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Monday, October 06, 2008 @ 9:31 a.m.
Things just dont work the way you want it to. Along a relationship, everything works like a stock market... it goes high at one moment, and maybe at the very next, it goes right down to pit bottom.. similarly, in the relationship that i am going through now, the high period took a long holiday, and now its left with the pit bottom buddies... never have i ever wanted to lose it, or maybe take a step back and take a break... i always wanted things to work my way, and within my control, i always believe things will just work as smoothly, as much as i want it to.. but i suppose dealing with another person's emotion is the most difficult thing... someone brought up in a different environment, and growing well and strong for the past 20 years is drawn to another that is of a totally different world... not that its really totally different, but more or less just the most basics are already different.... the last 1 year and 8 months have been a major roller coaster for me... i've tasted the sweetest of sweet, the sour-est or the sour, and recently i tasted the bitter-est of the bitter... i learnt to love, to feel and to take other's into consideration... i've learnt wad a big bully i am, and how bad i temper i have.... for the 1st time, i felt that my temper is bringing me problems... of cos i learnt to curb it, but at times my temper just broke lose from the cage, and everything goes back to square one... for the 1st time in the 1 over year that we have been together, JS shouted at me... of cos i felt that i was just talking all senses and i considered his feelings... and after the long arguement, i still have no idea wad he felt... neither did he tell me wad i had to do.... y must it seem that im not giving way? i admit that i am very quick and short tempered... but my temper blows over very soon... am i asking for too much? or what? everything i ask this question, the answer i get will be no.... so wad am i to him? wad is the feeling that i am giving him? he said that if i really felt that it is very hard to live with him, we can go our own ways.... this hurts me deep down... there i was trying my best, to salvage this relationship, there he is telling me that we should just move on without each other.. i have my pride too... if that is wad he wanted, i can step back and let it go... but is this for real? am i really suppose to smile n let go? or am i suppose to 4get my pride and beg it back? this few weeks really took my confidence away... everyone says that in a relationship, after 1 year, there will be a major arguement, and if it makes it, things will be fine.. if it does not, that will be the end... is this that major arguement? maybe we both really need some time to think it through, and sort it out... |