take it down and put it in your basin, But the moonlight still shines upon you. In other words, when you love a person, you can use another method of possessing the person. Let him become a permanent memory in you life. If you really love a person, you must love him for what he is.Love him for his good points, and the bad, You can't wish for him to become like what you like him to be just because you love him.

If he can't change to become what you like him to be, you don't love him anymore.

When you really love a person, you cannot find a reason why you love him, You only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad mood, you will wish to have this person be with you.Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without asking for promises or listing criteria. In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times, not always be on the receiving end. Being away from each other is a type of test, If the relationship isn't strong, then you can only admit defeat. Real love will never become hate.

When two people are in love, They love to ask each other to swear,to make promises. Why do they ask each other to swear and promise? Because they don't trust each other, they don't trust their lover. These swear and promises are useless; Till the sky falls, till the ocean dry, my love for you will never change! We all know that the sky will never fall; the ocean will never dry, Even if it does happen, are we still alive by then?

Be careful when making promises; don't make promises that you cannot keep. Swear by things that can never happen, because it can never happen, so no harm just saying it casually. Remember, swearing by things that can never happen are the most touching!!? In a relationship, what you say is one thing, but what you do is another; The one saying, doesn't believe; the one listening, also doesn't believe.

Which person have you found so far?

In the world so big, which person have you found?
And who has found you?

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side note :

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XIAO MING!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U!

Happy Birthday sister.... thou u always irritate me to the max, bug me down to my bones, lubricate me with ur fats, n complain like a lousy queen, on this day 24 years ago... u made my mummy suffer...

i still wanna wish u a HAPPY N FATTY BIRTHDAY!!!

Happy Lunar New Year!

2009-01-29T10:58:00.002+08:00

once again, its CNY.... i cant understand the big fuss over this festival, yet im always excited with the chinatown shopping, reunion dinner, ang pow receiving, and the fuss over young kids...

this year is greatly different as the past... im much happier, im smiling more... im making my life more fulfilling, and im getting prettier..

i've stood away from the mess that i've created for 2 years, and for now im glad i am away...

so read that!!! n swallow ur own balls.. u dirty blood sucking asshole rotting, ball-less freako..

that aside, i shall be as refine as possible, n behave like a LADY!!!! no more vulgarities! no more telling my sisters to shut the fuck up...

i have to be a good girl..

i am contemplating...

on wad i should do with my hair....

dye it? leave it? cut it?

if i dye it, how should i do it? if i cut it, how should i cut it?

im still thinking alot alot alot.... im confused.

oh well, ang pow for CNY has been good!!! but i suppose last year was better.... but this year i ate so much lesser den b4! i basically only ate bout 3 pieces of pineapple tarts, no bak kwas... n no funny nuts... i've been good this year!

n im sure i've lost weight.... wore a top that i haven touch for a long time on sat... super happy im still able to squeeze in... no squeeze, but smoothly fit in!!! im so so happy! yumyum...

its 11.16 now n i still have not taken my breakfast... wad the hell am i doing?!?!

Things done when in time of Boredom

2009-01-22T11:31:00.007+08:00

things that i do when im bored in office with no alvin n benny to chat with, n when access max my brain juice out, n i got really tired, sleepy n sick of telling min min im sleepy...

my fingers doing the split...

thats my drawer FYI...

mini pantry...

alvin's messy desk

my badly influenced messy desk...

impt note!

alvin's ah pek calender...

our combined mess!

okies! bored enuff!

im going crazy soon......

Ur Money

2009-01-20T11:46:00.002+08:00

take it back man!!!

custody of my camera will go today... its a half fucked feeling now.... 1/2 feel glad that its over soon.. the other 1/2 that i've live with it for so long.... im so used to having a camera in my bag...

oh well... get used to it! im gonna get 1 for myself soon!

u noe wad? phone is there too.... but gracious me decides to let u have it... thats wad we call graciousness.... learn it!

Ubin

2009-01-19T13:16:00.019+08:00

let me go off-track a lil 1st b4 going into the ubin trip that we went...

i HAVE to post this pic up, cos for every single pic that i took on friday night, none of them showed ben's eyes!!!! its almst missing!!! HHAHAHAH!!!!!! imvisible eyes..

my friend has missing eyes! hahahhahaha....

anyway, bright n sunny sat mrn... not really mrn, cos we reach changi bout almost 12? but anyway... its still bright n sunny... we took a bumpy boat ride to Pulau UBIN!!!

leaving the changi point terminal...

its been a few years, n so much changes have been done!

alvin n me!

n the 4 of us again, out to find another place in singapore to conqure!

WELCOME TO PULAU UBIN!!!! plus a back view of someone...

WELCOME TO PULAU UBIN!!!! plus another back view of another someone...

the whole feel of being in ubin is totally different... the reason i get to ubin in the past was for camps n more camps... but for this time... its purely for leisure... feels very excited!

the main point of biicycle rental..

i shall not go into details of each plcaes that we went to, but let the view tell the story... of cos everyone noes ubin well enuff, but this trip made me feel different bout everything!

after riding for i dunno how long, n how far... we decided to go into chek Jawa... n the road in was totally totally messed up! so so so bumpy! to the entrance that when we reach the entrance of Chek Jawa!!

the whole building is so so so pretty! cos we were too tired, so we decided to just stick with going to the jetty...

the view to the jetty is really so gorgeous, that im so in love with it, n decide that next time, my home will be just like that!

cute min min trying to make herself in my picture!

patrick n min min..

the story of the elephant, pig n the frog...

i was looking right into min min's eyes, n telling her, how pretty the reflections was from her sunglasses... i tried taking it down, but dun seem to be able to see anything nice from it...

conclusion, Lousy Camera.

since its unblocked direct sunlight, 2 funny fella tried to lie on the ground to sun themself...

conclusion? sun burnt!!!

n patrick trying to be a circus monkey! hahaha...

deep discussion on which area to conqure next!

next few pictures r gonna show wad i wanna live in next time! hahaha... Hansel n Gratel's home!

after dycling too much n baking in the sun too much, min min is so tired that patrick has to piggy back her! hahahaa....wad i waste i did not video it down!

after that, we went to the viewing tower, n its so nice!

patrick is enjoying the wind..

exhaustion..

alvin enjoying the breeze too..

after enjoying breeze, he had to be tortured byt me, by poking a flower on his mosquito bite... which after too many attempts, the skin tore... Opps!

please do not be tricked by this picture... its a self taken shot! i was still busy poking flower at alvin's mosquito bite!

we were discussing wad kinda vegetation n animals to rear... so that we can be self sufficient! everyday just enjoy n get food to eat le...

lil did we noe... min min trying to take a pic of our sore ass...

to identify our bicycle, we lay them down n wanted to be special!

we went to the quarry, n its just so so calm n peaceful.. like nth in this world can mess it up... which is wad i wish i can be...

the signature drink store!

we didnt drink here, but went to another one further down... but i was too scared to take any pics, cos there were bout 3 or 4 dogs ard!!!

