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Wednesday, June 29, 2005 @ 10:28 p.m.
the following paragraph refers to elmo. i really cant believe that guys hu r gd looking, si wen, practically perfect guy, is so superfical, n so SHALLOW.... its starting to make me puke. U MAKE ME PUKE! fuck off wif all those nice words thats said, fuck off wif all those fake concern that u have..... im never gonna believe that u once ever cared 4 me... add this to clear up some misunderstanding. Tuesday, June 28, 2005 @ 5:37 p.m.
1 more day.i dunno if i still have to chance, or the determination to deicide anymore.... im losing hope somehow.... i noe alot of ppl dun wan pressurise me wif wad they think.... but somehow it gives me more pressure... cos i dunno wadever i did is gonna make anyone unhappy anot... when a guy look at a ger... wad is the 1st thing or the 1st part? izzit the boobs, the face, or the figure? if thats so, izzit true that those gals hu do not go ard showing off their figures will lose out at this part, n be onli looked at by guys hu onli look at face? i really cant believe that guys hu r gd looking, si wen, practically perfect guy, is so superfical, n so SHALLOW.... its starting to make me puke. U MAKE ME PUKE! fuck off wif all those nice words thats said, fuck off wif all those fake concern that u have..... im never gonna believe that u once ever cared 4 me... have anyone tot abit more when u scold someone a bitch? how do u label someone a bitch? izzit the things this person say? or izzit wad the person do? or juz that u dun like her? i dun care if someone labels me a bitch, or a super bitch, or a slut or wadever anymore.... i cant be bothered.... cos that person definately never think wif his'her brains, n blame ppl 4 wadever that they encounter. i cant slp last nite... yeah, u can say that... huh? cant slp AGAIN R!... but wadever... i used this time to think.... think of wadever thats happened in my life. in the lives of ppl close to me... ppl break, ppl patch... all these things r decision made by themself.... wadever the decision, it is the smartest, n the best to stick to it, n live wif it... be it gd or bad.... u made that choice, u stick wif it.... same goes to me... its always easier to say den to do it.... there are so many tot running inside me.... but i have trouble blogging it down.... like wad someone told me... this is a blog, an address that u give to all ur frens... somewhere where everyone can read wad u r thinking.... yeah its rite that it belongs to u... but think again... if u read it urself, izzit gonna be fun? if ppl read it, obviously ppl like to read wad they liek best... not smth that insults, or hurts themself... i told myself to be ignorant to wad ppl think.... but can that be done? yeah... but its difficult... n i cant bring myself to do it.... i may scold... but i dundo it directly... i noe i dun... so wadever i feel like saying, if its impt. it will always stay in the blog inside my heart, n those simple ones, r all here... having ppl noeing too much of u is unhealthy rite!!! anyway, thinking it through, i believe that a person got into ur life, cos of 1 reason.... to make a difference in ur life...may it be gd, or bad... to be ur fren or to be ur enemy.. they are there to teach a life lesson, n to make a difference.... even if 1 day, this person leaves u 4 life. the memory of wad happened will always be stuck to u... if 1 day, there is a machine that cleans out part of ur memory...cleans out memory that is sad... will u still do it? i wont... definately wont... i rmb louis, vartini, n blah blah blah.. they made my life horrible... made me lose things tat i wanted so so much.... sports leader... cos of things i did 4 them, i lost that post... n right after that i ws abandoned my them.... was i smart? no im not.... i was down right dumb. the vp of sports leader was already in my hands... i juz lost it cos of frens.... frens that were suppose to be helping me... but betrayed me.... i hated her very very much.... but todae, thoough i still hate her, i thank her 4 telling me that i made a wrong fren, n i learnt a lesson.. i still ask myself if wad i did was right or not... this time, i got a choice, got a post, but i let it go, 4 no reason at all.. y did i do that? cos i hated the ppl? no.... i love them!!! they r so damn gd.... i dunno wads going through my mind now.... i dunno if wad im thinking is wad i wan.... no one can tell me a straight ans right out from wad im thinking.... i dunno if u will still read my posts, or u will get out of my life.... but if u r reading, pls pls help me.... im desprate 4 help. @ 5:34 p.m.
