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In Life, everything that money can settle is not a problem. For everything else, they're just facts that we need to face. , kim Tagboard archives April 2004 May 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 March 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 January 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 November 2009 June 2010 affiliates charmain Benson Pauline Xiuli Candy Denise Five to Spare Xuemin Aining Joel Cheryln credits skin by: Jane |
Monday, February 21, 2005 @ 10:38 p.m.
wtF!!!!! i feel like a clown in this world.... a clown that is juz a object 4 entertainment... a clown wif no life, no dignity, n no pride.... wash away in this world of horror, a world of evil, n a world of emptiness... hu will ever ever think of me as a person wif life??? im juz a clown that is onli there 4 entertainment... the onli person hu will look 4 me, is the circus master. looking 4 the clown to perform.... im juz that.... i've alot of frens in my life..... its onli 17+ 18 years, n i agree i have alot of fren.... but which are the ones that will stay by me in times of need???? i dunno... really really dunno... they are juz ppl hu come to me when there is a need..... when help is needed... if i disappear one day, hu will miss me?? none, i garantee.... y not??? cos once again, im not important... words 4 others, are words 4 me... my family will miss me, cos the noise everyday is gone... wad bout the rest??? its no diff.... juz a day thats going by.... im living my life so painfully.... i feel like a person that ppl use to hurl verbal insults at.... izzit my fault that im like that??? i can take jokes, but plse dun go overboard, cos even the best person can get angry, n im not perfect!!!!! of cos i will get angry... but when izzit a time 4 me to release my emotions??? never! when im angry, im treat as a joke... when im serious, im still treated as a joke.... when am i gonna ever be treated seriously? when i get ard in that PMS mode??? its gonna work awhie... onli until my PMS mode go away, cos after that, that episode is treated as a joke all over again... im so sick of this life.... maybe wadever info i have, i should juz share wif myself... since no one listens... n when they spot a mistake, the blame is not on me... i really feel like crying out loud... asking some crazy god to save me... but i guess crazy god is taking a break now... i feel like crying.... i really do... but my tears juz wont come out.... internally, i cant take it anymore.... my heart feels like its broken into a million pieces, n nth can get them back together.... i feel like hiding out.... until i feel better.... really, n seriously, i feel happier at home.... i never felt like that b4... sch use to be fun to me... now, its a chore... i can picture the anticipated things thats gonna happen.... the words tahts gonna be use on me, and the tone im getting.... im a ger too!!!!!! not all gers are feminine.... pls treat me as one.... ive experience all kinda insults since young, n i've chage alot.... leave some pride dignity, n face 4 me.... |