FINALLY GOING HOME!

we r sweaty, dirty, n very healthy!

exhaustion is to the max... by the time im home n clean... im so tired that i fell asleep with the phone hanging on the line... bad me..

so min min, wads next?!?!?! =)

Things that i want to do.

2009-01-15T14:09:00.003+08:00

Since long long ago, i've been wanting to do many things, do to many places, and fulfilling my life as much as i can without spending too much within the shores of my own homeland right here in Singapore...

however, reality beats everything else... money issue is a big barrier to doing stuff...

not that its very expensive, but its cos people are not willing to pay...

i for 1... will definately pay to see things that the foreigners see Singapore as...

over time, i've been eyeing on places that i want to go, things that i want to do..n i've come up with a short list of the places that i want to go, n to do!

- Pulau Ubin..
i've been thinking about it, asking and calling people to join in... so finally! min min is going with me! of cos with patrick n alvin la... so this sat, finally im going there once again after almost 6 years or not stepping into that small n warm island..

- Botanical Garden
im so gonna admit it.... i've never in my whole life stepped into the famed Garden~! good enuff reason to go?

- Wakeboarding! / Cable skiing (either one, its pretty much the same...)
i like the feeling of standing on water... n like the wind in my face.... i like having fun...

- Changi Broadwalk
its good to occasionally enjoy the minimal view that we get in Singapore... thou its nothing much, but its a very relaxing place....

- Treetop Walk
min min wans to go there soon.... there are so many places that we can go, we can do, n i dunno when that will end!!! i hope it doesnt...

- Haw Par Villa!
we were suppose to go soon right? when when when when???

i just enjoy seeing things that i have not seen for a long time... the last i went was many many many years ago when i wasn in primary school....

anyway, this post is overly overdue... cos i was suppose to post it on friday, but its monday already! i've been busy... so please pardon me MR AU!

i'll post on the pics of ubin soon.... when im done with uploading them!! so so so many pics!!! amazingly, the lousy cam seem to be able to take clear n nice pics only in the sun... crap stuff..

Photoshoot

2009-01-12T13:54:00.004+08:00

Went to take some nice nice pics!!!

the whole point here was to help alvin with the photography assignment, n he needed a model that is free, n helpful.... so being the neighbour sitting beside him 5 days a week, 9 hrs a day, i was convinced, n i did that for him...

was rather apprehensive bout it, cos i didnt know what to do, n i didnt have a white dress!!!! went scouting for it n nth found.... anyway, went ahead without a white dress, n the pictures r still pretty alright i suppose... of cos there are some that is not nice, fat n ugly.. but there r still ones that look pretty...

anyway, went for twilight on friday!!!!

yes, FINALLY.... its not a FABULOUS show, n maybe im really tired, so i fell asleep for awhile throughout the show... n im not someone that will sleep during movies!!!!

but den again, Edward Colins.... HANDSOME!!!!

was suppose to go gym in the mrn on sat, but lazy bone kicked in, i slept through until 11.30.. took some breakfast, n went tanning with alvin(not the colleague) 2 hrs of tanning, N!!!! nth much changed... the sun was strong, the tanning oil was good, but i had no idea wad happend!!!

dark clouds blow over once alvin came out of the gym.... curse of the bad weather...

OH oh oh!!!! china town ytd! as usual, every year, the tradition is to go down to chinatown to feel the new year mood... last year i only went down once... thats after the advance reunion dinner... so this year, to save myself in case i didnt get to go, i went down with alvin ytd... n its the 1st time he is there.... really wonder how CNY can go on without the CNY mood, just like christmas without going down to Orchard!

anyway, it was pretty cooling, n not crowded... maybe cos we went at bout 5 plus... was abit squeezy at certain area, n being the clumpsy me, i tripped plenty of times, n kicked myself right at my toe!

totally cursed.

p.s. i didnt really wanted to blog, cos i like putting pictures, or write bout really bitch stuff... but cos MR CLARENCE AW instructed me to blog b4 today, cos he wants to read tml, so here i am trying to write as much as i can, so that he has more to read tml...

but im sure he is gonna be disappointed, cos i noe this entry is BORING!

but nevertheless, i'm gonn start watching the tang xing feng bao soon!!!!

YES YES YES.... i noe im slow... but i cant help it! i have so much activities that i dont even have enuff time to sleeP!!!!

so well....... here u goes, MR CLARENCE AW.... lao hu, lao shu, sha sha fen bu qing chu! (i cant type in chinese, cos i dunno how to write ok!)

Eat It Back! - I'm a Bitch.... so what?

2009-01-08T09:20:00.003+08:00

yup... thats right.... i'm not one that mince my words.... i've never said that im an angel... neither have i said that im NOT a bitch....

sis calls me bitch everyday... but so? so wad the fuck is wrong if im a bitch?

my friends still love me for who i am, n wad i do....

i'm not shy to admit to my friends wad i did, cos that was wad i was taught since young... ADMIT MY MISTAKES...

so WHAT if i spent ur money?

problem here, right from the start was never about money... it was the taste of unappreciation, and taken for granted...

i could have said.... "NOT ME!!!!!" but i chose to voice it out.....

i admitted to it.... but u chose to hypocriptly ask me.... "are r u?"

i made my stand, and voice my concern..... u chose to deal with me, n den, back out again....

i always voice my displeasure.... but u choose to hid and talk behind my back...

my reason for the break? the real reason? cos i feel that im becoming like u.... shallow, unwise, easily contented, and unhappy... i've always said that i take my family in great respect and importance.... i need someone that can click with them.... but u, instead of trying to be more acceptive, and understanding, u choose to run away....

the insensitivity of the words used, and the manner of speech made the whole damn thing so wrong... i noe u r not happy with my family... but i've said it time n again, it has to be done, sooner or later.....

i have been nice and acceptive over ur parents.... but wad about the relationship with mine..... smth that has turned bad will never ever ever be good again.... n that is a fact....

imagine 1st impression is wrong already....

yeah, its alright to talk to friends about stuff like that, but not to MY PARENTS!!!!

wad kinda fucking impression is that?

enuff said for wad happend during the relationship, cos its over.... n it will never be ok again...

but wad about after we broke up?

i admitted to wad i did, n i agreed to pay up.

but wad did u fucking childishly said? "if u dun settle it, i'll go to ur dad.... im not afraid of that... u wanna play, lets play!"

that was wad sparked me to say " den we shall see when i will pay, n how much i pay...

its always said that it always takes 2 hands to clap.... its not possible for me to be the only one that tried to stir up things in this situation....

after all the din n commotion, wad is it all about? just 30 freakin bucks more!

its not even enuff to buy me a nice dress, or a good meal.... my cheapest watch is even more expensive den that.....

so done deal, everything settled.... but wads the point of going to my friends to complain?