the power of the k-sistaZ!!!!! hahahhaa... yup... went down to supposrt uncle. 4 gals n a tortise... keke the beautify senery at bedok reserviour... peacefuL! kim n kim 1 !!! hahahaa... kim wan la... my ke ai de er jie.... Monday, June 27, 2005 @ 9:03 p.m.
pics 4 tml.... looks lame... but wadever... Sunday, June 26, 2005 @ 7:28 p.m.
wo de yeah man tong xue... the mde version.... starring ben n me!!!! @ 7:27 p.m.
me n me onlI!!!! ben ben n me!!!!! the black n white... mde oiE!!!!!! 2nd years onli.... mei jia da xiao jie, n jian jia er xiao jie.... ;p ger power!!!! ben n me... in blazer.... very shuai hor... all of us...except sihan, n jieying... @ 4:18 p.m.
Parents Forum 2005 ytd went sch 4 the parents forum.... wore the ngee ann blazer 4 the 1st time... was really very smart.. everyone look real c00L!!! boon n jy, n alot of ppl haven send me the pics... when i get it, will uploAd... promised giap will be there 4 the race. wanted to go down.... its a lil too far la.. but hmm.... still manage to presuade jy, kristie n kimwan down.... den kimwan's bf drive us to kirsite's house, den she change, n went down.... nat told me start le... hahhaa... lucky haven really started.. manage to reach in time 4 the finals.... well, waited alost 2 hrs bah... ngee ann got 3rd... well, i also dunno much, so shall not comment.... took some pics also.... den uncle giap saw us, was really surprise... i can really tell he was glad... waited until lke 8 den reach tampiness... damn late le... so rush eating, n took a cab home... since uncle was tired... den let him drop off 1st lo... total price of 20 bucks.... rach home at 9.30, n got scolding.... haiZ... this is really my fault... when i was at bedok reserviour, the cool wind blew, n the sun set... was really very very nice.... at has a very calm effect, n it made me feel better, but at the same time felt sad.... i knew i did many many mistakes along the way.. but i really dunno. whenever i see him, i felt so ashame of myself... i really want to noe y is he so so angry... angry that someone noes, or angry that he is afriad someone will spread? i guess trust is so big tat he dun believe me anymore bah.... well, i hope that time n my sincerity will help me overcome things bah... friday nite was the mde games.... was down at the sports hall ding reffree 4 the captains ball.... den went off 4 a talk... im very messed up... i really dunno wad i wan now... i dunno if wad i did was right... i dun even noe y i wan to let i go now.... everything that was clear to me now seems to blur.... everything that everyone told me cant seems to ease my tense... i feel like i brought about this problem myself... yes i agree... but i dun noe how to solve this... i cant even conclude wadever thats happening.. i guess i still have the entire day to think of wad i wan, n wad i wan to do bout it... i feel so ashame of myself.... i let myself down again n again.... i told myself that i cant cry anymore... but i did again... it shocked many... im so sorrie to cause u guys to worry... so sorry to cause u guys to worry 4 me.. i will get better.... thanx ben, da ge, loy, n giap 4 ur ears, n opinion... i guess this is still my life, i still have to decide 4myself... wadever my decision, u guys will support me rite? thanx k-sistaz... u gals rocKz!!! du worry 4 me okies? i will be fine... n nat.... though i dun think u will be reading this... but i still wan thank u 4 ur concern... thanx 4 telling me not to lie to myself le... i will be well soon.... but i have my faults too...im not perfect person.... im so so sorrie. Friday, June 24, 2005 @ 8:32 a.m.
my fault.. i once had a fren... i tot i could count on him... i told him my feelings n all... somehow, it felt weird... but i still told him... den one day, smth happened. i told a fren wad i noe. we were best of frens, we shared. but my once apon a time fren tot it wrong... i was wrong... i promise to keep it quiet, but i din... den another person noe... n it made things worst... all the trust gone... my once apon a time fren din trust me anymore... i lost that faith, n trust. another person actually dun noe anything... another person actually somehow dunno noe wad la.... freak.... its my fault too.... i really wan tell my once apon a time fren tat trust is gone, but using smth that u r heading 4 as a reason to feelunhappy is making me even worst. maybe thats wad u wan, but wad bout how im feeling at that point of time? is that wad is called a fren? do frens not understand? u said u will be there.... but how much can i tok to u about? that thing, is making me sleepless 4 nites.... u think i feel nice? u think i am so proud? im not okies... wadever it is... i noe its my fault 4 telling someone... im really truely sorrie, n i hope 4giveness can be given, though i noe its not possible... but we both did not say a single crap out. Thursday, June 23, 2005 @ 11:56 p.m.
