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Wednesday, April 01, 2009 @ 9:27 a.m.
Emo Day i know..... how often does my emo day last right?? generally wouldnt be too long, but today... im feeling pretty emo n unhappy.... reason being? im not too sure myself too... slept pretty late last night... i have been thinking... wad kinda relationship do i look at? am i happy with my current one? yes... i'll say im very happy in it... he makes me smile, he makes me happy most of the time... of cos being the ever selfish me, i would wish for the happiness to last instead of most to all the time..... n i know its not possible.... i know wad kinda person i am...... i admit to being independent, cos my dad taught me to grow up n behave that way.... i can take care of myself, and u dont really have ppl worrying for me.... but is that the way a relationship work? B worries for G, and in any situation wants to know the most current information and update.. cos im pretty sure its working this way for me... but all my life, i never share my problems with friends... cos i noe very well everyone has their own share of problems, and i should not burden anyone with my own stuff.... same goes to my behaviour with him... wad kinda problems do i have? im someone that contradicts herself 80% of the time.... so now im in the contradicting mode of my life... contradiction should not be shared cos its just retarded, n the other party would get irritated after awhile.... i try to control my contradiction... yet its pretty hard... anyway, back to the point of independence, i yearn for people to take care of me, thou i noe i will definately say "no need la.... i can take care of myself..." however, humans r such perculiar being that after time, the habit of getting used to her taking care of herself sinks in, n the expectation of her being capable just remains.... he says im pushing him away from taking care of me.... yet i say he has gotten use to me taking care of myself to the extend that he has expectations of me being alright myself... assumptions causes this whole situation... fact is that im still upset... n i have no idea y the fuck im still upset about.... he says that at times he doesnt feel like telling me anything, cos he noes my ans, he its the ans that he doesnt want to hear...... kinda breaks me cos i dont wan to be like that.. its not suppose to work this way... |