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Monday, January 31, 2005 @ 6:56 p.m.
c00L~!!!! hey hey!!!! todae is POA CT... hmm.... kinda okies la... but since i haven learnt anything until last friday, i guess im still on the okies side... finished the 4th qns, den i fell aslp le.... hahaha..... den wooke up n continue the last qns... in 30 mins, i finish the entire paper, n lying on the table slping le... hahaha..... den went canteen 1, to go through some ITL things.... hmm... think tml should be okies lo... den went end up lying on the table to rest again... damn tired r!!!!!! den still go over to KAP mac 4 food... anyways, todae nth much to say la... but jason juz sent me some nice things to see.... quite cute.. go n see!!!! http://www.tt67.com/HAHA/1/5.htm http://www.tt67.com/HAHA/3/22.htm http://www.tt67.com/HAHA/3/29.htm the last one is rather lame la.... but nvm la..... kekeke.... njoy!!!!! Sunday, January 30, 2005 @ 6:16 p.m.
 this is wad i do when im bored!!!! kekeke.... playing wif my webcam on the night, wif the comfort of my rather messy room.... i din make the mess... my sis did!!!!! kekeke.... @ 2:53 p.m.
fustration!!! argh!!!! i cant stand it le... i hate studying... anoter 5 more days to go, n im done wif common test, but i juz cant sit myself down, to look into my notes, n practice.... stupid POA.... y muz we study??? waste tiem... bleahs!!! wee.... feel much better.... hmm.... looking at my blog 4 so long, im getting tired of it... time to change a skin!!!! dun like this anymore le.... its too girly i guess..... too not used to it.... seems like nth much to add here le.... ytd my grandmum's b'dae... went to her house 4 dinner... its always the same kinda food everyyear.... since all my aunt n uncles can afford, y not go to a better place? every year also the same coffee shop, eat the same thing.... upgrade la! like that den can show that u guys have improved!!!! den this year, its onli the 16 of us, instead of the usual 20... my aunt 4got to inform my uncle, den he has to work, den cant come.... my dad n sis is sick AGAIN..... den my cousin gone 4 camp.... n it seems so quite this year... no fun le... den todae is sunday, which means housework day.... my elder sis is so damn smart, went to sch to study, den dun have to do.... my younger sis is sick.... den assume that she dun have to do... den my mum also let her be.... den i have to do all alone.... NO FAIR!!!!! when i was running a high fever, i still have to study, still have to do work... but she sick, den big deal meh?!?!??!!! she can do wadever she like.... no fair!!!! :( so fast, new year is coming le... in bout 1 weeks time... n my house is still in a mess.... although no one comes to my place to visit, but i still like it to be neat.... n i like to open the window.... but cos my dad is sick n they are doing some work to the carpark, we have to close the windows.... i dun like!!!!!! its like trapping urself in a house, n so stuffy... i like to open the window im the study room, den look out... facing the big field.... so nice, n peaceful.... but grr... cannot... anyways i better stop complaining.... im juz glad that i can live past this year's cny... many ppl dun have the chance to sit down every dinner wif their parents 4 a proper dinner.... oh yar... todae is my parents's 22nd wedding annivesary.... juz now watched their wedding video... hahaha..... my dad looks twice his size now... n my mum looks juz the same.... like never changed.... hahah... my dad still ask me if i wan to wear my mum's wedding gown when i get married... wahhahaa...... n my mum still have it.... she made it herself lo!!!! kekeke okies okies.. said enuff.... time to go through my POA again..... all da best 4 tml!!! Thursday, January 27, 2005 @ 8:45 p.m.
