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In Life, everything that money can settle is not a problem. For everything else, they're just facts that we need to face. , kim Tagboard archives April 2004 May 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 March 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 January 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 November 2009 June 2010 affiliates charmain Benson Pauline Xiuli Candy Denise Five to Spare Xuemin Aining Joel Cheryln credits skin by: Jane |
Thursday, June 23, 2005 @ 9:23 p.m.
fang kai le yi dian... i let a tight knot in my heart lo0se todae... it came off at the last min that i felt that i had... maybe it sounds a lil disappointing... but a burden on my shoulder thats been there 4 so long let loose.... im glad... but im sad too... i let my heart into wadever i do... but i never assurance.... i feel so tired. i see things that i was told thats not ard.... i see things that no one likes to see... i hear things i feel unhappy about, n i see ppl i dun like. yes it sound so personal, n so yeah man n so wadever.... but this is me! i say wad i feel, n i dun like to hide.... i tell u when im not happy.... im sad too.... 4 letting ppl down.... but i did tell u many times, n hinted it to u too.... i noe u noe it... but guess u juz let it pass, thinking i will juz give in... no.. im like u too.... when i wan it this way, n i dun see anything wrong, i wan it my way, n no one can sway me... unless someone can persuade this bull here la... which is quite impossible... i dunno if u guys see it.... but i see it so clearly, that i feel sick juz looking, or even think of it.... favourtism is not a way to let things move on..... u noe it.... but its so obvious that it cant be denied.... im very touched wif wad kim wan aka er jie siad... she told me that wifout me, there is no one to play wif her le... she also siad that its cos of us that they joined.... thats wad jieying siad la... even si han siad that too..... im really very touched.... at some point i noe im at fault.... but i really wan it this way.... i noe its not that i mad a mistake... but i juz felt like crying.... water tap on todae... those hu needs water, pls come look 4 me.... i have alot of water!!!!!!!! i totally agree that im sad.... i dun wan to den that fact... im very sad... sad bout wad? i dunno.... i juz felt so tired of wadever thats happening.... loy say that its not worth it to leave it juz becos of 1 person.... i juz dun feel the drive, or the motivation anymore... when i left the room todae... i felt a sense of peace.... yet as i walk, my tears fall... there are things i hold onto... but there are more i wan to let go... giving up is a right thing(i think la...) but so many ppl tell me its not worth it.... izzit really not worth it? i really dun see where i was wrong in thinking, or where went wrong.... i juz wan to live my life my way 4 once.... all my life, i do wad my dad wans me to do... in my cca, i do wad my officer wans me to do... in sch, i listen to wad my teacher wans me to do.... i dun say im very ver guai.... but i still do things ppl wan me to do... i wan live my life also... mdes is a society no one force me to join.... i join, n did my best.... i tried at least.. i decide wad i wan to do, where i wan to move on... this is the time when i really felt a strong sense of wad i wan.... i quit means i quit... i wont bow down, n wask 4 4giveness.... never in my life... im crying.... n its a running tap.... where is the shoulder... |