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In Life, everything that money can settle is not a problem. For everything else, they're just facts that we need to face. , kim Tagboard archives April 2004 May 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 March 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 January 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 November 2009 June 2010 affiliates charmain Benson Pauline Xiuli Candy Denise Five to Spare Xuemin Aining Joel Cheryln credits skin by: Jane |
Wednesday, April 27, 2005 @ 3:05 p.m.
piCS taKen in m'sia.... its a lil late...but better den never rite?? kekeke
@ 1:45 p.m.
i take it baCk ur name is not sorry, yet i said sorry to U... it might be better, if there was a respond... but well, i think too highly of myself... wtf, im taking it all back. take it all back, so that i never apologise... i wasnt in the wrong, n i apologise, cos it made many ppl unhappy... so weLL.... no more sorries from me...is that pettiness u see?? yes it is... im petty so wad? so wad if everything i do, i expect someone to say smth... be it gd or bad, i want, or i need a respond... but hey, i dun owe anyone at all... no more gd things from me... right from the start of everything, i tried my best to satisfy everyone... n i do it wholeheartedly... i never wanted return, but all i wanted was a thanx. thats it, nth else... i dun need anyone to tell me that they love me 4 wad i did. i juz need a thanx. if its done badly, den tell me im wrong. i dun mind if u tell me im wrong wif reason. but dun tell me off when u r no better... until now, i truly never regreted helping anyone out... but if my manner of speech mad anyone mad, i need to noe!! hyprocrisy i admint but hey!!!! hu izzint guilty of that?? sometimes helping others is not helping myself. i get banged 4 wad i do.... ALL THE TIME.. n i still do wad i think is right. so many things happen, n now im asking myself...is wad i do wrong or wad? y im a doing this to myself, juz to get stabbed??? if anyone feels hurt, y cant it be me? dun i have feelings? cant i be sad? when im deeply hurt, wad can i do? shut myself up, n cry at home? i cant!!!! im not someone hu brongs sch trouble home, n bring family trouble to sch, n show my unhappiness... yes, i tok bout it... but i dun make anyone unhappy over my problems... when i have problems at home, i cry myslf, to slp, but i have to do it silently, so that my sis wont hear me, n no one will noe.... when i have trouble in sch, i cry when im bathing, n do it quietly, so that no one neos wads going on.... i write it all in the blog, not becos i wan anyone to read it n tell me sorrie, or wadever they have.... i need to vent my fustration eventually... my trouble bottle is filling up, n i dunno where else i can store them...yeah i noe very well that crying wont solve anything, but hell, im a ger, im not made of metal, i have my emotions, n tots. i once told someone that im sad, n that person asked my y.. but i cant seems to open my mouth n say y... cos i noe its gonna hurt someone... ben noes the best... he never ask more, n always listen when i wants to say smth.... i truly thank him 4 all that he have done.. thats wad i call a true fren. fine if im not a gd worker, if not not a smart student, if im not a gd daughter, if not not the best fren, if im not the best helper, if im not the best person to turn to... but pls lO... u r angry, sad, disappointed, or irritated wif me, ignoring is of no use at alL... im of such feelings that no words can describe. i duNO whether to be sad, angry, disappointed, or wad.... such pain... it huRtS... someone's gonna tell me that its okies, everything will be alright, there is always sunshine after the rain. blah blah blah... but really... i dUnNo wad i can say or do... are u venting ur fustration? cos i really cant see wad i did that is wrong.... pls enlighten me... all i wan noe, is someone to read my mind, tell me everything is alright, bring me out from the misery, tell me wad to do, pat me on the back, tell me im not wrong anymore, n give me a hug... say im wadever u wan.... i dun care anymore... maybe its the staying at home problem... im starting to think.. i dunno if its wif a clear mind, but im sure im not wrong... Tuesday, April 26, 2005 @ 11:48 p.m.
im hard, bit im soft too... i have feelings, but i cant say.... u r sad, so am i.... i can say y.... go away, dun include me, plS.... i beg of U... pls dun include me... i rather be left out, den be added into smth that will make ppl unhappy... its not worTh.. best left alone... Monday, April 25, 2005 @ 2:12 p.m.
