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Wednesday, December 29, 2004 @ 8:54 p.m.
NEW YEAR IS COMING!!!! yay!!!! finally new year is coming... 2004 is almost over, n the all new 2005 is arriving in 2 days!!!! well, it feels great to noe that a year is over ands i live it well... i rmb almost 1 year ago, i started work at my uncle company as that sotong ger hu always made mistake, n dunno everything... it was den that i found that i was really very toot... ppl ask me to do accounts, i took so long to complete it... ppl ask me to photocopy things, i also dunno how to use the machine.. but i learnt to be smart... i learn everything, n the 5 months there, taught me alot of things.. i made frens, i saw the world that ppl work it... although its still in the comfort place of my uncle, i was on my own... i noe no one, n no one noe me... i started from scratch, n it soon hit me that no matter how great u r in sch, u r nth in the working world, unless u made a name 4 urself... den i got into poly... b4 that, when i got my results, i was very very happy... i did even better den i expected... i scored a 13pts 4 L1R4.. i made it into poly, n i can almost get into any course i want... i ended in LEM, n tot thats it... im gonna suffer... im gonna be alone, cos non of my sec sch frens r in that course... but i found frens... i found ppl whom i can work wif, enjoy wif, n play ard wif... although there r times when i get upset wif them, but they are still there every single day, every single moment to haunt my life!!!! hhahahaa... i went through sad times too... 4 1 whole month, i enjoyed happiness from someone whom i tot cared 4 me, n wanted to be wif me.... i tot too much... i was heard broken 4 many times by this same person... i lost myself once, but i pick myself up... i got back to myself, n tot that there is no one ard that is worth my tears, my sadness, or worth my love... it may seems to arrogant, but keeping to that, i am a happier person... i dun have to worry how ppl will feel, i dun have to worry about how to care 4 my partner... im alone, n happy.... at this time of my life, i wan to be happy... in juz 1 month, 2 family member left my life 4ever... no more coming back... but we gotta live our life, n continue being happy... no one will want their family to be sad rite... yupyup.. in this coming year, i juz got 5 wishes... - to be single 4 the year, n be happy wif juz wad i want... - to save up money every month, so that i can have at least 2 new clothes per month.. - i...... wanna be rich!!!!!! hahahaa.... think thats all bah... i juz a person hu wont wan to have to many wishes... 3 will do... if not i cannot reach it, it wont be fun anymore... i like things to be realistic.... anyways.. ben lost in the MDE IDOL preliminary round... he keep saying that he is not sad... but its so clearly stated in his blog that he is sad over it... disappointed.. well... all i can say is ben, cheer up... if life is so smooth sailing, den y is so many ppl killed in the tsunami??y so many ppl is dying over sickness??? u r considered lucky... yes, u can be disappointed, but always look on the bright side of life... god is never unfair to ppl... im sure of that... another issue in my life... thats the ben from the other class... rmb the day when i walk up to him to ask 4 his no. yesh, i did say he look gd, n has everything of a perfect guy... but during that high period of fun... i played... its true... but if i got a chance to go further, hu wont?? but i woke up... now, the fun is over, n everything should come to an end...the year is almost over, n so is the joke... i never denied that i ever had some tots bout him... but since he seems to have rejected everything, i give up.. y should i continue?? den now, his class is playing... my god... i dunno how to face him as a person.... cant 2 person be frens?? shouldnt frens help each other??well... i dunno. maybe someday, we will all wake up, n realise how childish we once r... how farni the entire thing turn out to be... anyway, i change my blogskin again.... cos the other blogskin, cant seems to make my tagboard show the way i want it to be... so change change... keke...im going to stop here le... maybe its too early to write bout new yer resolutions... i will go back, n think bout it... den i will come to a conclusion soon.... till den, tata!!!! MDE IDOL 2005 12 JAn 2005 Ngee Ann Convention 5.30p.m tix selling at 3 dollars PLS GO!!!!! those hu want tix, pls pls pls contact me!!!!!! thanx!! Saturday, December 25, 2004 @ 5:14 p.m.
Merry Chirstmas!!! YoZ ppl!!!! merry christmas to all!!!! hahaa... todae is christmas day!!!! last nite, i had fun fun fun!!!! was at home calebration christmas wif my family, my cousins, my uncles, n some frens... there was so much to eat, so much to drink, n so "much" to do... im practically drinking all the way... nth to do at all lo... juz sit ard, ppl tok to me, i reply... if not, i'll be sitting there alone.. ayway, the best part of yst, was the present part!!! hahaha... its juz like when we were young, n everyone is so excited wif the present part... but as we grow older, everyone's excitement never fade... we still excited, except that we keep quiet n wait 4 the present to come... keke... thats the sign of growing up... wahahhaaa.... To all ppl hu enjoyed ur christmas, great 4 u!!!! n hope from now to next christmas, u will enjoy urself!!!! n to those hu din njoy ur christmas, nahZ... its okies... there is always next year... if u cannot find any place to go during christmas, u can always call me... my home is always there to welcome u!!!! party will be on every year!!!! hehe... anyways, im leaving 4 a bbq soon... MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! Tuesday, December 21, 2004 @ 9:43 p.m.