studYing sucKS!!!! really really.... i hate studying!!!! 4 the past 11 to 12 years, i've been studying, n im getting sick of it!!!!!!!!!!!! haiZ... but i dun have a choice... i onli can try my best... i onli hvae like 2 more years to go, n im done wif poly!!!!! anyways, mon have been spent studying 4 econs... its so damn lame.... somethings, can argue de.. den they tell me that asshole lecturer says that follow wad the book says... den still tell us to argue our point... y dun we juz fill in wad the book wants us to say? like that we no need him le wad... memorise from the book can le.... wan the dumb ass lecturer 4 wad... phew..... i juz hate that bloody lecturer.... if wan ppl to listen to him, den treat ppl nicer la.... dun sometimes dun care, sometimes care.... den is like so the wad..... wa LAO!!!!!!!! i juz hate him 4 not marking my attendence when i was there.... grr... anyways, thues we went shopping... yaofeng wans to get smth 4 his dear dear jasmine 4 their 1 month anniversary... hmm... kinda sweet la... expcept the part when he took a long long long to decide on wad to give... end up getting her a long sleeve shirt... den i went to buy my things... went far east, to find shoes... hehehe... end up getting a 23.90 pair so shoe... actually there was a nice sandals at 39.90... hmm... its not that ex la... but its way over my budget... no need ex shoes... cheap cheap ones will do le... den wanted to get a skirt... hmm... its very nice.. buy my dad will jump when he sees the length of the skirt... his brain will burst b4 i walk out of the house...hehehe.... den went to a shop, wanted ot get jeans... that crazy sales ger, wanted business so muhc, that she keep pushing me to try try try.... so since im going to get 1, den try lo.... omg... she is so crazy... i din like the stretch, n cut of the jeans, den i said i dun like, cos its stetchable... den she still tell me in chinese" nvm de... wash wash, will loose le...."den i say dun wan... so went to change out of it... den she come push the curtain open, den got me a size bigger... WA LAO!!!!! she dun understand or wad!??!?! say will loose, still give me bigger size... den i ignore her, n change back into my jeans, n came out... den she saw that i wasnt trying, den ask me y???.... my goodness... den i tell her i dun wan la... dfen she give me that fucked up face.... den i saw the skirt that i like, n its damn cheap... but tot bout her attitude... bleahs... no way i'll buy from there.... make me vomit blood man!!! okies okies.... enufff oc complaining.... todae spent to whole say studying, n helping my mum wif her cookies.. of the entire week, todae is the 1st day that im staying home the whole day... den i found that i dunno alot of things ITL..... im dead man.... to gonna chiong chiong chiong my POA le.... den sat n sun go through all, think should be okies le.. tml is also a big day.... its the 49th day of my grandpa's death... times pass so fast.... i totally admint that i dun feel a thing when i think bout him, n his death... but when i think bout the day his body was cremated, i feel the tears rushing up.... im not close to my uncle too... but when i look at his pics, i try to think bout him from my memory... but nth seems to come up... onli the fact that he is gone, n my grandmum onli has 4 sons alive now... maybe im juz emotional, n the fact that both r my close kins... anyways, yst went to help sureya wif some filming... 4 her project, n found that actually its really fun!!!! maybe 4 1 day la... but the production part is fun.... the damn acting part sucks... imagine putting alot of makeup n standing under the hot sun, n ur makeup starts to melt, n u look like a drenched bitch... oh man... when i look into the mirror, i cant even believe thats me.... 4 the 1st time, i had on so much makeup... den i told them not to put up my pics, n never ever send them to me.... i look horrible!!!!!!!!!!! anyways, my mum is gonna chiong her cookies, n im gonna chiong my studies.... tml will be a gd day to study... i guess?i gotta studY!!!!! but is mac a gd place? hmm... gd that there is more place to sit la... but i might end up eating more den i study!! okies okies.... said enuff... this entry, is kinda long le.... n btw, our dear fren yf has his own blog le!!!!! omg... can u believe it??? he this kinda person also have blog... okeis okies..... thats it...bYE!!!! Sunday, January 23, 2005 @ 10:30 p.m.
