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Wednesday, January 05, 2005 @ 7:05 p.m.
crushed.... suddenly, im feeling so crushed, n empty... it seems like someone took my soul away... izzit like that when u got nth to do??? i dunno... but usually im not like that. im sure of that... but wad happened todae??? from wad i rmbed, nth!!!! i was smiling, n playing ard the whole day... but now, at home, infront of the computer, n 4 cold hard walls, im feeling it.... i seems to have lost it all.... someone stole my soul, stole my smile, stole my happiness.... my tears r running out soon, unless i can find a solution... physically, im fine.. but phycologically, n deep in my heart, im feeling so empty, n hollow, like im dead, n there seems to be like a huge war fighting im my mind.... i went through frenster, i saw pics of some frens i haven met up wif 4 a long long time... i wonder how they r getting along now... hows their life, n how they r feelin at this very moment... i always got this feeling that when im happy, im happy wif everyone out there.... but whem i sad, i always seems alone.... maybe its that i find it weird to tell ppl that im sad... but since the blog is here, i should use it.... i saw the pic of him... n i wonder, how he is getting along now... did wad i said the other time made him lose all contact wif me? of izzit that i should make the intiative to contact him... its seems like a wasted frenship... i really wonder.. y did u ever treated me so nice?? did u ever feel anything anot? i felt like a boat, lead on into the big ocean, n suddenly let lose, n find myself lost in the big n vast ocean, not knowing the direction, n wads the next move... u said u cared... but where were u when im down, n needed comforting??? wad happened to the promise u made?? izzit onli valid for onli that period of time?? i finally felt that sometimes, being in a relationship has its advantages... there is aways someone to lean on behind, n someone to count... no matter how many gd fren u have, someone special will always be special.... the lost n emptiness is getting deeper... i wanna get out of it!!!! im sure everything did not start becos of him... but wad caused it??? izzit that bloody fiakingecons lecturer, hu din mark my attendence, n makred me absent? or that my sis left the house, wifout even telling me wads 4 dinner???? im so damn pissed!!!!!!!! i need to lose my temper... i need to release myself off all those stress storing inside me!!!!! argH!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so trapped... i feel like breaking into pieces... izzit better that i hide out, n disappear 4 one whole day... maybe i'll feel better... there seems to be no more space in me, to store my anger... i might juz explode into pieces, n disappear 4ever one day... |