"are u close with her? i dun wanna say much la... but u see her wrongly... " direct translation 你看错她了...

best right??

little bastard trying to go n win some sympathy votes...

ya... u have ur supporters too.... but i can say, my supporters noe wad i did, n y i did that.... but does urs noe? does ur supporters noe wad u said? the small lil background things that u tried to hide n speaking only things that is in favour to u? 100% nope...

therefore, dear friends.... those that heard things... believe it or not, thats up to ur own judgement.... im not scared to lose my friends for wad i did.... cos i noe that only those that understood me, stand by me... like all those that is doing so now...

if in any case anyone doesnt think im right, its no prob with me..... please do us all a favour, n not be so fakey, DELETE my number from ur phone, n from ur MSN.... cos we dun need to talk more...

**for all the details i said, none is a lie, or none is fake..... if u dun believe, fuck off..... cos i dun really need u ard to judge my peaceful, fun-filled, entertaining and eventful life.....

n yes, i do sleep very well every night.....

oh ya..... dun use my dad to threaten me ok? cos dads always side with their children.... just like wad ur dad will do too! =) ciaoz....

Hort Pak

2009-01-06T15:56:00.011+08:00

Since afew weeks back, i've been having a rather healthy sataurday... not totally healthy, but at least last sat was the 2nd time.. hahaha.... swimming, hot pool, steam room, suana.... its SO SO SO relaxing....

anyway, after that the mini self SPA, we went over to HORTPARK! walked from hort park, to Mt Faber, and back....

Alvin & Pat

the senic view that we had along the way...

this is a terracing place not too sure of the name, but its a filming location for alot of shows in the past...

XUE MIN!!!

if u notice, all the pics r just back view.... all with hidden identity...

the next 3 pics r photos of a chinese fella trying to act like the jap soldier, with the covered hat...

wall E!

min min asked me not to put, but seriously.. its NOT that ugly right??? still 2 pretty ladies... :)

i was trying to take a nice shot of the 3 of them, but Mr Pat has to turn his head at the very moment the camera snapped...

after the whole walk, we went into Hortpark... happen that a couple was getting married, and we wanted to see wad it was like.... we went in n saw this......

the whole feeling of having food n drinks there is so so so good.... n i seriously wont mind paying a lil more money to have my dinner there.... n im pretty sure its more pretty when the sky is darker.... seriously love it...

and alvin found his dream house....

the glasshouse at hort park.... below is the layout of it... n soon, 1 of the rooms is gonna be mine, another one to be pat n xuemin's... =)

hao ge have to hurry up n jia you to earn more money! own maybank n orchard road soon!!!

alvin excited bout his dream house....

after that, we went to raffles hotel area to have chicken rice, n ICE CREAM!!! Raffles Creamery.. its really damn good..... i dun mind running toilet just for the dark chocolate... so so so good.... im salivating already..

anyway, as usual when im the bus stop, n i have time... i will do the bus stop shot... which i think will have to end soon, cos im losing the camera... oh well.... its a lousy camera anyway...

still i saw a crazy woman.... trying to make me snap a shot of her... oh well... just to satisfy her...

oh oh oh!!! anyway, i went for smth nice ytd.... i'll upload them when i get them back.... so nice...=)

Hello 2009!!

2009-01-02T23:44:00.002+08:00

so many exciting things to happen in year 2009 that im excited about everythign!!!

but before anything, lets talk serious..

went to jying's dad wake on New Year's Day... at least for now, she has came to sense that her dad is not coming back anymore... or that maybe she is just numb, and everything will come nagging back during the funeral... im not too sure, but i hope she can handle well....

overnight, she becomes the owner of her dad's car, the CEO of her dad's company.. and the leader to her own life...

but im sure dear girl will be strong.....

on a much much lighter note, its 2009 now!!!!

i have so many things i wanna do, so many places i wanna go...

- HK/Macau/Zhu Hai
- Taiwan
- Vietnam
i wish i have more time, more money and more everything!!!!

i wanna do the following by this year

- SELL MY PSP
- buy a new MP3
- get lasik done
- find new outing khakis
- live my life with no regrets
- NOT get a new bf..
- most importantly, i must try n FORGET all the bad stuff, the nonsense, and the stupid happenings of year 2008

im sure im capable of that.... :)
anyway, i went shopping ytd b4 going down to the wake...

bought 3 dresses and 1 top..... n its all very very pretty!!!!

went to cut my hair, n got myself a nice new pair of jean from levi's just now.... couldnt get my dress thou.... im giving up.. i shall just wear jeans or smth...

i'll post the pics when its done, or when alvin sends it or gives it to me.... hopefully it turns out nice lo.... =)

31st Dec 2008, 1151 hrs

2008-12-31T12:06:00.001+08:00

He left today... didnt wait for the tube to be removed.

bless him, and bless my dear girl too....

Last Day of the Year

2008-12-31T09:30:00.003+08:00

In another 14.5 hrs, 2008 will be over....

n within this few moments, im trying hard to recap what i have done, what i have regretted, what i should have done, and what im glad i did...

Since starting of 2008, my career has taken a major dip..

Drew & Napier - while taking a cool and yummy paycheck, i got frustrated and blow my top finally in feb, and on impulse i quit my job...

Reason - i hate my boss
regret factor - bout 25% cos i love the pay... but the work sucks.... den again i wont doing it again, cos i like the trill of learning from the start, and having to depend on myself and no one else...

after a 3 weeks break, ben got me a job at Kuehne & Nagel... i cant say that i love the job, or i hate it.... but generally i dun like it... (not hate, but dun like...) i never had the heart to really go into working hard or giving my best....

reason - its dirty, and i dun wan to be trapped in that warehouse.... n i hate the voice of my OE. (p.s. if it happens, READ THAT MAN!)
regret factor? - nope.... none at all.... im glad i left anyway.... that period really tortured me big time... i was doing my dissertation, doing my work, and i was busy dunno doing wad...

there, i started here.... n finally i feel happy for it... I'm glad i moved, iI'm glad i kept in contact through the times after SKL with benny.... my big brother is shining on me.... and after moving here, i found another big brother helping me too... im glad i found them!

but since i started working here in Sept, my life changed again...

i conpleted my school course...
i started a new job
i broke off a relationship
i made my life more fulfilling...
i made new friends
and i found myself..

CYF said that he wasnt surprise for wad happened.... i have always been like that.... character wise, i've never changed... just that im somewhat released... n im glad for that.... i made myself more obvious and i am more me then ever....

Starting the Year 2009, i have much more to see, much more to do, and much much more about me...