101 reasons y ur sister sucks imagine life wifout ur sister beside u telling wad is gd n wad is not... how u wish she will juz buzz off wif her own life, n stop stucking her butt around here, cos she havent found a job. even toking on the phone is never wrong for her oh right... she can have the whole damn phone to herself, n when someone calls in, n is engage, den is alright.. wad a great reason oh yeah... since damn jason is already 21, going on 22... y dun u ask him to get u a line, so that u can tok the whole damn world away one fine day, im gonna throw that hp of urs away, so that u can play games, or sms in the night, right at ur ears, waking the whole day block up wif ur typing, or playing so damn loudly.. n im so sick of going out wif u... right, u need a light bulb, u need someone other den jason, u need someone when jason is not around, n u need someone to go wif u, den im the best spare tyre... oh right... thats wad sisters r for huh? i betu din need a family... all u need is a hp, ur oh so darling jason that gets scolding from u all the time.... u can jolly well shut ur face out of other ppl's life, so that no one will be irritated by ur so damn selfish ways of handling things.. oh right.... so wad if she has better results den me? dun compare, cos she cannot be compared to me... y dun u compare her wif me in terms of sports, n capability? i bet i can outshine her a 100 times. so wad if the sum of my bad points is more den her sum of gd points to u? blow it off.... think bout it... i will outshine her in every espect of life... say she is capable in finding office jobs? think properly... its lil uncle hu gave her the job, not that she got it herself... if she is so damn great, someone would have employed her now, n she will be off working, n not slacking ard at home, irritating her sisters.... imagine going shopping, n u saw smth u like.... den an ass will tell u its bad, its lousy, n its expensive... den thats it... that day will be wasted, cos u cant even get anything home at all... pooFF!! now i feel like a bitch... so many things happened, n am i suppose to apologise? i dun noe... manythings cannot be siad, n i wish i had someone hu can juz read my tots, so that i dun have to say it all out... i juz cant open my golden mouth to voice my troubles... even if i did, i noeits gonna hurt someone.... izzit it better if 1 mouth stops moving, n the whole world might get better? i noe im not that important, but yeah... thats really it, i noe wads gonna happen, cos i can figure out the consequences... im not smart, but imnot dumb either.... had trail camp on sat... it was fun, i totally agree... i noe my limits, yet i did not listen to my body... im not that sec 2 ger hu can jump, run n do all sort of thigns wifout getting anything in return... im onli 17 going on 18, n im gonna suffer 4 ther est of my life... i can run anymore... i need my guards, n i cant find it.... i tot i wont need it anymore, so i threw it somewhere. now i need it n i cant find it.... it hurts so bad... n the worst part is the doc says its a permanent injury, n i onli can be careful not to make it worst, cos at this stage, nth can be done... its like a stuck point... i cant move back, i cant move forward... i juz wish so much someone understands wad im thinking, so that i dun have to say it out.... arGH!!!! i need to cry, so i need a shoulder.... Thursday, April 21, 2005 @ 5:02 p.m.
n this is wad i look like noW... kekekee.... @ 5:01 p.m.
this is when i was younger.... look like me now? kekeke... @ 4:19 p.m.
Thursday 21st April 2005 wad should i say? disappointment, or anticipation? lets tok bout smth else 1st... im damn freaking pissed.. this fucking ger, is spoiling everything 4 me!!!!! i really wonder if wads inside her skull is juz coconut juice, or some pork and banana fillings..fucking ass, wad the hell, always spoiling wadever i wanted to happen.... if u really think u r so great, den get into a JC n stop coming ard, distroying dreams, n telling the whole world that we have to pity u!!!! no one in the world is going to pity an ass hu dun even love herself. BUZZ OFF BITCH!! n now, i think i pissing the whole damn world up... im juz doing wad i think is right. dun tell me wad i think is right, is actually wrong. i believe myself more den anyone else, so stop telling me im wrong!!!! so wad if i got a 13 4 'o' level? it never means that i will be a top scorer in wadever i do, cos that not the way i do my things... stop bugging ppl n stop thinking that u r so damn great okies, got my results todae.... wasnt wad i expected, n not wad i wanted.... i duNNo la... i fee like falling sick... ITL -- C+ MEC -- D POA -- D MAT -- B+ BCA -- C+ WAA -- C+ IAC -- b this sat is MDE FOC trail camp. i really dunno wads going to turn out, wads going to happen... i juz hope 4 the best. hope n lets all pray that we get scolding.. im serIOus.. Girls Dun LIke Guys, Girls Like Cars And Money, cos Money Makes the World Go Round. IM BROKE!! Saturday, April 16, 2005 @ 11:56 a.m.