EsacPe!! yay!!!! im feeling much better... maybe cos i went to escape ytd? kekee... hmm... went escape to play, den went to the fish farm... n it was kinda enriching i guess... n the most interesig part when we went to the fish farm was that there is this smop selling cats, dogs, n rabbit, n all kinda fur animals la.... n we say a male n female dog fucking... oh man... den my sis bf wanted to take a pic of it, den the dogs so shy, den quickly run away le... it was kinda spoilt by my sis bf la.. but it was really interesing to see this... bet alot of u never seen that b4!!! anyways, we went escape, n had a lil fun la... it was very hot, n the sun was so damn.... wadever u can say... we played everything there, n had alot of injuries!!! my both knee is injured!!! got bruise... but its fun... kekee.... den went to play the go-cart.. hmm.... was actually rite behind den started cutting everyone infront of me... den my sis bf tell me to try skid... den i try... hahaha... almost go n knock everything down lo.... lucky im still abit stead... if not damn paiseh lo.... kids can play so well, me this almost 18 ger, going to knock things down... den there was another one where i had to fetch my sis.... wahahhaa..... den she had a taste of an ultimate gd driver... so gd that it cause her to feel giddy after the ride... hehehe..... kinda fun la.... went to get some pics taken at the water slide.. keke... got a keychain wif out pics.... its so fun!!!! todae... did a kinda silly things... went to highlight my hair.... omg!!!! i dun dare to go to sch tml le la!!!! its more of highlight black, den highlight golden/orange... i really regret letting my sis distroy my hair once again... hmm... i hate it now!!!! i do nice nice 4 her, den she deytroy 4 me... no fair!!! anyway, tml going back to sch to study le... common test coming, n i have no confidence at all!!! this week, gotta chiong chiong chiong!!!! my sis juz went through her things, n found a few pieces of poetry i did when i was in sec 1... hahaa... reading through it, really brough back alot of memory, n farni stuff..... its juz smth so simple, n yet it can bring back the times i had in sec 1, when i juz started sch, n being that ever so blur looking ger.. here is 2 of wad i did back den.... sounds a lil farni la... but thats sec 1 alrites!!!! KEKEKEE... the view outside my window i look out of my window, hoping to see guys pass by. whenever they pass by, i will feel very shy! there was once not long ago, a handsome guy passed by. as i look out of the window, he looked at me, smiled and said"HI!" and guess wad?!?!?!! he's not a guy...-_- hahahaha.... its kinda farni la.... but nvm... keke.. here is another one... i look up into the sky, the sun shone into my eyes.. the brightness blinded me, the vision i could not see.... wad a silly lil rhyme it is, n u r sillier.... for reading this!!!! wahahhaa..... hahahah.... silly rite??? kekeke.... anyways, thats all i got todae!!! hmm.... maybe tml i will write more la... hehehe.... Friday, January 21, 2005 @ 5:43 p.m.
im not in a gd mood... there r so many tots that i wanted to share... so many things i got to say... but when i get the chance, my heart soften, n i dunno how to start.... i start to wonder the importance of my presence in life.... after i write this, alot of ppl will start to tell me that im impt, n all those crap... i will feel a lil better... but still...alot of things, r based on my own tots, feelings... ever since i step into poly, i lost my crap, n cheerfulness.... i use to come home from sch/work, smiling n feeling that a great day past.... i had the attitude that wadevver comes, i will still hold the sky 4 u guys.... but now, i think if the sky drop, i will rather it hit flat on me, n let me go off... relief my pain, n many useless tots... titus juz told me to be juz like b4... be that sweet, n smiling gal... i tried hard... but i fail when i reach the bus.... i cant even hold it out till im at home... every night i face the same problem... sadness drown me... n the onli person hu actually care, is someone whom im not close to at all.. where r all my frens? i they leaving me to fight the battle alone? even if after ppl read my entry, ppl will start telling me they care, n stuff... the real fren r the ones that standby u, wifout letting u noe, yet when u r down, they r the onli ppl whom u can see.... i use to be a very straight person, say wadever im not happy with... but now, i start to think bout wad others feel... but when i care 4 ppl, i lost my tongue, n cant seem to express myself... i never tok back anymore... no more facts from me... i feel like a hypocrite.. im no longer myself... ppl, dun tok to me okies? dun tell me u care, cos i noe deep down, not all of u care... the mouth moves very fast, yet the heart doent feel the same... true frens r the ones that is far away, yet cares.... u can be near, but u might not be my fren at all... cos even a fren cares.... Wednesday, January 19, 2005 @ 10:54 p.m.
thats me!!!! NOT VAIN la... juz a lil zhi lian... hehee.... nth to do in class mah... @ 9:31 p.m.