Starting 2009 Feb, i will be debt free... thereafter, i wan to go to travelling, to HK, to TW, to many many places that i have never been to...

i want to continue to make friends with ppl all around, and be happy.....

suddenly i lost the feeling to continue blogging... jying just msg me... told me that they have decided to pull the respirator out today at noon... getting really kanchiong, i called her, n she confirmed that they are letting her dad go slowly....

i asked if she needed me, n she burst out in tears.... got CYF along too.... going down later...

life is such a weird thing.... when u least expect it... ur life changes and everything changes.... den again, nth is gonna be the same again.....

im trembling inside me... im scared.. not scared of death, but scared that i might not be able to control my emotions for her....

but i must be strong as well... i need to control my emotions and stand by her as much as i can...

2008 ends happily... but im sure Jying is gonna be strong....

Happy Happy New Year People! i'll cya again in 2009!

X'Mas on the 27th with my Poly Mates!

2008-12-30T09:38:00.005+08:00

Its been a long time since we gathered again...

and this year, its my 1st year celebrating with them! as usual, if i do call YF along.. he will take the chance to bully me into buying the gift for him, n settling the food as well..... maria once again...

so to save myself from the hassle, i ordered sushi delivery from sakae!

pressies that everyone got!

dinner table filled with food that everyone brought/bought

few pics that we took while doing a round of x'mas wishes as well for the coming year...videos will come later!

afew shots of our family photo! which i really like alot alot.... very nice!

me n the PS chia... constipated face to take pic with me...

gift exchange time!!!!! everyone got smth from someone!!!!

after the gift exchange, we went to continue eating the dessert! which the fondue was kinda uncoorporative... n refuse to work properly... :(

all n all, i had major fun... we played murdered, played 007...

its the good old days, and i miss the fun we always had...

Love Story

2008-12-26T16:49:00.002+08:00

A girl in love asked her boyfriend.

Girl: Tell me. Who do you love most in this world?

Boy: You, of course!

Girl: In your heart, what am I to you?

Boy: The boy thought for a moment and looked intently in her eyes and said, "You are my rib. It was said that God saw that Adam was lonely, during his sleep, God took one of Adam's rib and created Eve. Every man has been searching for his missing rib, only when you find the woman of your life, you'll no longer feel the lingering ache in your heart."

After their wedding, the couple had a sweet and happy life for a while.

However, the youthful couple began to drift apart due to the busy schedule of life and the never-ending worries of daily problems, their life became mundane.

All the challenges posed by the harsh realities of life began to gnaw away their dreams and love for each other. The couple began to have more quarrels and each quarrel became more heated. One day, after the quarrel, the girl ran out of the house. At the opposite side of the road, she shouted, "You don't love me!"

The boy hated her childishness and out of impulse, retorted, "Maybe, it was a mistake for us to be together! You were never my missing rib!"

Suddenly, she turned quiet and stood there for a long while. He regretted what he said but words spoken are like thrown away water, you can never take it back. With tears, she went home to pack her things and was determined in breaking-up.

Before she left the house, "If I'm really not your missing rib, please let me go." She continued, "It is less painful this way. Let us go on our separate ways and search for our own partners."

Five years went by...

He never remarried but he had tried to find out about her life indirectly. She had left the country and back. She had married a foreigner and divorced. He felt anguished that she never waited for him.

In the dark and lonely night, he lit his cigarette and felt the lingering ache in his heart. He couldn't bring himself to admit that he was missing her.

One day, they finally met. At the airport, a place where there were many reunions and good byes. He was going away on a business trip. She was standing there alone, with just the security door separating them. She smiled at him gently.

Boy: How are you?

Girl: I'm fine. How about you? Have you found your missing rib?

Boy: No.

Girl: I'll be flying to New York in the next flight.

Boy: I'll be back in 2 weeks time. Give me a call when you are back. You know my number. Nothing has changed.

With a smile, she turned around and waved good bye.

Good bye...

One week later, he heard of her death. She had perished in New York, in the event that shocked the world.

Midnight, once again, he lit his cigarette. And like before, he felt the lingering ache in his heart. He finally knew. She was the missing rib that he had carelessly broken.

Sometimes, people say things out of moments of fury. Most often than not, the outcome could be disastrous and detrimental. We vent our frustrations 99% at our loved ones. And even though we know that we ought to "think twice and act wisely", it's often easier said than done.

Things happen each day, many of which are beyond our control. Let us treasure every moment and everyone in our lives.

Tomorrow may never come. Give and accept what you have today

we never noe who our missing rib is, and who's missing rib do we belong to...

i always told myself that i should seek my own life, my own future, my own happiness... but apparently, situations doesnt always allow that....

i still do wish i was ur missing rib...

Merry Christmas!

2008-12-26T13:09:00.011+08:00

its boxing day today, and im here at work! how exciting right...

anyway throughout the entire month of December, i've had fun, i've cried, i've been bitter, i've been crazy, i've been stupid, and i've been cheapo...

nevertheless, i always enjoyed December, and i will still love it as much regardless of wad happens...

anyway, i went up Singapore Flyer sometime back, and its an experience that i would love to have again! i love the trill of being at the top of singapore looking onto all the small lil ants and everything there...

its gonna be a long series of photos... to bear with it!

20th Dec, we had our annual christmas dinner at HANDLE BAR!!!!! i enjoy myself very much, thou i only have like afew pics with me.... im still waiting for the rest...

dun ask why, but i seriously look like im 1/2 asleep, or 1/2 drunk, which is not true, cos i dun think i drank anything at all...

Christmas eve.... Cher, Clarence, Pauline and Vic came over to my place, and we started playing tic tac toe... the shot glass sucks big time.. so hard to pour into it... n it made us all drink so much, that within 3 hrs, almost all were drunk...

it was a fun night, but i did the merlion, n i swear im never ever gonna drink like that ever ever again.... i might die from it....

oh well, random pics of myself, to cheer up that im stuck in office, doing crap stuff...

disclaimer

2008-12-23T11:23:00.002+08:00

btw, the below entry is not written on impluse, and not because im angry... but solely cos i feel stupid for wad i've done...

im not blaming anyone for the mishap, and its my own fault for being gong gong... oh well....

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enuff said.

I'm Stupid, Dumb and Retarded

2008-12-23T09:04:00.002+08:00

yup... that basically spells everything about me....

im not THAT strong, not THAT smart, not THAT pretty, not THAT good at taking care of herself, and not THAT good at thinking....

angry? no im not....

