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In Life, everything that money can settle is not a problem. For everything else, they're just facts that we need to face. , kim Tagboard archives April 2004 May 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 March 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 January 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 November 2009 June 2010 affiliates charmain Benson Pauline Xiuli Candy Denise Five to Spare Xuemin Aining Joel Cheryln credits skin by: Jane |
Monday, December 19, 2005 @ 10:29 p.m.
smth is wrong. wad i tot, turn out to be never a fact. ever felt like ur life is so fucked up? felt like u wan do smth bad, yet u fear the feelings of others? i've got that feeling since i came into poly. fear of hurting ppl like i've hurt ppl in sec sch... i dun like that feeling at all all i wanted was the good of everyone, n i guess not everyone appreciates it at all... all i did was try to bring joy into ur life, trying to make u feel better bout being a social outcast. i mean u r in fact not an outcast!!!! y the hell r u ostrasizeing urself, n making life difficult for urself? haven i help u enuff? all that i've spoken of is finally known to be useless. makes me feel such an ass, helping so much, yet not working. yeah.... thanx 4 telling me im a useless fren i always tot u treated me as ur best bud. i help u whenever i need to, help u whenever u wans help, n comfort u whenever u needs comforting. i tried my best. i tot i will never ever get angry with u at all, cos i treated u as my best bud too.... someone hu can help me through tough times, n help me through things that i cant decide. i told u things that u never tot u were... i tot it will make u think more bout being a better person. which in fact did not help, n made u think more bout 4 ppl r thinking of u like that. u change so much that u r no long that fella that we once noe... so much that i wonder if u r my fren at all??? i seriously dun think i over did it todae. im juz finally deciding to voice out my tots, and wad i think of wadever u have done, n made me feel. i think if u were to think over it in a more logical way. wont u feel better? i sound like my toes have been stepped on so long that it has started to rot, n it hurts so much that the toe itself is shouting.meaning: im making such a big hu ha over smth u think is small, but i think otherwise. i mean i dun wan u to feel like u owe me alot, cos i helped u. but i wan u to understand that not everything has to be the way u wan it. u cant have everything ur way. backing out is bad okies? so is outcasting urself. wads the whole point? juz make urself happy on certain occasion!!!! its not bout being able to fit in anot, but to make urself feel confortable, and happy, even if u dun feel in place. juz try to make it better, n not make it worst by not even appearing. enuff said. feeling very very disappointed. |