Here Here!! yup yup... a new blog skin... keke.. this time, i changed it myself!!!! wahaha.. no more asking ppl to do it 4 me... i did it myself!!!! the week has been tiring, n a rush.. the entire sunday, monday, tuesday, n wed has been spent at my grand dad's wake, n funeral.. i tot i wont be sad... but i cried.. i felt that sense of lost, n that sense of missing when they push the coffin into the oven... anyway, there is nth much this week, except that funeral.. its so farni, that 2 person can leave u in juz a month.. 2 love ones, yet not close.. in the past 17 years of my life, my uncle, n my grand pa has never spent christmas wif me or my family b4... to think of that, its so weird that someone related to u, does not spark any sense of lost in me when they leave this world, except that short period of time... anyway, i came to a conclusion about love... let me ask u... wad is love??? is love smth about 2 person looking at the same direction, not touiching to each other, n not toking.. or 2 person, looking lovingly at each other, holding to each other, n saying that they wan to have each other 4 the rest of their life, n knowing wad the other half wans to do... so how??? which is love?? alot of ppl think that their partner at present is the one that they will be together 4 the rest of their life... but most of the time, they end up wif someone they never tot they will be together wif.... life is a weird thing.... Saturday, December 11, 2004 @ 5:54 p.m.
goNe.. sometimes, things r really weird... when u least expect them to be gone, they turn away from u, n disappear from ur life 4ever.... i juz recieved the news taht my grandad is gone... n i have frens asking me, how r u feeling now??? really, i dun noe... i feel nth at all... but how can i have no feelings when thats my grand dad... when i was younger, i use to try n be nice to my gtrand dad, tell him not to smoke so much, cos he will die early... but he told us dun be kaypo, dun bother bout him... n we din bother bout him... when he went into the hospital last week, we all tot he is goner soon.... n drag on 4 1 week... 1 long week... i really think that he waited 4 us to visit him, b4 he leaves... the whole of my family has already went down to visit him, except the 3 of us... den we went down on thursday... n i think he really waited 4 us to come visit him... its 1 month after my uncle passed away... in juz 1 month, there is 2 death in the family... when the news that my uncle passed away was known, i din feel anything... until my dad came back from shenzhen with is belongings, n everything... den i started to feel it in my... its so unexpected that a 45 year old man can juz leave us so soon... when i knew that he told his frens about me, n about my character being like him, i started to cry... although im not close wif him, but he is still that uncle hu gave us 100 US bucks 4 CNY... that uncle hu bought us gifts, n that uncle hu caused alot of trouble 4 my dad.... no matter wad he did, he never harmed me, yet he seems to dote on us more den the other cousins... now, my grandpa is gone... i dun noe wad i will feel... will i be sad, or will i be feelingless.... there is a feeling of lost, but its so faint, that it seems to pass wifin awhile... anyways, im not the onli one hu lost a granddad... jieying too...(huggies ger..) she might feel sad... very sad... cos she had a close relationship wif her granddad... but i wish to cry 4 him too... but y cant i!!! y dun i have a grandfather that brings us out to play, hu hugs us when he sees us, n a grandpa hu tells us stories, n smile to us... no!!! he dun... when we visit him, he dun smile to us, he dun tok to us, he juz ignore us, n do his own things... when he is in hospital, i see a bag of bones, covered in skin... my heart hurt, but it hurt not cos he is my granddad, but cos a person can come down to such a state... he cant see us, he cant hear us... he cant answer us, he cant hold our hands... he cant eat, he cant move... when he is moved, he hurt... y?? y can a person be in such a state.. sometimes i juz wish that there is someone hu can be there to give me a hug when im down, or a person to confort me when i need it the most... not frens hu tok down on me, or ppl hu shot me down wif words everytime i open my mouth... i agree im not the best or wad... but no one is perfect here!!! im not, neither r u... Tuesday, December 07, 2004 @ 8:32 p.m.
hey YA!!!! yoZ!! todae is the big big day!!!!! yup... the big day 4 the christmas calebration with the kiddys!!! hahaha.... cool kids todae... all very hyper, n cutie!!!! all going ard, hugging the rest of us, n it really makes our day... well, they din hug me at all... cos i wasnt playing with them... i was doing the PA... so well well.... anyways, wanna tell jieying smth...(like i promised u....keke) sometimes, ppl come ppl go... no matter how much u wish that they stay, they will eventually leave u... u may be thinking that in the beginning, u will have a gd ending, n may even live together 4ever... but sometimes, things do not happen the way u wan it to be... things change the other way round... the more u wan it there, the more it leaves u... the more u dun wan it, the more it will stick with u.. u were very brave in facing it... im really very proud of u... juz wan u to noe, that u r onli 17 going on 18!!! u still have youth, u still have time.... dun worry, cos there r sure to be loads of guys Q-ing 4 u... im not trying to tell u to play ard, but dun be too serious anymore... guys r not worth ur tears, ur care, n ur heart.... some guys r not even worth ur hugs... anyway, todae's program was suppose to be fun, but hmm... no matter wad, the mood is not there.... wads wrost is that the kids there r so0o0o0o... wild!!!!! yeah, i agree that there r some that r really cute, n likable... but some r really so0o0o messed up, that i also dunno how to handle them... how to treat a child nice, when the 1st thing i hear them say is shut up?!??!?!! den we never say valgaruties, they say kao peh liaoz.... how how how?!??!?!?!! haiyo... kids nowadays... bth r.. anyways, i wan go watch tv le... bloggy again!!!!! |