I just think that im frustrated with myself... how hard can things be? not that hard right?? how hard to 4get everything?? not that hard as well... everything is seriously not THAT hard to settle, but y the FUCK is it still not settled?

y the fuck am i so stupid to even think that im capable of doing wad i did...

n y the fuck did wad happened happen?

i'm like jumping into a deep sea filled with blood thristy sharks, thinking im so damn good at swimming right out of it, n ignoring the loud wails of the rescuers....

thats how fucking dumb i am....

i've changed? really? did i?

from wad? a sum seng, who hates guys, who at every opportunity try to pinch some assholes nipples, to make them cry in pain, who does not dress up, much worst in a skirt....

i've changed..... im feminine on the outside now, i dun pinch ppl's nipples other den asshole who irritates me.... n i do dress up now... im do make up every mrn, and i wear skirts most of the time.... im becoming prettier, and im not an ugly duckling now... cos i've turned into a swan... hahahha(thats my own words btw....)

oh well...... i noe u will read my blog.... so im telling u now.... wadever that happened, has already happened.... n thou u r my friend, 1 of the best ones that listens to me all the time..... wadever happened still makes me feel like im a bloody fucking kuku brain with no pride, no dignity, and no fucking persistance!!!!

dear friends.....

please do at every chance kill me when u see me.....

i need a series of ppl killing me at every single time i see a human...

or i should just jump of from my house.... i wont die, but i'll just keep myself injured to remind how stupid i can get....

frustrated, n im out of here...

Those were the days..

2008-12-22T09:34:00.003+08:00

my uncle sent us a pic afew day back... totally made our side ache so much from laughing....

those were the days when my our clothes were hand me downs...

those were the days when we could sit on our dad's lap...

those were the days when we were carefree....

Those were the days....

me, my dad and my elder sister...

dun laugh....

Tattoo

2008-12-18T15:18:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking for quite some time... and its time already....

i think i should go n get a tattoo...

a beautiful and feminine one, that makes me feel beautiful and proud... smth that wont make me regret, and smth that i will love...

n im sure its not gonna be hard.... im not a regretter...

a rose? an angel? a trible design?

research and some opinions will be good for now....

Miracles are very much needed at this moment..... i have no idea wad will happen next but just a small one will make a big difference at this stage....

we are still praying...

Life's Short

2008-12-15T22:37:00.002+08:00

the usual few ppl that calls me will call me for fun.... but when ppl that usually text me suddenly calls, it must be smth urgent...

Jying called me this mrn.... 7.59am when i was drying my hair, n getting ready to go to work....

i didnt hear it ring, but when off the hair drying, i heard the last beat of the ringing.... so i called her back.... Ms Boey picked up almost immediately, n said..."Kim are u at home, going to work? or on the way, or in office already?" i said i was home... she asked me to check smth for her on the net.... smth wasnt right....

i asked wad happened.... she broke into tears almost instantaneously... "My dad got stroke.... "

Silence......

"OMG..... okok, give me 1 min.... let me on the com...." i asked wad happened, she said its brain stem stroke.... i didnt really understand wad that means... but instead of asking, i tried to comfort her....

i did wad she needed, n hung up..... but i cant get over that i said nth, so i msged her.....

she needs to be strong, because her mum needs her.... everyone needs her...

i couldnt tell her that everything is alright, cos i noe it wont....

chances of recovery is low.... the doc told her...

i reached office, n went online immediately.... searched for stem cell stroke... n i understood...

it controls the vital functions of the body like the heart beating, breathing and everything else...

chances of recovery will be low.... fully paralysis..

i was in shock.... Jying is a very very good friend of mine... and i like her dad... he is nice, capable and jying adores him...

he is their pillar of support, and they are all very very dependent on him.. with his situation now, she has to stand in his large shoes, and be her family's support.... but my dear is unstable now...

i dunno wad i can do for her... but i hope really hard that he is well soon... but hoping aside, we need to noe wad to prepare for.....

i feel so much for her.....

i dunno if she reads this but wadever the case, we all stand by u, n we all care....

12-Dec, Ding Tai Feng

2008-12-15T10:13:00.007+08:00

Venue: Ding Tai Feng (Raffles City) Q-number 153

Robert Chai: Clarence big boss

Jeffrey 1: Pauline Wong

Jefferey 2: Cheryln

Jeffrey 3: ME!!! (i didnt take pic at the restaurant... too busy eating... :P)

It's been a long time since i last saw clarence and cher.... great seeing them after so long....

anyway, dinner was free, cos clarence being the good old friend, decides that i need a treat after a breakup... hahaha.... good good friend... hahaha..

anyway, i on the way home, me and paul started cam-whoring.... and we did that IN THE TRAIN!! hahaha.... everyone looking, but i guess we just didnt bother bout it...

anyway, im exhausted.... gym n swim on sat.. totally fun... suana n hot pool.... its been a long time i was so relax.... min min is the best.... thanks for bringing me there!!! :)

Ah Leong's Birthday

2008-12-12T10:21:00.004+08:00

couple of days back.... we celebrated Ah Leong's Birthday....

gave him a wonderful surprise... n hopefully, he likes it... :) walked down to bungee Singapore for the surprise.... bought him the tickets and sent him up.... i took to vertical bungee with him.. n Lihui took to swinging one with him.... its fun, but u noe u are safe up there, cos u feel the safety belts securely strapped to u.... hands in the air n shout as much as talk as much as u like.... view from above is WONDERFUL....

i've always liked clark quay... n the view at night is just so so so wonderful..... i love it.

me and min min!!!!

the cake that we use to smash his face....

and the left over cake that we have no way to pick it up...

tada!!! 1 man and many beautiful woman!!! hahahhaa....

Thanks Xuemin..... this few days its all ur chatting with me, that really made my day.... all the crap and nonsense we talk about.... im so glad u are here.... love u.

No More...

2008-12-09T15:43:00.003+08:00

For 1 year, 9 Months and 15 Days, i spent my days with him....

now, i am all alone... Adam Koo Says..." everyone makes choices, and these choices has consequences..." now, i have to take wad i have decided and face the consequences...

With the decision i made, i have to understand that no one is perfect and i need to understand wad i have been doing..
,br> Life goes on, and we are learning to accept..those days we the growing up years, and i've grown...

i'm not someone that regrets decisions made... but im sure i'll do just fine..

Pig pig no more...

i'll learn to walk the journey of growing alone, n im sure u can do it better den me.

Clear ur BRAINS!!!

2008-12-03T11:46:00.003+08:00

i'm having a hard time working now....

my brains r filled to the brim with visions and memories...

the smell, the race, the thoughts everything.... running through my heart and mind..

i will never forget it...

just to cheer myself up...i took pics in the office!!!