.: bo0o0o!!!!!!! :. hmm... sometimes, im so sick of thinking bout others... im feeling so self centered nowadays... ppl r having so much problems out there, n me? im sitting here in front of my com. not even thinking of how to help, or wad to do, to make things better.... im always thinking bout myself, n wad i think... i seems to have neglected alot of ppl ard me... im so selfish.... i wan everything to be perfect 4 myself, n myself onli.... no one else... as i sit infront of my com. many tots flash across my mind... but the most impt of all, is the tot bout my common test..... yeah yeah, its juz a common test, but i wan to do well... juz like i did in sec sch.... i seems to have lost all my focus, n drive to study... i seems more interested to be on msn, n waiting 4 smth to happen somehow.... but everyday, im disappointed... i seems to be wasting time dunno 4 wad n dunno 4 hu.... i will try my best to help my frens out when they need help... will be like when im in sech sch, help when i can!!! yeah yeah!!! thats the spirit!!!! todae i pass the webcam to my sec sch fren.... omg!!!!! i feel so pissed off.... wan to buy juz buy la.... dun say so much lo.... ask so much.... spoil expect me to pass 4 u r.... wa lao.... i dun owe u anything lo... i dun have to get it 4 u... but i did it out if gd will lo.... now u wan a 1 to 1 exchange if anything go wrong?!?!??!?!! no way.... spoil le, serve u rite!!!!!!!! besat is spoil 3 days later!!!!!! wee..... thats feels much better..... hmm.... thsts the way it should be!!!! not happy, say it out... not infront of the person, behind also can wad... kekeke... anyways, i wan go study leh!!!!! hmm.... really, im serious... will study econs 1st.... i think its quite easy bah.... after econs, den i study POA... den ITL.... but i dunno wad to study 4 BCA.... den maths... hmm.... okies la, no need study much de la... kekekekee..... okies... off the study!!!!! btw, jieying!!!! i wan tell u smth.... i should be telling u this...."there is sunshine after the rain".... smile, n bbe happy!!!!!!!!!!! Tuesday, January 18, 2005 @ 2:22 p.m.
calvin, loycus n jason... thinking they damn gd looking... @ 2:18 p.m.
diyy diyy!!! smILE!!!!! @ 2:12 p.m.
thats jieying in class, almost doing nothing at all... hmm... BCA class is so boring, that im taking pics of everyone!!!! hahahaa... @ 2:07 p.m.
Monday, January 17, 2005 @ 8:26 p.m.
smth i read todae.... If a gal cries in front of you, it means that she couldn't take it anymore. If you took her hand, she would stay with you for the rest of your life; If you let her go, she couldn't go back to being herself anymore. A gal won't cry easily, except in front of the person who she love the most, she becomes weak. A gal won't cry easily, only when she love you the most, she put down her ego. Guys, if a gal cried bcoz of you, please hold her hands firmly, she's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life. Guys, if a gal cried bcoz of you, please don't give her up, maybe bcoz of your decision, you ruin her life. @ 5:35 p.m.
rejection... ever came across some days when u get total rejection from almost everyone u meet? have u ever come acossa day or a period of time when u cant seems to get anything done, n start regrettng the things that u bought, n cant seems to find a way to get rid of it... haiZ... im always regretting wad i bought, n wad i did... den i will tell myself.. see la!!! that time dun wan think properly, den now regret le la!!!!... haiyo!!! qi si wo le!!! den on sat i was working 4 2 hrs outside liat towers as a surveyor, for beijing 101... hahaha..... in 2 hrs, i had alot alot alot of rejection....its even more den going to a guy n asking 4 his no., den kena rejected... izzit really such a sensitive topic? asking bout baldness, n hair loss.... hmm.... maybe i got no such experience, so i dunno.... den seeing ppl running away from u, is really amusing, n yet disappointing.... izzit really so diff. to juz do a short survey??? i dunno.... maybe next time den i will noe better bah... but maybe not, cos my family has no genes of thinning hair, loss of hair, or balding!!! hehehee.... my last post created quite a commotion.. everyone telling me that im not alone... yeah yeah, i noe... its juz that sometimes when u see everyone hand in hand, going off wif someone else, den u r left all alone, it really knock into me that heY!!! 4 once, im alone!!!! was chatting wif my classmate during our break... n it turn out that i got alot of misconception bout relationships... to me, a bf has not much use... really... they r juz there, to accompany u when u r bored, tok to when u need someone there... but izzint that a gd fren, instead of bf? hmm.... maybe like wad they said, the rite one is not here yet... i haven changed my mind over many things yet... joel juz told me smth... that when i have that tot again, try thinking positive!!! think that my prince charming is riding a pony, so it will take some time 4 him to arrive... n as time goes by, it will become a strong horse, n when i get onto it, it will be so strong, that everything will go so fast...well its very nice of him to teach me such ways of thinking... THANX JOEL!!!!... noe y in the keyboard has the U and the I together side by side? hehe... cos u n i cannot be separated!!! kekeke.... okies fine, im lame... anyways, todae is not a gd day... todae is bad hair day, bad dress sense day, n bad wadever wadever day... having a sorethroat, n sneezing all the way from home to sch, n sch to home.... muz be someone scolding me lo!!!!!! hehe.... im starting to think alot now... i cant find my direction in many things... i dunno wad i want anymore.. i dunno wad im heading 4... i wan find myself again... i wan to be at that height, at that peak, where i feel strong enuff 4 myself, n strong enuff 4 everything taht comes to me... anyways joel wants me to say that i lurve him... wahaha.... how thick can his skin be? where got ppl ask others to say they love him.... i think he love himself too much.... hahahhaa.... thick skin guy!!! wahha... anyways, i said it, u gonna treat me lunch again!!!!! hehehe..... close ur eyes, n dream of the unexpected... it will happen one day.... Friday, January 14, 2005 @ 5:26 p.m.