5th scolding of the day.... i dun noe y im living in this world... ought to die... dun noe how long my tears r gonna last me.... think tonite all gone le... @ 9:23 p.m.
fang kai le yi dian... i let a tight knot in my heart lo0se todae... it came off at the last min that i felt that i had... maybe it sounds a lil disappointing... but a burden on my shoulder thats been there 4 so long let loose.... im glad... but im sad too... i let my heart into wadever i do... but i never assurance.... i feel so tired. i see things that i was told thats not ard.... i see things that no one likes to see... i hear things i feel unhappy about, n i see ppl i dun like. yes it sound so personal, n so yeah man n so wadever.... but this is me! i say wad i feel, n i dun like to hide.... i tell u when im not happy.... im sad too.... 4 letting ppl down.... but i did tell u many times, n hinted it to u too.... i noe u noe it... but guess u juz let it pass, thinking i will juz give in... no.. im like u too.... when i wan it this way, n i dun see anything wrong, i wan it my way, n no one can sway me... unless someone can persuade this bull here la... which is quite impossible... i dunno if u guys see it.... but i see it so clearly, that i feel sick juz looking, or even think of it.... favourtism is not a way to let things move on..... u noe it.... but its so obvious that it cant be denied.... im very touched wif wad kim wan aka er jie siad... she told me that wifout me, there is no one to play wif her le... she also siad that its cos of us that they joined.... thats wad jieying siad la... even si han siad that too..... im really very touched.... at some point i noe im at fault.... but i really wan it this way.... i noe its not that i mad a mistake... but i juz felt like crying.... water tap on todae... those hu needs water, pls come look 4 me.... i have alot of water!!!!!!!! i totally agree that im sad.... i dun wan to den that fact... im very sad... sad bout wad? i dunno.... i juz felt so tired of wadever thats happening.... loy say that its not worth it to leave it juz becos of 1 person.... i juz dun feel the drive, or the motivation anymore... when i left the room todae... i felt a sense of peace.... yet as i walk, my tears fall... there are things i hold onto... but there are more i wan to let go... giving up is a right thing(i think la...) but so many ppl tell me its not worth it.... izzit really not worth it? i really dun see where i was wrong in thinking, or where went wrong.... i juz wan to live my life my way 4 once.... all my life, i do wad my dad wans me to do... in my cca, i do wad my officer wans me to do... in sch, i listen to wad my teacher wans me to do.... i dun say im very ver guai.... but i still do things ppl wan me to do... i wan live my life also... mdes is a society no one force me to join.... i join, n did my best.... i tried at least.. i decide wad i wan to do, where i wan to move on... this is the time when i really felt a strong sense of wad i wan.... i quit means i quit... i wont bow down, n wask 4 4giveness.... never in my life... im crying.... n its a running tap.... where is the shoulder... Wednesday, June 22, 2005 @ 11:11 p.m.
my new bottle!!!!!! cute rite!!!! hahahhaa.... small small onli.... keke @ 10:58 p.m.
freak!!!!! nat showed me smth juz now.... this is cruel!!!!! i cant believe someone can do smth like this... i dun like animals alot alot.. but i cant stand smth like that being done LO!!!!!! freak!!!!! http://hk.geocities.com/blood1213/fur.html go take a look.... it sucks!!!! save animals from cruel acts... dun wear animal skinS!!!! went to buy my black pants ytd... yesH! finally!!!!! n the worst part is my mum left me n my sis to go home, while they go out 4 nice dinner!!!!! no fair!!! tot they will bring us along.. bleahs... juz now went dinner wif seetoh, calvin, loycus, n ben.... finally somewhere near home... JP!!!! eat the mee siam... regret... its making my uncler hurT!!! dunno correct spelling anot.. den onli eat abit lo... waste my 3.50... den sit there n tok tok tok lo.. tok until alost 9, den go buy bottle!!! hahahahaa..... buy nice nice bottle le!!!! kekeke... its yellOw!!!! hahahaa.... anyway, i will live my life happily!!!! cos i got tense shoudlers!!!! giap, n jason say de... well, din have gd slp 4 many days le... think hug my pillow too much, den enver use it as a pillow bah... i will love myself more.... cos many ppl say... how can u love others, when u dun loveurself enuff??!!??!! i will love myself!!!!!! muack muacks to myselF!!!!! n my qing ai de lao gong!!!!!! QIAN HUI!!!!! hahahaa.... no one can smatch her from me... including u, DA GE!!! cannot hoR!!! hahahaha... this is damn crazzee.... tml is IMGT, n QLA quiz... n i haven study!!! bleahs... no mood la.... but seetoh say this sem easy to score... so i will work hard!!!!! i wan to get an A! hahaha..... as if i can.... -_-" okies.... better start to study le.... off i GO!!!! Sunday, June 19, 2005 @ 11:00 p.m.