Short Trip, Long Post

2008-12-02T10:15:00.019+08:00

nevertheless, after the long break, i've decided to share everything i have done the past 2 weeks.. including my very short n i dunno wad word to use trip to KUCHING!!! (I went to visit the Kenny Sia..... Kolo mee... wahahhaa...)anyway, pictures speaks a thousand words.... all i can say is.... I've had fun after 1 whole year of looking at singapore...

the view outside our hotel room is superb! we can see the entire Sarawak river, n the Astana which is also the Cat Museum.... really beautiful... especially early in the mrn...

the night we arrive, we went walking ard Kuching, n saw the "landmark". The so called door of kuching city, and the Cat statue.... 3 main ones ard the area where im staying...

kuching is so catty, that its drain cover has cat on it too!!!

and its super old type of bus stop.... we took buses couple of times... but din take pic of it... 1st, it stinks like hell, and its rather squeezy, and we were tired too... so no bus pics.. but its the same type as buses in singapore in the 1960s and 70s....

of cos in addition, my crazy cousin.... covering her gab between her teeth...

to welcome christmas... the hotel did a gingerbread house at the lobby.... its beautiful.... so i cannot resist taking some pics of it...

3rd day there, we went to the village visit.... Longhouse, Hotspring, Cave Visit...

the Dawins (natives) live in houses called long house, built with bamboo... the whole village is built with bamboo... the walkway as well...

below is the morden type of housing there... the most beautiful among all.... the rest, im not gonna write more... but they are a very self sufficient community... animals are reared, and they just eat from it....

that above, is where the joint some bamboo, and allowed the spring water to flow down... where we all freshen up, and washed ur hands and legs... the water is so cooling, so cooling, SO cooling....

thereafter, we went to the Hot Spring... but it being too too too hot for our liking, we moved over the the lil steam.. n played ard, to cool down... :) its not free, n we gotta make the 3RM worth!

pictures after the spring... my cam being quite lousy, i wasnt able to take anything in the cave, so im waiting for my mum's pictures.... anyway, moving on to last day, we went to get our MUST HAVE... the kuching famous KOLO MEE!!!!!

we din noe where to get, so went to the nearest one, sat down n ordered the kolomee..... its so yummy that just thinking of it now im salivating already...

thats bout all i have..... along the way, i got to noe my cousins better... n how crazy they can get....Kids nowadays... hahaha....

total damage made.... summing in the air tix n hotel plus spending n eating and transport n wadever....... s$470. its a good trip! :)

2008-11-21T14:50:00.002+08:00

have been down the entire week.... ok, not really entired, but from friday, when my fever started, i've not been feeling well all the way until bout 1 or 2 days ago, when the fever decides to stop visiting, n my uncler recovered....

about the same time i finish my antibiotics..

i've got no mood to continue... im bored...

Work

2008-11-14T16:07:00.002+08:00

i've worked here for 2 whole months, and while here, i have been picking up phone calls as n when it requires...

and during this few times, i've encountered COUNTLESS of brainless ah neh neh... "Hi, im calling from Singapore Data Service. What company is this?" like HELLO!!! if u don't know, y call? " of cos i said that to that neh neh la..."

that is senario 1.

Senario 2

"Hi im calling from Singapore Data Service, if this XXX Company?"
Me: "No" u've got the wrong number
"are u sure? is ur bos XXX?
me: No! i told u that u've got the wrong number!"
crazy ah neh neh: "nooo.nooo. nooo.noooo....."
**hang up

that caller must be a bloody random asshole... trying to irritate the world with his accent..

after many times of this crazy asshole, i lost faith with Indian callers...BUT! today, an indian call, n instead of asking random n bo liao things, he made REAL enquires!!!

with his ability and tone and manner of speech, im imagining him to be some handsome tall n successful Indian man... Young with loads of drive and ability... not like that nooo.nooo nooo.nooo crazy asshole.

Weekend

2008-11-12T17:00:00.007+08:00

I've the most bo liao weekend..

was suppose to go swimming, but pig pig was too tired, so being the nice gf, we only went out to watch this!

We like to move it move it!!

this show is hilarious, and at the same time heartwarming.... Alex the vain lion finally found his family!! how the animals walk through and survive in the jungle and in the mist of their own kind, find themself.

after that, we went home to watch REC. this show is horrible!!!

its filming method causes giddyness, and at the same time its suppose to instill fear and excitement... but wad i felt was plain giddyness..

after watching, we went to buy Nasi Lemak... i think i've been eating this almost all sats for a long time already.. but den again, im not complaining!!!

went home to continue another movie... Day of the Dead..

this show is gross.. its at the same live as Dead Alive... very exciting, very trilling and very gross!!!

imagine chilli filled rice in ur tummy, and watching blood splatter all over... usually im not easily disgusted with images.. but the chilli made it worst... i suffered a terrible fate when JS was even more kan chiong!!! so we end up grabbing each other when its at the kan chiong part...

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sunday was spend playing Paintball!!!!

i dun have the pics with me... but all i can say is, it is so so fun!

im definately gonna go again...

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to end today... lets take a view of my sister!!!

her ultra habit of eating insects since young..

she is just crazy...

oh btw, im going Kuching!!!!! yay yay yay!!!

wad am i gonna do there?

im gonna visit Kenny Sia

Finding Me. Kimberly Kan is missing..

2008-11-11T16:23:00.004+08:00

i was talking to joel this mrn, n he had nth to do... so i suggested all kinda crap, n he decided to search for Kan Kimberly on google...

there, i found myself non existant, and over-written by another Kan Kimberly..

even my facebook is taken over by her!!!!!! i mean when i search for my name is google, the facebook that appears is not mine!!!

that is a very depressing thing... like im totally ignored!

n worst of all, even my poor lil blog here is missing from the world!! im forgotten...

joel says that thats because i did not enable my blog to be searched by search engines.. so i check, n note that i did!!

im utterly depressed..

therefore im on a quest to find myself...

the route to finding Kimberly Kan.

We Remember

2008-11-10T11:29:00.004+08:00

When we were started Poly life, the 1st thing that mould us together was smth that our Laptop shared with us....

a whole bunch of strangers brought together into a class, that fate.... together we grow, thats our life story...

during the start of our life story, we found this....

yup! thats right... the happy tree friends.. stupid videos that kept us laughing and sharing and even thought of buying the tees to wear!!

thats how bo liao we were

subsequently, we received a video of a Korean girl singing in a KTV... that really flipped us...

that was not the end of everything... we even started watching a maid trapped in the US super Hero Tower!!! Maritass & the Superfriends!

thats the fun memories that we had....

subsequently... we starting doing our own videos... the only one that i have is the marketing video that we did...

towards the end of our 3 years together... the number of pictures we took goes such a long way that pictures were made into miniclips.... memories of our 3 years..

sweetest memory...

Arena Country Club

2008-11-07T09:36:00.007+08:00

I've just randomly stopped updating my blog because this week is a busy week! im not sure what i've been busy with, but i have never ending stuff to do!!!

that spells why my entry regarding the Arena Country Club dinner is late.... dinner was last sat... i've uploaded it.. but i've been too busy to do anything about it until... Today.

anyway, cos last sat was All Souls Day, so we went over the do Ah Gong visiting... yes... my Ah Gong is located at ulu ulu cemetry at Lim Chu Kang... the catholic cemetry... visiting has always been near Gabriel & Jas's birthday, we they will come over to our place for a mini gathering...

previously, its rather special, cos they only come over to our place 3 times a year... CNY, Christmas and AH Gong visiting day...

after renovation... it is so so so often... anyway, this year we decided to celebrate/spend my grandma's money at Arena country Club... at Tong Lok Seafood... buffet for all!!!

n the food is so so so good!!!!