yo0o0o....h0o0o!!!!!! my my.... guess wad im i doing at home on a friday evening, not having any programs, n stuck at home infront of my laptop, n looking at pics.... so no life leh!!!!! HAIz.... todae, is the day when i really really feel im all alone.... all have programs, go out wif gf, go out wif bf, go out wif mum, go out wif frens... n me?? go out alone to jurong point, wanted to buy new year clothes... but end up buying smth that is so unrelavent... wanted to buy skirt 4 new year, but cant seems to figure out which is the best.. den end up buying a top... hmm.... really tot bout changing my new year resolution le... everyone is so happily attached, n im all left alone... boo hoo hoo.... hahha... but anyway, maybe its jux that once, of the many many times i feel alone... sometimes as i sit by the window, looking at the people hu walk past, n wonder wad they are thinking at that moment of time, n r they having a gd life anot... den u think bout ur frens whom u haven met 4 a long time... u start to wonder r they getting along fine anot.... but the worst part comes when u ask them out 4 lunch, n they tell u they r bz.... wa lao.... heartbroken lo... im so bored.... no one ard to acc me.... haiZ... if got bf jiu hao le... he will be so so so so fortunate...(i guess) but i noe im not a gd gerfren... i will learn... kekeke..... jk jk jk.... im still young n pretty, y look4 others, when others can look 4 me?? hehhee... so bu yao lian hor?? kekeke Thursday, January 13, 2005 @ 6:56 p.m.
its finally oveR!!!!! yay!!! finally mde idol is offically over!!!! no more ben worrying bout his accent, no more jieying worrying bout her monotone, no more thinking bout the hair, n no more alot alot of things!!!! yesterday's event was very fun.... interesing, n exciting... went all the way to fajar to style our hair, den went back to sch to change into our formal wear... well, mine wasnt that formal, but juz like ben, i think i look nice in it!!! keke... actually everyone look real nice last nite.... including jieying n yao feng!!! really... u guys were cool!!! during the event, there were parts that cock up, n parts when ben said the wrong thing.... den parts when the curtain close at the wrong time.... but still everyone did well!!! cheers to all!!!! a small disappointment was that quite alot of ppl left during the show, n missed the results... but its alrites... there is the end, there is pretty n handsome us, n loads of compliments... everything hopefully is fine... anyway, when it was time to go home, we all took alot alot of pics.... its really so rare that we can all dress up to our best, n its really cool!!! okies... kekeke when i reach the busstop, i started taking out all the black pins on my hair.... wa lAO!!!! there were like 16 pins in total, n my hair was in a total mess.... den i started to comb it properly, n it took a long long long time... when it is combed wifout any tangles... my hair was so damn curly!!! but okies la, curly until i like... kekekee.... den my dad drove up to donavan/shaun's house to pass their parents the new year cookies... reach home at bout 11, den was on the phone wif shaun until 11.30 bah... den went to bath, den went online.... i think yesterday was one of the best daysi had in my life.... the most njoyable part was that the 5 of us can go to yf house, den go there chit chat, den go make hair, den go ard together, it was really fun.... thanx guys!!!!!! 4 everyone hu made yesterday possible... ppl like our 4 very impt organisers, lowina, andy, seetoh n kristie... n also my hao peng you... ben, jy, yf, diyy, jason, calvin, loycus, n benson.... although u all always bully me, but u guys were great!!!! anyway, i need to go n eat my dinner le.... take care everyone!!!!! cheerS!!!!!!!! Sunday, January 09, 2005 @ 5:59 p.m.