18th june 2005 eric's birthday... went down to clementi 4 bbq... mum brought some friut punch like brandy, n dunno wad else la... was not suppose to drink much, but as usual, wepoured it out, n helped ourselves to it... yum yum!!!!! taste jux like fruit punch~!!!!! den i dunno wad n dunno wad together, den drink.... yum yum... taste nice toO... den was totally acting like a kid, drinking wadever there is there, den finishing up a bottle of leftover dunno wad... thinking back, it was damn childish lo... den came the time when i had to stand up, n walk up to get the cake... sHIT... im a lil tipsy... n i need to use the toilet!!!!!! den tried to control myself, n walk up... hahahaa... looked into the mirror, n i look like i put on alot of make up, n blusher... den went down, aunt open the last bottle of red wine.... cousin n sis dun like the taste, so pass theirs to me... n i finished it up... blur blur le... den did stupid things... n when i say stupid, its really stupid... worst part, its all taken down on the video. this mrn, woke up wif a bad headache... still had to meet ppl go city link n suntec there... need to buy pants... damn... cant find wad i wan.... den felt really ill... den all went home le... im sorrie guys!!!! feeling feverish now... but i dun have a fever... feeling a heavy bag in my head... but cannot remove. im feeling like im dead inside, but i cant help it... im feeling sad. but i dunno wad to say, or do bout it... im letting it all go.. i dun see a point to hold onto smth thats not gonna give this chapter of my life a proper ending.. so here i am, giving myself an ending.... n so he left, left me to live my own life, while he tried to rmb the days i helped him, get him up, n entertained him when he cant slp... how dumb was i? to wait till 2.45 in the middle of the nite, so that my dad will be aslp, n call him to chat.... n all his and all his ans was " im tired le.... i need to slp... sorri huh... next time bah... bye.." so izzit me? is this wad ppl can fan jian? yeah, i agree wf that, n im considered a slut in this aspect. thats enuff rite? im starting to bring my life down to the toilet bowl, n at this point when someone is about to flush, u pulled me up from it.... gave me advices that r useful.... i noe at times im juz so sick to listen to wad u say, n totally ignore it... but when the day ends, i think back, all u said came true... yf once told me that he will get all 100 men to pull me up, n save me from the maze.... i lost my way as usual... but this time, im finding my way out faster den expected... faster den getting 100 men to pull me up.... u help me.. but how am i gonna help myself? really thanx alot of ppl 4 their many many listening ears, n advices.... i feel like such a big fat liar... i lie bout my mood, i lie bout myself... i told myself to be happy... im gonna be happy... i noe im gonna be happy... but its dragging, n its not starting soon... its getting to be so tough that im sick of being myself... its a tough job. i hold myself to be cheerful. never to disappoint my fren hu need me. i dunno la. but at least i tot there will be a smiling face whenever u need one, n im there! dun when i reach home, i cant remain the same anymore... will cryin help? i really duno... cos it enver came across me that i can cry at all... im brought up to be strong in my emotions... but how am i dunno release my sorrows, n temper? i expect alot from myself, but it seems that it never come true, n i can never make myself happy. i cant reach my expectation. i need a shoulder, everyone tells me that they wil lend me theirs... but i have never lean on 1 except that time camp, n i wanted to slp, n ben lend me his... other den that, whenever i cry, i had to hold myself together. y cant i be weaK!!! i luff i play, n joke, n do all kinda dumb things... but izzit really making me happier? definately noT! i conpare myself to alot of people. everyone have their own problems, n worries. but i juz wan a dae when i can really truely be myself again. the kim that behaves herself everywhere. the kim that everyone 1st noe on the 1st day of sch. that is the me. the kim that dun scream ard. im hate myself 4 that. i wan smth better 4 myself, n im gonna work 4 it. no one can get me wad i wan. im my own boss. n tough boss. a tough boss that