DEAD!!!! i now declare that kan kimberly is dead.... how dead??? so dead that i haven been out of the house for the past 4 days... n im so sick wifout a voice that im sick of being sick... im coughing damn badly, sneezing non stop, n when i open my mouth to tok, onli croaking can be heard... omG!!!! i cant stand it le... so damn bored... everyday wake up at 11smth, den eat breakfast, read newspaper, den online awhile, eat lunch le... after lunch, slack ard, den slp... n i always slp until 4.30... den awake up, on tv.... den go n bath... den watch tv all the way until at nite.... no life hoR??? worst part is i cannot tok too much,... cos i cant even stand my croakS!!! can anyone out there lend me some shows to watch? hahahhaa... if anyone have the show dolphin bay, pls lend me can? although tv is showing, but i dun have to patience to watch the show so slowly... im going craZY!!!! n i wan to say smth.... i din noe that the curry puff near my house taste so damn gd.... izzit that im deprived of gd food 4 too long that wadever that goes into my mouthtaste so damn gd... i dunno la... but i can say that its really nice... its not like that normal 3 for $1 curry puff that has more skin den potato... but this is.... yum yum.. i cant describe it... hahahahaa next week i wan go shopping!!!! i dun care... i wan to buy smth... i wan to buy buy buy!!!!! but hiaZ..... no marnee leH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i found that actually all gals are materialistic.... all they wan, issmth gd 4 themself.... unconciously, they find that wadever they do, is to make it better 4 themself, b4 they think of others...4 me.... i shall be truthful.... i dont wan love anymore.... it hurts, it hurts so badly, that i can lose everything juz 4 it, n when it dies of, u regret... i think its totally not worth it... izzint it better when all u wish 4 comes true? y dun juz wish 4 money, cars, n material stuff.... its more practical... better den love, branded stuff fun hurt ur feelings, love does... GirLs dUn liKe GuYs, GirLs liKe caRs aNd mOnEy Tuesday, April 12, 2005 @ 9:28 p.m.
when the throat hurts... 1st of all, to all those hu were shocked wif wad i wrote in my last post, im so sorrie... but i did wad i tot was right... i release all my unhappiness.. although its not to the person hu made me angry, but at least its out somewhere... 2ndly, im so tired!!!!!!!! i think i had enough slp, but i juz feel so tired... like i haven been slping 4 the past dorky years... n im also eating like no bardy's business... always hungry, n always thinking of eating those spicy food or 'heaty' food.... 3rdly, due to the bead eating habits, im suffering from sore throat!!!! my voice is so hoarse that i cant even recognise my own voice!!!!!!!!! cos went matriculation todae wad... den tok tok tok... like loanshark, asking back 4 money.. den this n that, that n this... tiring la, but fun.... fun until no voice!!!!!!! mm... i also dunno wad to blog... nth much happening, except that im rotting at home, day after day, stinking, n decaying.... haiZ.... its so sian.... find a job!!!!!!!! going interview on thurs!!!!! FIND A JOB!!!!!! Friday, April 08, 2005 @ 10:16 p.m.
