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Thursday, July 14, 2005 @ 6:55 p.m.
3 more days to common test. haven been blogging lately. don't know what to blog, don't know what to say here.. i've been thinking that if i din choose this course of road in life,what will my life be like now? ITE? nursing? or some lousy engineering course that everyone will take when they got 26 points. will i still be so enthusiastic in whatever i do, or i will juz slack my life away in poly? so many tots, yet so lil time 4 me to think about it. im 18. young, yet old. im still so immuture, n unwilling to accept certain facts. its a mistake to be stubborn.im changing everyday, every second, learning form everything that comes by my life. the different faces of people that walk past in my life. it seems like my life startsfrom the time i step out of secondary sch, into that 6 months break, n into poly. this 1 n 1/2 years have been a super eye opener. seen the evil,the scheming, the dumb, n the irritating side of people. yeah, im dumb most of the time. always make people feel so irritated with the way i treat others. but thats me, n im trying to change. my fren told me to write wadever i wan in my blog, there dun seems like a prob. yeah... i wan to do that. but i noe its impossible. people reads. sometimes even when im not thinking bout this person, they will feel offended,n feel like u r attacking them. im not pointing my fingers ard. but thats a fact. i dun wan that to happen, but whenever it happens, it affects me alot. its not the 1st time that its happening, n its happening again n again. wad the hell.... i almost cant say wad i trully feel anymore. have been feeling rather numb recently. i cant feel wad i wan to feel, i cant feel wad i truelly feel. is this a gd sign or baD? wadever it is, always look on the positive side. i live to be strong. submitted the army application form ytd... felt a trill... n seriously cant wait 4 the letter to come.. keke was reading this old pal's blog.... reading from the past... really interesting... n i begin to feel... im i rite to let it go at that point of time? yeah.. i wasnt give a chance rite at the beginning... but if i have a chance all over again, i will still do wad i did... except that i will have admitted to it, n not say its a pranK!!! how dumb... -_-" but if one day this person happens to read my blog too... i really really wan to tell him that noe that even when im busy, n unable to acc u at times, u will always always be in my mind... i always ask if u r well.... but i noe well that u will never reply me to that qns... whenever i hear that u r crying 4 someone out there.... my heart cry with u... its not worth it.. yeah... i always joke that im better den that huever there... hahaha.... but im serious... there are better gers out there.... better gers den those that u choose.... i promise i'll be there whenever u need a fren, wenever u need someone to be there.... i really wan to do wad u did 4 me... i noe its gonna be hard... but give me a chance n try to do wad i should do. give me a chance to do wad i did not do in the past. maybe its the feeling of losing touch with the love world... i feel so alone, so foreign with my own life. wads the feeling of being loved at the age of 18? hahaha.... yeah, i noe someone's gonna tell me if not i dun have... is i dun wan.... but am i too troublesome, or that guys now r really onli that standard? i think im troublesome la. i really hope u can be there when i need u.... but u juz dun seems to wan do that... |