still needs a volunteery shoulder. can someone walk up to me n tell me its time to cry? this is a long post... i still need to thanx alot of people. thanx krisite da jie 4 her ears... i really wan to give u a big big big big big hug 4 the things that u told me, the things u taught me, the advices u gave, n that decision u made me think about. i noe im dumb at times, but really thanx u 4 being so patient in trying to explain facts to me. loy... thanx to u too.... thanx 4 the ears.... when i juz wan to nag, n complain... u juz listen, n never said i was wrong.... thanx u so much!!!! ben ben..... thanx so much.... u were there when i needed u.... always there... im sorrie that recently i neglected u alot... but we r always the best of frens rite? i noe its a down time 4 u now... but i'll be always there okies? im sorrie 4 all the times when i was pissed off, n i kinda used u to vent my fustration... but u noe i dun mean it... im really sorrie bout it. im always here 4 u okies? thanx ben! u really made me luff when im down, n feeling like throwing smth out of the window. thanx 4 the many many advices u gave, trying to make me face the facts, n telling me that u r also there 4 me... im really glad that i made a fren like u.... thanx 4 all those offers u made. i noe i have alot of u there standing 4 me, n im happy that in my poly life, a made a great deal of frens, that made my life fufilling.... if 1 day i were to die, i die wif no regrets, cos i noe u! thank you 4 reading such a long post. its 11.45pm now, n its time 4 bed... tml is 8 am lesson, n uncle giap is giving me a lift. xie xie ni men.... wo yeah hen ai ni men de!!! ahahhaa... Friday, June 17, 2005 @ 9:40 p.m.
4got to say smth.. since giap wanted me to say how nice he is, that will be it... hahhaaa.... yesh he is nice... 4 helping me when i needed help most... 4 fetching me to sch early in the mrn, n 4 fetching me to sch todae when i gonna be damn late... hahaha.... n thanx him 4 that 16.95, n 1.5 hr wait... i cant say he is the best, but he is one of the greatest frens i've met... although we noe not long onli... but he helped me alot, n listened to me when i felt like no one is listening.... n he made me feel that im never alone.... thanx fren... jieying!!!!! u r not 4gotten too..... u r the best too... thanx 4 acc.me to take train when u can actually juz take a bus... thanx 4 listening to me when i needed ears.. imreally greatful to u 4 the many many thigns that u have done.... times when we dun agree wif each other, but we r still the greatest fren of all rite??? i wan to watch ALOT LIKE LOVE. sound so interesting... but now cannot... no money... i wan upload the pics in... but also cannot... wads wrong wif the com!!!! idiot... everything is not going my way anymore... @ 9:28 p.m.
this guy is seetoh chee whye... he is holding a ballon, n he kept insisting that his mouth is smaller den the ballon's mouth!! hahahaaa.... he is acting cuTE!!!! kekekee..... he forced ppl to take picture of the mouth he tot is smaller... keke... @ 8:33 p.m.
once apon a time, all about LIFE. everyone will think that what they did is at their best.the same thing they will say... "i treid my besT!!!! i tried very hard le..." but think again, did u really put in the most effort, n really tried ur best??? when u start to think bout ur life, i think if u have anyone that u can tok to, n speak ur mind. that person maybe someone u hav known a long time, or someone u have juz known. im my life, i have alot of frens... seriously alot,... everywhere i go, i will see someone i noe... but does that mean that i alot pf people i can tok to... when i look at my sis, n wan tok to her... she will be toking to her boyfren... den i wan tok to my frens... dunno how to start... i really hope someone will read my mind... n tell me wads wrong wif me... but that juz wont happen cos i think that having someone reading ur mind, is scary... really dunno wad i wan in my life... i juz wish 4 things to be the best asap. i wan everyone to be happy!!!!!!! Tuesday, June 14, 2005 @ 5:35 p.m.
the word of the day is DUAH. meaning.... i got duah... tml no movies... tml im free.... tml i'll be bored... tml i have nth to do.... cos someoneduah me... bleahs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sunday, June 12, 2005 @ 6:34 p.m.