Those are just SOME of the food we took... like the starters only...

naturally, cam-whoring is a norm in such occasion... so Jas n i did pics NON STOP....

we must have gone crazy with all the food.... the food is really unlimited to the max extend..

Family Photo!

Jason the poke cake & Xiao Ming!

Of cos my relative's pictures....

had a really good time having dinner there... saw Sam Leong too.. the celebrity Chef... auntie wanted to take pic with him too... too bad we didn't...

this sun we r gonna play paint ball!!!! so excited... never tried this game before... but rather ex too.... luckily we had a good deal! yay yay!!! enjoy..

Crystal Jade

2008-10-29T16:27:00.004+08:00

There we go.... eating again....

other den the very important full time job that we hold, we have our part time job... that is to make sure organ at the center of our body is well fed, painless and happy....

of cos to make it happy we need to input healthy, clean and rich food into it.... thats the reason i need good food... because my tummy asked for it... :)

so off we went, to crystal Jade, for yummy yummy ramen, n xiao long bao!!!!!

Off the find the La mian Xiao Long Bao!

Wonder wad the happy occasion is about??? Food is here!!!!

dear dear trying to act cute with is fried rice..... its really yummy too....

my Zha Jiang Mian!!!!!

clearing up all the food that we had..... we had fried tofu with pepper n salt.... the skin is super crispy, n the tofu super soft... i love love love that so MUCH!!!! *drools...*

after food satisfaction.... *bliss.*

Thanks it.... im lazy already....

Minori with the SKL/TLA people

2008-10-29T14:46:00.004+08:00

had Jap food AGAIN on friday... with the SKL / TLA ppl.....(thou more den half no longer works there anymore..) But this time, BUFFET!!!!!

of cos before we met up, before we got onto the yellow van, we were waiting for the rest of the ppl to reach, we took loads of pics!!!!!

made lots of monkey faces.... i think if i were to add them all up, from the last time i took, sure to make up 101... hhahaha...

hahaha... of cos must take pics with my piggy dear dear... :D i like the fact that we go out together, dress nicely, n take some pictures.... we can keep these sweet memories and rot with them...

Dinner at Minori Buffet!!!!

Dinner was good buffet was wonderful... my tummy is smiling n rocking in estacy!!!

my tummy is still filled with raw fish, n SPIDER!

Hoshi - IMM

2008-10-29T12:07:00.003+08:00

meimei treated us to Hoshi on Thurs, so Off we all went to the fav jap restaurant, with good n yummy food!!!!

pardon the nonsensical pics.... we were just hungry n bored....

i've got compressed face!

Random

2008-10-28T10:33:00.004+08:00

i've meant to blog with some pics... but with the amount of laziness in me, i suppose to pictures we took will have to wait for abit before it comes...

haven been feeling well for quite some time.... i suppose its the horrible weather as well as the fact that all at home is not well too.... i hate this feeling...

cousins came over to stay on sat night again.... extremely random..

The whole week have been a greedy and fattening weekend...

Thurs night, we had dinner at HOSHI at IMM..... yumyumyum!!!! its been a long time since we went there.... since they close for renovation... love the food there.. not too ex, and at the same time filling and worth the bucks!

Fri night, had dinner with the SKL gang at Minori... buffet for bout 38+ after GST n service charge... the food is good, filling, n OVER filling... to the extend that we were sitting with our back arched... n our lil belly popping out... for the price that, n being buffet... its good.. but i suppose i would prefer Kushin-Bo anytime... im so gonna go there again... sometime... :)

sat was spend trying to find a pair of running shoes at Queensway... but the trip from Yishun to Queensway was a bloody long one... due to unfamilarity of the road, we took a bloody big round before reaching alexandra village for claypot laksa...

JS changed bike, and its hard to get used to smth not as comfortable as before.. Phantom is still more comfy... but he says dun complain... so i should not... 6k+, so get used to it!...

my ass is still aching from cramping too much on the sit.... im just lousy...

Sun night Loy's birthday.... i din take any pics... but i sure can get it from benson's blog...

** got it!!!

the rest of the gang did not turn up.... kinda disappointed that its not a full strength again.... im glad im not like that....

praise myself, i can still be depended on...

was suppose to celebrate Js's dad's birthday.... but not too sure wad went wrong, so they had dinner on sun night instead of the supposed mon night.... cake cutting were without us too... nevertheless, Happy Birthday!

mon was suppose to be a slack n JS pack room day....

so he came to pick me up, n we went for food before he hop over the Seng Shiong for grocery/camp stuff stock up...

went for a car wash at yishun, before heading home.... car wash was a disaster!!!!

the whole Q was about 1 hr, n i feel asleep for bout 30 mins... once i wake up.... the antena broke... -.-" china man denies, so we called the boss n complain.... of cos boss is nice, so he promise to pay for the damages... still bro was angry... n JS was ignored.... oh well... i suppose its a small thing, n all that is needed to do is buy a new one!!!! small deal..

i still 4got that im suppose to post pictures... but im oh so very LAZY.....

PS. Got the Pics from benson's blog already...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOY!!!

super random post... but thats cos im bored....

A Love Story

2008-10-22T11:09:00.003+08:00

i've been feeling bored, so i rmbed once Jason was telling me about bible... so i went online today, n search for an online bible.... read it during my free time at work, n pass my time.... but it was too complicated for my understanding, so i went on the search for Catholic stories.... just like the ones that i read when i was a lil girl.... those old and yellow books that mum left us to read....

instead of finding those stories, i found some jokes, and couple of love stories.... it warms my heart and keeps me happy to know of love and encouragement that exist between 2 couples....

taken from the website, there is a love story.... reminds all of us of a book called :P.S. I Love You...

Red roses were her favorites, her name was also Rose.
And every year her husband sent them, tied with pretty bows.
The year he died, the roses were delivered to her door.
The card said, "Be my Valentine," like all the years before.

Each year he sent her roses, and the note would always say,
"I love you even more this year, than last year on this day."
"My love for you will always grow, with every passing year."
She knew this was the last time that the roses would appear.

She thought, he ordered roses in advance before this day.
Her loving husband did not know, that he would pass away.
He always liked to do things early, way before the time.
Then, if he got too busy, everything would work out fine.

She trimmed the stems, and placed them in a very special vase.
Then sat the vase beside the portrait of his smiling face.
She would sit for hours, in her husband's favorite chair.
While staring at his picture, and the roses sitting there.