ggRr... LISTEN UP!!!!!!!! THOSE HU ARE MALE, AGE BETWEEN 17 TO 21, PLS BUZZ OFF, FUCK OFF, OR SHOULD I SAY GET OUT OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!! I DUN CARE IF U CALLED A FREN, AN ADMIRER, AN EX-BOYFRIEND, A SUPERVISOR, OR A PERSON CALLED 'THE LOVE OF THE YEAR" JUZ GET LOST!!!!!!!!!!! DUN LET ME SEE U, COS I'LL SKIN U ALIVE, N MAKE U DIE TERRIBLE!!! so wad if it means losing most of my frens? so wad if i admit that most of my frens r male? so wad if i say that im on very frenly terms wif most of them? does that means that im a bitch FULL STOP?? if u so freaking think so, den get out of my life... really... i dun need u ard, to spice up anything... my life is messy enuff, its horrible enuff.... dun add mess n spice into a never ending mess.... dun make me get my hands on u, n turn u upside down... i've had enuff okies?? im not gonna be that xiao mei mei u so very much njoy calling.... im not gonna be that ger that u think is irritating u wif all those craps, 4get those days where i had to wake up early to entertain u, cos u r working in the office when i've already left the job, n njoying... y am i so nice?? fuck it maN!!!!!!!! hows the hell will i noe??? im juz being nice lo..... 4get all the time when i risk getting scolded, jux to tok to u, cos u said u were bored, n wadever wadever..... im not falling in love 4 the sick of falling in love.... im not falling in love, cos im desparate.... im not okies, FUCKER!!!!!! dun do this to me okies? u led me in, n left me in this maze, into this big maze where there is onli 1 small exit... i cant find it!!!!!!!!!!! bring me out okies??? i've had enuff..... i waited long enuff.... im gettting sick of it alrites? SUCKER!!!! fine if u r not gonna get me out, i will sit out here.... but im not gonna live my life like urs, so uselessly.... im gonna get everything done my way.... i lead my life, u shut ur gap up, dun irritate me, dun tok to me, dun look 4 me at all.... i can lead my life damn well wifout u.... im not gonna waste my life away, by juz singing wif some marcus ass.... so wad if he is known?? so wad if u guys can get into taiwan market??? u r gonna be a loser hu spend an extra semester in poly, cos u cant pass ur exams properly!!!!!!!!! i bet u r gonna go another sem.... spend 4 years in poly instead of 3.... bleahs!!!!!!! wdas the big deal bout u??? its not like i cant get a guy... u r not the onli one alrites!!!!!!!!!!!! stop putting ur dumb ass head wif hair that has never been comb into my life, my business, n my stuff!!!!!!! its totally none of ur business!!!!!!!!! dun be so sure of urself.... u r juz a sucker hu thinks great of urself, look down on others, think u can strike it rich in taiwan, n the asshole hu keep caling me xiao mei mei.... im not that xiao mei mei that u once noe alrites... i've grown up, im not a kid anymore, so stop treating me like 1!!!!!! u r not that mature though.... pheW.... im damn pissed.... wif wad?? wad trigger this??? i dunno.... juz read a xiao mei mei thing, n it made me pissed... i shall declare that this guy is outta my life!!!!! never gonana get a foot into thise place... my life, my heart, my brain has no space 4 an asshole like him... a guy i treat so well, yet he treated me like a kid that must so as he says.... im not that!!!!!!! fuck off wif ur buttercup yeaH? hope u get more lost fingertips from starbucks.... give them all ur tips.... give it all up!!!!!!! BUSTARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i totally hate U!!!!!! @ 12:00 a.m.
yoooHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im back!!!! kekekee... went muar 4 the past few days, n had fun.... went waterfall, some shopping, n the best part was..... we can ride the motorboek anywhere we want!!!! hahahahaa... dun wan elaborate la.... but went ben's house ytd... n it was amazing... damn big lo.... took some pics.... when i get it, will post it up de.... nth much to say la... but jieying's b'dae was a success, the trip was a success, but my life is not.... i cant get a job, n my knee is hurting like mad now.... i really dunno wad to do leh.... :( anyways, juz hope that everything will be gd 4 me this holiday.... i wan to get a job, to have money to get wad i want.... i wan to be happy!!!!!!!! thats my holiday resolution... kekekke....crap la... i found that i go holiday i din miss him at all.... but i miss someone i never tot i would miss... its amazing.... :) anyways, i cut my hair.... n i cut it at a catch price... 5 bucks... not 5 sing dollars, but 5 RM.... hahahhaaa.... n its not bad lo... im happy, glad, n overjoyed!!!!!!!!! btw, to those hu missed me... kekekkee.... dun worry!!!!!! im back le... we can go out le... can go shopping wifout buying anything la... kekekkee okies okies, i think i dun tok so much le.... i go slp n let my leg recover le.... muacKs muaCx!!!!! MOTOR BIKE IS FUN!!!!!!!!!! |