2nd entry of the day.. from the time i posted my 1st entry until now, i've glued my butt on the chair, n my eyes on the computer screen.... this is so pathetic to have nothing to do at all. im freakyfied. i have nothing to do. i got so much to think about. there is no one else thinking 4 me. maybe its time i employ someone to think 4 me. im so bored... its time i find smth to do, someone to tok to, n smth to tok bout. im such a boring person. @ 1:23 p.m.
its starting to give me problems again.... din go sentosa wif them ytd... den suppose to go high tea... den blah blah blah lA.... my knee is killing me again. n i found that its crooked. shit, im onli 18. n im having so much problems... how to live my next few dacades... advertisement fail. registration close. i shall be dumb n continue wif wad i have been doing.not really la... but i noe wad u mean. watch movie on wed n thurs.... but no money.... i have money, but its trap at the wrong place!!!!! auntie foo!!!!! pls call me n ask me to collect moNEY!!! maybel!!!!!! jia you! my fortune onli left wif $4.80. thanx da ge, n uncle giap. 4 those encouraging words, n the decision that da ge made 4 me... n those words, n experience uncle giap shared.... im still very fortunate. i do not need to meet every guy's requirement to find a boyfren. i juz have to meet my owe requirement will do.. na matter whether its gonna make me a 'evil spinister' or not, does not matter anymore. as long as im happy.... thats the phrase that everyone wans to noe, n hear bout me! had a dream last nite, i was crying in town.... crying n crying.... n i dunno wad i was crying 4... den i took out my phone, n call... i look through all my list of frens, n its like empty suddenlyy!!!! i look ard , tryignt very hard to find a farmiliar face, rack my brains to find a number that i can call to... i juz couldnt!!!!! den i felt so alone... so lonely, so sad. i had no one to turn to.. until someone came over to give me a hug, n held me on his shoulder, letting me cry all i wan. but when i turn ard, this person disappear... n i woke up wif tears all ard my face. i was really crying... wads this dream suppose to mean? i really dunno... i tot bout it... but im not gonna put it here.... i juz hope that i can have to same dream again, so that i noe hu that person is....br> Thursday, June 09, 2005 @ 11:09 p.m.
todae 2... the 2 points come from the fact that i made myself happy.... cos i listen in class.... 8 lousy points? no one made me happy.... oh 4 got... it should be 6!!!! cos i got my new phone!!!!! 4 lousy points, cos its juz lousy.... Tuesday, June 07, 2005 @ 8:33 p.m.
Dun be overly nice to a ger when she is sad its true... when u r overly nice to this ger when she is at her low point, she will fall 4 U.. if u r a great fren to her, she will need u even more... (as a fren i mean) but if u r juz someone that she onli treats as a normal fren, she will fall in love wif U... its may be short term or wadever... but she will think of u... that is wad most people will say making use... but actually, she din wan to... she juz needs love, n at that moment of time, u gave her to most love, n concern.... best frens dun fall in love wif each other.... they r there to compliment each other... to finish each other's line, to think 4 each other, n to care 4 each other.... they are there to help each other when they are down n to lend a listening ear... best fren dun fall in LOVe... cos wad they have with each other goes far beyond LOVe... n to each other... its juz so natural to be part of each other's life.... the line drawn between lovers, n best fren is... lovers make ur heart flutter, make u out of breath... make u do silly thing 4 him.... make u be at ur best... best fren dun make ur herat flutter... best fren always noe wad to do wif u, at every point of time... best fren dun make u do silly things 4 them.. n u can be at ur worst wif ur best fren, n ur best fren will luff at it wif u.... a lover can be a best fren..... but a best fren, will never be a lover.... juz like a square is a rectangle... but a rectangle is never a square... in mathematical terms, (a.maths) lover is a sub-set of best fren... get it? okies, its kinda blur.... tml is 8th junE... i have 1 more week b4 my bill ends 4 the month... 1 more week of suffering... my bill is gonna explode... n im broke. AGAIN. Monday, June 06, 2005 @ 10:23 p.m.
