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In Life, everything that money can settle is not a problem. For everything else, they're just facts that we need to face. , kim Tagboard archives April 2004 May 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 March 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 January 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 November 2009 June 2010 affiliates charmain Benson Pauline Xiuli Candy Denise Five to Spare Xuemin Aining Joel Cheryln credits skin by: Jane |
Saturday, December 11, 2004 @ 5:54 p.m.
goNe.. sometimes, things r really weird... when u least expect them to be gone, they turn away from u, n disappear from ur life 4ever.... i juz recieved the news taht my grandad is gone... n i have frens asking me, how r u feeling now??? really, i dun noe... i feel nth at all... but how can i have no feelings when thats my grand dad... when i was younger, i use to try n be nice to my gtrand dad, tell him not to smoke so much, cos he will die early... but he told us dun be kaypo, dun bother bout him... n we din bother bout him... when he went into the hospital last week, we all tot he is goner soon.... n drag on 4 1 week... 1 long week... i really think that he waited 4 us to visit him, b4 he leaves... the whole of my family has already went down to visit him, except the 3 of us... den we went down on thursday... n i think he really waited 4 us to come visit him... its 1 month after my uncle passed away... in juz 1 month, there is 2 death in the family... when the news that my uncle passed away was known, i din feel anything... until my dad came back from shenzhen with is belongings, n everything... den i started to feel it in my... its so unexpected that a 45 year old man can juz leave us so soon... when i knew that he told his frens about me, n about my character being like him, i started to cry... although im not close wif him, but he is still that uncle hu gave us 100 US bucks 4 CNY... that uncle hu bought us gifts, n that uncle hu caused alot of trouble 4 my dad.... no matter wad he did, he never harmed me, yet he seems to dote on us more den the other cousins... now, my grandpa is gone... i dun noe wad i will feel... will i be sad, or will i be feelingless.... there is a feeling of lost, but its so faint, that it seems to pass wifin awhile... anyways, im not the onli one hu lost a granddad... jieying too...(huggies ger..) she might feel sad... very sad... cos she had a close relationship wif her granddad... but i wish to cry 4 him too... but y cant i!!! y dun i have a grandfather that brings us out to play, hu hugs us when he sees us, n a grandpa hu tells us stories, n smile to us... no!!! he dun... when we visit him, he dun smile to us, he dun tok to us, he juz ignore us, n do his own things... when he is in hospital, i see a bag of bones, covered in skin... my heart hurt, but it hurt not cos he is my granddad, but cos a person can come down to such a state... he cant see us, he cant hear us... he cant answer us, he cant hold our hands... he cant eat, he cant move... when he is moved, he hurt... y?? y can a person be in such a state.. sometimes i juz wish that there is someone hu can be there to give me a hug when im down, or a person to confort me when i need it the most... not frens hu tok down on me, or ppl hu shot me down wif words everytime i open my mouth... i agree im not the best or wad... but no one is perfect here!!! im not, neither r u... |