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Saturday, August 26, 2006 @ 1:47 p.m.
i dun noe wad else to think at this moment of time.... am i right to even say that i forgave? or if i forgive him, im juz a dumb ass??? its making me lose hair n grow pimples over it... my devil side tells me that i should 4get the wole fucking thing, n get on with my life n start building my walls again... but my angel side tells me that i should 4give, n 4get bout that fucking wall... i dun even noe anymore... i dun hate him, n i dun even blame him.... but wad is really going on with me? i dun even noe... i wanted to tell myself 4get it man... wad the hell... but i dun noe wads going on wiht my brain that i juz didnt do that... i am i person that has strong pride, n i always tot that i can handle anything that comes to me, cos my world is perfect, its not suppose to be spoilt in any way... the walls of protection for myself have been built over the past 4 years, trying to stay myself clear of anything dumb... but that wall was torndown, n now... its debris is all over the place, n messed up... to all my frens out there..... this is me. in anycase u dun noe, let me tell u now... i dun like to be cheated or stuff like that... dun bluff me again... lets juz take this as a lesson learnt that its not so perfect after all... jying going china in 7 days.... i swear im gonna miss her.... no more chit chatting n stuff like that... 5 whole monthss.... how is that gonna last when we already have so much to say even when we r a week apart!!! im gonna miss every single one out there.... poly exams r over. from now n 4ever. 3 years of studies is over just like that, n it seems to be happening too too soon.... had a great dinner last nite when jying, n yf n zester... juz the 4 of us, n we had loads of craps... thinking bout it, we really muz thank benson 4 bring the whole class of us together... if it wasnt 4 him, i guess we wont be celebrating each other's birthday or anything at all... i realy hope the whole class wil be there to send her off, or at least lets take loads of pics b4 she go... jying!!! my either next week if free 4 u... need help in anyway, give me a call... will be there. i miss everyone. i really do. i miss him too... alot alot.... i really hope u will not run away from my life anymore, n dun bluff me anymore okies.... my heart is weak, cant take much pressure. n im always honest with wadever i say... everyone noes that... i dun wan anyone to leave my life once they are in it.... i dun like the feeling of leaving... i dun wan it to happen. |