feel again.. once again, kim's heart feel so broken.... she is sad. reason? she dun noe wads next. kim needs motivation. a guy prefered. guys wif the tian jian of below, pls register.. hahahhahaa tall... no need very la... lower the limit... 1.75 n above can le... looks... no need very gd looking... kan de shun yan can le... if u think u look okies, can le... super loving, n understanding... dun have to have alot of time... but understanding is most impt. A bonus point will be if can play musical instrument... guitar preffered... izzit very choosy? lower le.... but as long as i got feeling can le... someone pls motivate kim... cos she got no more motivation... Sunday, June 05, 2005 @ 4:50 p.m.
a great saturday! was out at the bbq last nite... i tot i would be embarassed, or wadever when i see him, but as usual, all my crap covered my red face or wadever... was at JE when he called me... asking me wad time to meet n things like that... den meet at 6.30 at tiongbahRu lo... but as usual la... he is late again... den i waited, n 2 traines left le... asked him buy smth 4 me to eat, den he ask me come out, den but myself, cos inside cannot eat... fine... made me wait... bleahs... den he was smoking, den i was eating la... den this guy doing surveyy 4 romancing s'pore... ask us bout it... do survey lo.. so its okies la... but WAD THE FREAK!!!!!!!!! he is damn asshOLE!!!!! he wanted to do some age group... he was like.. 3rd group? which is 25 to 30... wad the hell!!!!! n im like nO!!!! group 1 onli... 16 to 19!!!!! im onli 18!!! asshole... -_-" den he ask 4 name... den he put MR. den im like !!!!!!! dun piss me off anymore... den i say, n btw, im a miss, not a MR.!!!! den eth was like... luffing until bth lO... paiSEH!!!! freaking ass..... okies, i was damn rude to him... but hell, i was kinda insulted!!! K him... well, was suppose to reach like 7 smth, but when we reach pasir ris, its like almost 8!!! den think the bus juz left bah... den we waited very LONG LO!!!!! hahaha... nth to do, den ask qian bian wen da ti.... n i think he caught a cold... kekeke.. den want to buy ice, den went in.... oMG!!!! saw my uncle... i was stunned... knew he wont come, but i should say, i tot he wont come... den gu ma asked y i never meet her come together... n im like... hEllO~!!!! im 18, i have my frens, n i meet ppl 1st cannot r... im no longer that 8 year old her LO!!!! but i told her i meet him 1st... den she was like.. 'y muz meet?? cannot come urself R~!!' omg... hahahhaa..... i was thinking... meet ppl cannot r... like its gonna make ur life sad... duHZ... aunties... den vernice asked me a qns... u n him together r??? hahhaaa.... i was luffing like hell lo.... den i say NO LA!!!!! y u ask? den she say.... i tot awd... u all come together.... den i say come together means together meh.... i also go out wif alot of guys de wad.... den she say oRh... okies understand... den eat abit of things onli.. den drink lO... erR.... 1st i took soft drink.... den vernice came over... wan to drink? den i was like.. yeah, im drinking... she say so sad r!!!! soft drink.... wine LA!!!! den i was like... okies lo... since wad can my uncle say, when i 18 lE... den chat chat chat lo... kenny came too... n he still look so skinny... anyways, that murphy, is ever so chatty.... started telling me bout army stuff... omG!!!!!! its not related murphY!!!! im a ger, a female.. we dun do that kinda thing..... im logistics, not combat!!!! n i left like 10smth... he was really nice, cook 4 me, n i was so damn lazy to walk over to the heat to cook.... den chatted, n that nicole was like trying to hook him up!!!! my god... look at her size, n everything.... wahahahaha.... n when she was toking to him, me kenny, n him keep gving each other the eye, n the look.... wahhahaa.... its an insult to her, but bleahs.... i dun give a damn.... im glad that everythign is back to normal, n i think im damn cold lo... n they said change... did i? yeah, maybe bah.... i use to be quiet in the office, that guai guai ger, that 16 year old ger, the boss's niece... but im diff now.... i tok in tune wif them.... n im getting more vulgar... its not a gd thing... but it juz made them think im not that guai anymore.... its not like i want it... but im so used to it lE... he told me he haven seen me 4 very long le... n im like? long? its onli like 2 months + lo.... hahahhaa.... i dun think its long.. cos long means 4 ever... but long also gd lo.... we can be long long see 1 time fren, like that got more things to say wad... kekeke..... n im glad i got over it... cos im KIM!!!!! im strong, n i have a bunch of great frens out there.... i dun need love, cos love dun need me.... im not a great person, neither R u!!!! i found that i live my life happily... i dun need u, n i dun think u need me too.... my heart is a block of ice.... its hard frozen, n it needs a high temperature eater to melt it... until now, all that came by r juz normal heater, n it melts off onli a lil... n the water that comes off r becoming ice again.... i love my life to be juz ice... heaters r welcome.... but pls look into the mirror b4 u Q up to be a hig temperature heater.... ;P!!!! Friday, June 03, 2005 @ 7:35 p.m.