A year went by, and it was hard to live without her mate,
With loneliness and solitude that had become her fate.
Then, the very hour, as on Valentines before,
The doorbell rang, and there were roses - sitting by her door.

She brought the roses in, and then just looked at them in shock.
Then, went to get the telephone, to call the florist shop.
The owner answered, and she asked him, if he would explain,
Why would someone do this to her, causing her such pain?

"I know your husband passed away, more than a year ago,"
The owner said, "I knew you'd call, and you would want to know."
"The flowers you received today, were paid for in advance."
"Your husband always planned ahead, he left nothing to chance."

"There is a standing order, that I have on file down here,
And he has paid, well in advance, you'll get them every year.
There is another thing that I think you should know,
He wrote a special little card...he did this years ago."

"Then, should ever I find out that he's no longer here,
That's the card...that should be sent, to you the following year."
She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears now flowing hard.
Her fingers shaking, as she slowly reached to get the card.

Inside the card, she saw that he had written her a note.
Then, as she stared in total silence, this is what he wrote...
"Hello my love, I know it's been a year since I've been gone,
I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome."

"I know it must be lonely, and the pain is very real.
For if it was the other way, I know how I would feel.
The love we shared made everything so beautiful in life.
I loved you more than words can say, you were the perfect wife."

"You were my friend and lover, you fulfilled my every need.
I know it's only been a year, but please try not to grieve.
I want you to be happy, even when you shed your tears.
That is why the roses will be sent to you for years."

"When you get these roses, think of all the happiness
That we had together, and how both of us were blessed.
I have always loved you and I know I always will.
But, my love, you must go on, you have some living still."

"Please...try to find happiness, while living out your days.
I know it is not easy, but I hope you find some ways.
The roses will come every year, and they will only stop,
When your door's not answered when the florist stops to knock."

"He will come five times that day, in case you have gone out.
But after his last visit, he will know without a doubt
To take the roses to the place, where I've instructed him,
And place the roses where we are, together once again."

aww..... so so sweet....

Lets Move On

2008-10-16T09:40:00.002+08:00

being at the age 21 brings along alot of thoughts that we might not have thought of younger, or even the most retarded idea...

being at my 21, i had hell loads of fun... but i suppose its an unlucky year for me... so new year is in another 3 or 4 months... hopefully everything blows pass asap.. n im back to normal again..

being the 2nd week of intense or rather half half exercise, i see...... no results....

i suppose it would take another week or so, before i can see wad this has done for me.. but for now... well..... all i can say is that results r not suppose to be instant if its healthy right?

i was in facebook ytd, and i notice a rather perculiar sight...

i thought she was like the only person u have liked all this while?? wow.... 3 months after, things took a change huh...

of cos i love to see ppl being happy... of cos i love to see You being happy with your life...

but dun u think that the big drama over this past relationship is putting a major huge toll on the friendship that was built over the many years before? not just with us, but also with the other girls.... if in any case, a class gathering is held... things r gonna be very awkward... there goes the"i tot it was good" friendship...

of cos it is true that being your own website, like it, den read it... hate it, den leave it... but inter-personal relationship are a such that u dun back stab, or talk rot of a person young, because u enver noe what will happen in future... if in any case, i becomes ur boss... den this world is so damn small... wad if im a person that seeks revenge over small case? ur life will be miserable...

there is a say in chinese.."u can bully a old man, bacuse he is old.. but never a young man cos u never noe wad happens next..."

Ponder and be enlightened...

Peace

2008-10-09T10:45:00.003+08:00

Finally, its peace.... apologise made, n everything is back to normal after all the promises and apologise... i'm trying hard too...

anyway, Pauline n i started a serious workout regime...

Workout 4 times a week, and making sure its about an hr of exercise...

dear dear give me suggestions ytd...

take a standard distance for e.g. 400m(1 round at the tracks) time yourself how long it takes to finish that 400m.. subsequently, rest only for the time that you ran for that 1st 400m... foe e.g. 1st 400m took 1min 50 sec... rest time after 1st round is also 1 min 50 sec... for the next few rounds, each 400m has to be completed within 1min 50 sec.. and rest time is also the same... If for the 3rd round you took 3 mins to complete, den too bad.... rest time is still 1min 50 secs....

doesnt look like a very difficult thing to do.. but i suppose it works, cos thats wad i heard my PTI friend do in camp... except that they do 30 rounds at a go...

1 month is not really such a long time.. i suppose 3kg for a start is not that hard right?

but again, main point here is not really the lose weight issue.. but about keep yourself healthy... its important to note that a healthy person is always at advantage.. n i like to be at the top of the advantage seeking list..

2008-10-07T11:13:00.001+08:00

What Kan,kimberly Means

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.
You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.
People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic “Type A” personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.
You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.
Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Things just dont work the way you want it to.

2008-10-06T09:31:00.002+08:00

Along a relationship, everything works like a stock market... it goes high at one moment, and maybe at the very next, it goes right down to pit bottom..

similarly, in the relationship that i am going through now, the high period took a long holiday, and now its left with the pit bottom buddies...

never have i ever wanted to lose it, or maybe take a step back and take a break... i always wanted things to work my way, and within my control, i always believe things will just work as smoothly, as much as i want it to..

but i suppose dealing with another person's emotion is the most difficult thing...

someone brought up in a different environment, and growing well and strong for the past 20 years is drawn to another that is of a totally different world... not that its really totally different, but more or less just the most basics are already different....

the last 1 year and 8 months have been a major roller coaster for me... i've tasted the sweetest of sweet, the sour-est or the sour, and recently i tasted the bitter-est of the bitter...

i learnt to love, to feel and to take other's into consideration... i've learnt wad a big bully i am, and how bad i temper i have....

for the 1st time, i felt that my temper is bringing me problems...

of cos i learnt to curb it, but at times my temper just broke lose from the cage, and everything goes back to square one...

for the 1st time in the 1 over year that we have been together, JS shouted at me... of cos i felt that i was just talking all senses and i considered his feelings... and after the long arguement, i still have no idea wad he felt... neither did he tell me wad i had to do....

y must it seem that im not giving way? i admit that i am very quick and short tempered... but my temper blows over very soon...

am i asking for too much? or what? everything i ask this question, the answer i get will be no.... so wad am i to him? wad is the feeling that i am giving him?

he said that if i really felt that it is very hard to live with him, we can go our own ways....

this hurts me deep down... there i was trying my best, to salvage this relationship, there he is telling me that we should just move on without each other..

i have my pride too... if that is wad he wanted, i can step back and let it go... but is this for real? am i really suppose to smile n let go? or am i suppose to 4get my pride and beg it back?

this few weeks really took my confidence away...

everyone says that in a relationship, after 1 year, there will be a major arguement, and if it makes it, things will be fine.. if it does not, that will be the end...

is this that major arguement?

maybe we both really need some time to think it through, and sort it out...