Hey ben!!! this entry is dedicated to u.. in life, there r many things that we cannot control. 1st is our feelings, n the other is our human reflects... wadever that happens now, it always happens 4 a reason... sometimes u wonder, u havae already done ur best, n y r there still ppl out there, always finding fault wif u... well, actually no one finds fault wif u... is that u r not confident wif urself... izzit because of ur acne scarred face, or wad?? no one is looking down on u because of that... we may be making fun of u because of it, but we it was all a joke... if u feel unhappy bout it, im really very very sorrie, n i apologise on behalf of all of us... den its the MDE IDOL emcee... if u r not gd enuff, no one will ever let u be the emcee... u noe urself the best... if u r gd, u r gd... no matter wad others says, u noe urself the best... have more confidence in urself!!! ppl during ur bb days supported u, n appreciated the way u deliver ur lines... but really... in poly, there r so many ppl, n there definatly r better ppl... being able to be out there speaking, is a great advantage le... dun be discouraged, by wad the other ppl says... if they wan it not to be so slang, den reduce it... wadever they wan, let them have it... this shows ur flexibility... this shows how willing to change r u... u noe ur standard... wadever others say bout u, dun bother... we r there to support u can le... if u dun trust us, hu else will u trust??? when u dun have money, look 4 hu? dunno how to do work, look 4 hu? no one tok to u, look 4 hu??? i may say all these all the time, but think bout it... hu u look 4?? u look 4 ur frens.... if u think we r always luffing at u, n worried that we will leave u one day, den wads the point of being frens rite??? we r great frens, n wadever happens to u, we will be there to help u... give urself some time, n built ur confidence... dun let other ppl bully u again.... jia you!!! those hu look down on each other, r not frens... you are who you are... no matter wad happens, we r always there to support u, n never look down on u... never will... i promise..(cross my heart..) Saturday, January 08, 2005 @ 5:40 p.m.
weEeeEe!!! yesterday was a long long day.. so long that i tot it was never gonna end... 24 hrs a day, n 4 once, i tot it was too long... i woke up at 6, n had to reach sch at 7.30... reach sch, n wa lAo!!!! its onli me all alone... Grr.... anyway, we had to get the donation cans, n go ard asking 4 donations 4 the tsunami victims... it has been 2 weeks since the tsunami... n until now, the donations have been coming again n again... it is starting to get so irritating, to see ppl in the streets asking 4 donations, n bugging u all the way... anyway, i din do my job... we end up sitting at the atrium 4 2 hrs+ waiting 4 our lesson to start at 10... den when it was time, we went 4 that boring ITL lesson... n after everything, we went 4 the next class at 12, to find out that there is no lesson!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg!!!! 14 n 1/2 hr in sch, wif onli 1 hr of lesson... it was so irritaing... den we end up going to the library to do our project... suppose to do la... but i end up slping, cos i was too tired... after waking up, we did more of playing, den doing project... keke, joking ard, den take alot alot alot of pics.. keke, damn fun lo... keke.. den went went to atrium to buy food.. that stupid yf, ask me to try that spicy sausage... hahhahaa... damn spicy, n really very not... it was so hot, that my lips were like on fire, n it felt so swollen, that it hurt so much.. i never gonna try that again... but keke, i still ate bout half of it, b4 giving up.. hehe... den we ate pizza!!!! it was like having a party at the convention center... juz that 4 of us, sitting that, eating pizza, n lying ard... fun!!! next was the MDE IDOL, last rehersal... was tiring, cos we had to come up wif a back stage interview.. was running ard, trying to get the contestant to come back stage, den have to record down everything... n was damn paiseh in the begining.. but well, its over!!!! but... when we review it, its a lil too0o0o soft, so... guess we gotta find a way to make it louder... anyway my dad din come fetch me home yesterday, n i was so hungry n tired, that i was so pissed off wif dunno wad.... i was really very irritable, n i tried to control myself... guess i did.. hehe hmm... todae wad suppose to go chinatown wif them de... but 1st my sis is not feeling well, n in anycase smth happen, im there... and another thing is im too tired to go... someone called me last nite, n i din never had to energry to pick up the phone, so i let it ring all the way... din even had energy to reply to jy's msg... im going to replanish my energy 4 the MDE IDOL day.... so that can look nice nice, dress nice nice, n be ncie nice!!! hehe... those hu r going, pls pls pls!!!! dun duah me... buy tix le, muz go hor!!! kekeke... all that best to all the idolS!!! Thursday, January 06, 2005 @ 10:34 p.m.