The look so far away.... ben Look Hus shoe!!!!! Look at that expensive nike shoE
hus shoe size is bigger? yay! guess hu is that... yaofeng : thats my DADA SHOE!!!! 80 bucks... Converse.... the 9 shoe fella zester look at me.... im so bored!!!
da 2 ger ger shoes!! jieying the mei nu!!!! hahahaa.... dressed so sweetly the elegent charles n keith shoe... jieying those shoe is mine.. the lil boi shoe... wahhahaa.... loycus guess hus? wahahhaa.... mine mine mine!!! bored in class.... not listening. but dreaming...of... pui yuan! think thats her name la.. nono..... wahhha....a zesterina loe bao bao!! ho diyana... n that shoe.... she is wearing skirt wor!!! ouch!!!!!! he hurt his ears...pain pain hor?so sad... kekeke its not a candid shoT!!!! he pose it okies!!! the k sistas!!!! 2 jie, n xiao mei!!! lastly, its me!!!!!!class is so boring, so all these appears... @ 7:15 p.m.
2nd week has ended. yup... 2 weeks gone juz like that... was kinda happy that everything is going on juz as normal... nth spectacular... nth really interesting. ethelred!!!! dun think u r reading la...but i wan tell u that ur pics is in the choice mag!!!! tml chalet... i think im gonna be damn enbarassed.. dunno if its gonna be okies at all.... is everything gonna be alrite? is everything gonna be back to normal? i dunno lA... i dun need anyone to tok to.... i need some advice... to the person hu noes im toking to... if it hurts in anyway, im always there.... u need a ear? i have 2.... u need a shoulder,i have 2 sides too.... if u need some advice, i have them too.... it may not sound nice, but at least there is advices... to the person whom i dun think noes that im toking to.... i dunno wads going on at all.... at any part of ur life, but if there is anything that i can do 4 u, pls let me noe... i maybe always disturbing ppl, or wadever... but i noe wads rite, or wrong.... if u need anything, im there too.... juz like i've said above, i have all that u need 4 advices..... both of u can share my shoulder, n ear.... cos i'll always be there 4 u guys, cos there is nth i wont do 4 my frens... no matter how close... or how not close... since the start of sch until now, increds have been luffing/disturbing me n ben.... putting us together....its really cute lo.... its obvious its not possible, but at point, its so cute looking at their face when they disturb ppl...i dun mind,cos we both noe its not true, n we both have ppl that we wan in our hearts.... i really hope that ben can get that ger asap.... u noe hu im toking bout ben!!!! wahhahahaha.... but if u need someone to go westmall wif u, dun look 4 me wor.... hahhahaa... later she tot smth going on, den she will be sadded de... kekekekkee... this few days damn cute... so many couple couple thingy... kekeke i hope all goes well.... ben juz do well hoR!!!!!!!!! hahhahahaa...i place my bets on u.... if u lose, den i also nth to say le... im sorrie giap!!!! i bite ur fingers until bleed.... my fault... but dun bully me anymore okies? hahahhahaa.... cos im is chui ruo de.... HUAT r.... dun bully me also okies? cos kim no energy play le.... im 18 le wor!!!! dun always bully me hor... kekkekeee...... i think i bully ppl more la... kekekee.... anyway, todae is denise b'dae!!!! happy b'dae denise!!!!!!!!!! hope u r happy 4 wad we did!!!! kekeke.... den the cake was yummy yummy.... when i get the pics, den say bah... ;P |
