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Tuesday, February 01, 2005 @ 7:31 p.m.
.: sobZ soBz im going thru pain!!!!!! i cant eat properly, i cant srink properly, i cant even tok wofout feeling pain!!!!!!!! my teeth is hurting like mad now.... its been almost 1 yer since i experience pain when i tighten my braces.... n its killing me now.... its like im goin thru extraction all over again wifout the ma bi zhen....juz like senior doctor did to me... pluck wifout me being numb... sob sobZ.... it really so painful.... it causing me to have a terrible headache... n its not getting better wif my mum's chicken drumstick 4 dinner, n i cant even njoy it.... i found that i should stop toking sense from now.... cos no one believe wad i says.... i tok cock den its not so hurtful, cos no one suppose to believe... but when im saying facts, its a waste of my breath, my intelligence, n my mood.... from know on, dun say i dun tell u anything! im gonna be that selfish bitch that u see on tv, keep onli the gd stuff 4 myself... im BORN SELFISH!!! or izzit me? i think i gotta heed my dad's advice... he told me lat nite that as we grow up, wadever u see on the surface, is not wad it actually going on.... u pass by this road in the past, n rmb that u knock ur head, n fell down there.... u dun do the same things again, but rmb that u've made a mistake at that spot... he told me that wadever character u r, u make the same kinda frens... but its always wise, n advisible to stop, n take a look at the wads going on.... it may sound hyporcrite, but life is like that.... 4 some, u treat them nice, they treat u nice back.... but some, u treat them nice, they climb over ur head, n push u down, n step on u, making it difficult 4 u to stand up again.... im always thinking of such stuff these few days..... the happiest part of my life now, is when im helping my mum wif her cookies... altohugh its onli a short period of time a day, but its a time 4 me to reflect, n to think of the ever so silly things that always do... got this fren whom im not close wif, but known 4 a long time.... he told me that im dumb.... i play, yet when others play too much, i juz luff it off.... y din i say stop or anything,,, den he say that if u wan to stop, den u urself have to stop.... yeah!!!! i noe... i think i need to cool off, n think.... im having CT now, n im thinking of all these stupid stuff... having a terrible sore on my cheek, n back of my head..... headache but dun dare to tell my mum... she sure scold me de.... enver take care of myself... so old le, dunno how to think.... i juz wish i can be treated like a kid, n everything will be so peaceful, n gd.... i can slp early, n wake up late, dun have to go dentist, n have my teeth tighten every month.... damn it... toking bout my teeth... i so bloody regret putting on braces.... becos of that 2 teeth that is sticking out,those 'tiger' teeth... i wont have to suffer.... 4 my future, n the gd of myself...(my dad say de.. smth bout fortune telling) i went through 1 n 1/2 year of suffering, n torture.... its killing me.... im getting so so so so so so so so so so........ fustrated when ever im on my way home.... maybe its the sun.... but i feel like venting my fustration on someone or smth.... i haven lost my temper 4 a long time.... even pauline says that i changed.... i rmb her telling me that..... i use to get angry easily... but now, i get depressed more den angry... but if i get angry too often its sickening.... no one in poly everseen the way i lost my temper.... juz like when i scolded louis.... arGH!!!!!! maybe i'll feel better if i cry out loud, or scream at smth or someone.... maybe it will ease that knot tied in my chest.... i need it out, fast!!!!!! okies okies... enuff of wadever.... anyways, a blog is not such a gd idea after all..... pl read ur post, n when ur mood is better, they luff at wad u think..... fuck it man....maybe screaming out at a tree will be better.... at least that tree will not scold me back... it will juz stand there, n let me scold.... maybe it will look nicer after absorbing all my unhappiness..... huai bei shang wei li liang.... hmm... dunno correct phrase anot la... but wadever... -show my palm- tok to my hand dude!!!! my face doesn't wanna hear it anymore!!!!!!!! |