peek-a-bO0!!! todae is a better day... i went to slp last nite feeling much much better... at least i noe someone out there cared 4 me, n wan to noe how im feeling... thanx u... u should noe hu u r... really thanx u alot... u really made me feel much better... todae is IS day... woke up at 10, n lie in bed thinking, wad a wonderful feeling to be alive.... its so totally opposite of yesterday... anyway, i too my time, to pack my bad, go n bath, n had my lunch/breakfast.... by the time i left home, it was like 11.20 le... too a bus to clementi, den went to the bank.... wa LAO!!!!!!!!!!! so many ppl.... den i decided to wait... waited 4 almost an hr b4 im done, den had to rush to sch..... went to class a lil late, but my lecturer haven started... so gd gd... keke, den had WAA, n IAC... hmm... its so suprising that i paid alot of attention, n seems to eaeger during IAC... thats so weird... anyway, i went 4 netball todae, wif pauline... hmm... was a lil blur, but it was fun.... haven felt the wind, n enjoy 4 such a long time le... never had a chance to take a break from the tortures when im in sch... its such a great feeling.... tml will be a long day... reach sch at 7.30 den end at bout 10 bah... long long day... hope i can live pass it, n be alive... smiLe... :) Wednesday, January 05, 2005 @ 7:05 p.m.
crushed.... suddenly, im feeling so crushed, n empty... it seems like someone took my soul away... izzit like that when u got nth to do??? i dunno... but usually im not like that. im sure of that... but wad happened todae??? from wad i rmbed, nth!!!! i was smiling, n playing ard the whole day... but now, at home, infront of the computer, n 4 cold hard walls, im feeling it.... i seems to have lost it all.... someone stole my soul, stole my smile, stole my happiness.... my tears r running out soon, unless i can find a solution... physically, im fine.. but phycologically, n deep in my heart, im feeling so empty, n hollow, like im dead, n there seems to be like a huge war fighting im my mind.... i went through frenster, i saw pics of some frens i haven met up wif 4 a long long time... i wonder how they r getting along now... hows their life, n how they r feelin at this very moment... i always got this feeling that when im happy, im happy wif everyone out there.... but whem i sad, i always seems alone.... maybe its that i find it weird to tell ppl that im sad... but since the blog is here, i should use it.... i saw the pic of him... n i wonder, how he is getting along now... did wad i said the other time made him lose all contact wif me? of izzit that i should make the intiative to contact him... its seems like a wasted frenship... i really wonder.. y did u ever treated me so nice?? did u ever feel anything anot? i felt like a boat, lead on into the big ocean, n suddenly let lose, n find myself lost in the big n vast ocean, not knowing the direction, n wads the next move... u said u cared... but where were u when im down, n needed comforting??? wad happened to the promise u made?? izzit onli valid for onli that period of time?? i finally felt that sometimes, being in a relationship has its advantages... there is aways someone to lean on behind, n someone to count... no matter how many gd fren u have, someone special will always be special.... the lost n emptiness is getting deeper... i wanna get out of it!!!! im sure everything did not start becos of him... but wad caused it??? izzit that bloody fiakingecons lecturer, hu din mark my attendence, n makred me absent? or that my sis left the house, wifout even telling me wads 4 dinner???? im so damn pissed!!!!!!!! i need to lose my temper... i need to release myself off all those stress storing inside me!!!!! argH!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so trapped... i feel like breaking into pieces... izzit better that i hide out, n disappear 4 one whole day... maybe i'll feel better... there seems to be no more space in me, to store my anger... i might juz explode into pieces, n disappear 4ever one day... |
